I'm too bored~
This year is totally differently from the previous years. I will normally go for countdown with friends but not this year, because I want to be with my family, but only my parents are at home ==, and they are watching dramassss.
So I'm rotting at home until 2013.

Anyway, 11 more mins to 2013. Let's summarise what I've done this year =).

1. I finished my level 1 Pharmacy course which literally makes me fly over the moon.
2. Didn't really had a great 21st Birthday celebration as exam is just around the corner #screwit
3. Worked for a few months to gain some extra pocket money.
4. VISITED OTHER COUNTRY FOR THE FIRST TIME - SINGAPORE!!!!
5. Had a splendid gathering with Elaine, Albee, JY and JH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
6. Headed back to FW.
7. Moved from official FW to Vendetta.
8. Met a few people through Elaine - Luis and Glenn.
9. Got married in FW *hahahahaahaha*
10. Got to know a surprising news - Snowy and Sethagius is currently dating right now!!!! Wow! Grats! xD
11. Went back to Uni for my second year course.
12. Stress up all the way with test, reports and OSCE.
13. Got emo for quite a few times *hehe*
14. Quarrelled with my mom, cold war for a few days =(
15. Spent more than RM150 in a week @.@
16. Moved from Vendetta to Raiderz.....
17. Got myself an iPhone!
18. Posted something to Singapore =3
19. Missing and loving you =)

Hmm.. It's not in sequence but who cares xD.

Happy New Year, 2013 to everyone! May everyone be healthy and best of luck from ME!

I'll make sure I get myself to Singapore in 2013!!! And of course passing my level 2 with flying coloursssss xD.

I promise I'll care and love you more in 2013 =). You do the same too, ok? =)

This year Christmas is the worst of all.

Not doing anything but just rotting at home.

Heart is too lonely to type anything, so good night.

Finally! It's time to chill a little.

Everything is finally over but still got to work hard. There's still assignment to do, there's still things to brush up on. Soon, I'll be getting busy again.
For now, I just want to relax my muscles and mind #letmerest

Christmas is just around the corner.
This year would be my last year celebrating Christmas in Malaysia as next year I'll be celebrating it at UK!! =). How cool is that?
But... Don't think I'll get to have a splendid Christmas this year.
Hmm.. I don't really celebrate but I wish I could do something on Christmas.
There's one plan initially but it failed so yea I don't know what else can I do on that day.
Maybe I just sit around at home, stare at my computer while listening to the fireworks start to spark on Christmas Eve.

I.... really really want to spend my time with someone on Christmas.

Finally done with that literature review (3500 words).

It took me quite long to complete it.

It's been really really a tough one week for me, not only for report but other things as well.

Right now I really wish I'm able to go to somewhere far, where no one knows me and just enjoying the nature.
I want to clear my mind from this stressful life.

I've been waiting and waiting. For what? I don't even know it myself *lol*.
Just simply waiting for something to appear or drop from the sky =D

Just got back from Outbac Camp on Saturday night.

I remembered the next morning, my whole body was aching, especially both of my arms and because of that I lost the mood to do everything.
Can't even change or remove my clothe, bathing also hard, and straightening my arms totally kills me <.<

But yea I had fun at there. It's like a mini NS camp, excluding those marching.
However! All of us were covered with mud! Actually just the lower part of my body.

After the team match, we got the chance to experience the activities there like flying fox, kayaking, volleyball, basketball, wall climbing and etc.
I only went for flying fox and wall climbing and not kayaking because I don't want to get myself wet again. While for the other two, I don't actually know how to play so I'm skipping myself for that =).

Had my first experience for wall climbing and it was really fun.

All I did is just focusing on climbing up that WALL. I don't even know how tall it is and of course I managed to reach the end point =D.

Then I had dinner with friends back in area around Uni.
So freaking tired after the whole day running here and there.

Even though my team was the last but we had lots of fun =).

Pic shooting after lunch

Everyone listening to group leader for the STATIONS!

'The King of Ball'.
Everyone got to carry it and walk around the field a round <.<
Basically, due to my height I wasn't able to see what's in front haha.

Everyone entering a pond with MUD to search for 5 Milo packets!!
If you watch 'Running Man', this will be like the basin~
Could not move yourself once you're in there.
Your legs apparently got stuck.

Me swinging like a Tarzan~ =3

I made a collage of the most difficult one for me.
Seems easy but it's not, until you mastered it - your balance!

OK! This is the 2nd toughest station to me.
Everyone has to climb over that wall with the height of equivalent to 2 people.
And, those that had climbed over are not allowed to help, except for the 4 people
on the top LOL. To make the last person to climb over gave us some headache >.<

Starting fire to boil water for our Milo.
Too bad we failed to light up the fire >.<

Me for flying fox~
Hope it could be higher and faster ><

Wee~ We're ready for wall climbing hahas xD

Hoho~ I reached the top and ready to go down

Me and two ah moi >.<.
They're like sisters to me.
Hate it when I see myself looking so pale *sigh*

My team!! xD

I think I slacked quite a lot ever since I gave myself one day break ==.

Anyway... Today is Friday, ermm nope Saturday now~ *Damn time flies*

And so, I managed to ask Dr. Mak about my literature review's topic and how thoughtful of him for searching for me as well. Annnnnnnnddddd, he explained it to me so I think part of the doubts that I've is cleared now. #thankful #=)

Oh ya, Friday morning I'm unsure if I've made the correct decision. I just somehow let someone know something I don't really want that person to know, hmm.. Even though that person said he's not mad but.. I don't feel good about this. Hope I'm thinking too much again, as usual X.X.

Well I'm sorry if it's really harsh, and yea it is, like you said to me. I really didn't mean to actually, just very down that time. So...... I'M SORRYYYYYY~ T.T

OK! Need to sleep, have to go for Outbac camp tomorrow *ughh*

I'm just goooooona take a break for today =).

Esthy asked me why am I looking so wan lately this morning.

Erm.. Stress perhaps >.< and on top of that I've been thinking quite a lot lately. I got a little upset that things didn't turn out the way I wanted.

So for today, I'm gonna take a break from everything, especially my literature review, which actually caused most of it.

And..... I would like to thank someone who called me yesterday night and we chatted for quite some time. I felt better after that even though I refuse to end the call *wahaha*
Thanks for always be by my side =).

Hmm... Just thought of something yesterday. I've decided to give myself one more try. I read a quote and it says, if you're giving up right now, then why hold it for so long in the first place? So, I'm going to continue hold on to it again.
Next year! I'll definitely achieve it. Well of course, the earlier the better =).

OK! Got to continue my relax time. Tomorrow will be another busy day @.@

I don't know what else can I do.

Apart from being so clueless about my assignment, I've just received a bad news. A bad BAD news.

From this bad news, I was wondering if is this what God is arranging for me? If yes, then I would like to know why.
I always believe, everything happens for a reason. So, why would Him stop me this time??

I planned on going down to Singapore to meet the girls and kid at the same time.
Things were working out fine.
I was overjoy when Elaine told me that I could stay at her place, this save me up lots of money.
Too bad, at the end things don't really seems to work.

The girls will be busy with their own plannings, and kid might be having test that week.

I already knew what bad news it'll be but I still broke down at the end.
Because this is MY WISH, one that I desire so so much and it just slipped away from my hands so easily.

I don't blame them for having plannings on that day.
In fact, I blamed myself for being selfish, for not being considerate.
Everyone will definitely have their own planning on Christmas and yet I was hoping or maybe wanting them to spend their time with me.

I'm sorry.

From the bottom of my heart, I hope you guys, especially Jia Ying can enjoy that day to the max =).


It really doesn't matter anymore if I couldn't meet kid. It's like part of me is starting to give up on the hope of meeting him.
Because I really don't want to be the only one who's putting the effort.
If... by next year we still fail to meet, I'm...... going to make the worst decision ever in my life.


Well, let's hope it'll go smoothly next year.
And for tomorrow, pray hard that I can get a single clue about that freaking assignment.

I think I finally know what is my this assignment about.

Litreature Review. It is to review the researches done by scientists/researchers in a particular subject/area.

So basically I need to study those research done by people and come out with my own review and evaluate it?? #wtf

Hell man! This is the very first time I'm doing this. I'm not trained with it, so how am I going to know what's the proper way to write?
Google search for example!!! I straight give this face (=.=)  to anyone who ask me to do this. It's easier to say than done.
It's just like asking a kid to walk even without teaching him or by telling him verbally???

Simply by theory doesn't help. I believe we need some guidance in how to write, at least an example?? Or any ways?
We're so unfamiliar with the formats and not sure what is appropriate and what is not.

Well I did Google up on HOW TO WRITE, but I don't get it at all.
No idea what's going on even though I can roughly tell what's a litreature review is now.

Then, just read some post posted by lecturer about this OSCE thing. Hell! Now we have more to know/study/learn.
Gosh! I think I'm going to have a mental breakdown.
It's freakingly giving me a phobia to view that group page already.

One week break is ending soon and what I've done? Nothing much.. I just know I have this 3500 words essay on my shoulder which makes me unable to enjoy till my heart content.

Rowatinex in treating kidney stones. My topic for this essay. Hint: Rowatinex efficacy. The topic sounds easy and I've got some tips to start before my break. And so.. I started my research today, yea today xD. Crap~ I've found nothing at all from the web, not even a single chemical structure. Is Google being mean to me right now? Hmm..

I'm so lost now. From that topic I thought I could start discussing on the use, it's pharmacology (dynamic and kinetic -ADME), metabolides, chemical structure, side effects or perhaps history. So many points right to write a dreadfully long essay. But too bad none of the info I want can be found on the net. The net just tells me bunch of sales thingy which I don't want. I need a RELIABLE source to write my essay man, a professional one. I also found some or actually most of the articles about the same experiment which it's aim is to find the effectiveness of that drug after ESWL (extrapoceal sound wave lithotripsy). What's next after this???

Ok!! I know the so call short mechanism action of Rowatinex. It is a diuresis which reduced renal spasm so the renal way dilates, more stones can be removed and increase renal blood flow. When I knoelw this I was like, oh I see, then? What's next? I'm not seeking for spoon feeding, it's just that I can't find extra info. That simple action doesn't explains much. Sorry to say I'm not a genius so don't expect me to know everything. If I do, I won't be here xD.

So.. I'm extremely lost right now. I don't know how to start a word in that blank sheet page. And!! I need to submit 2 weeks later. Sounds long but not. I'll be having mock law test next Tuesday, no idea how is it going to be done and soon mock OSCE, one of the killing exam. Arghh!!!

Rowatinex please be kind with me T.T. I need to do my assignment. I'm clueless and no point at all. And yea I would like to apologise to my dad. He wanted to see my test results I sat last week and apparently I refuse it harshly. One, I'm on game, not really convenient that moment. Two, my results didn't meet my expectation, so I don't want him to see. So, I'm really sorry. Can't blame me for being a partial perfectionist. I promise to let him see if and only if my results are good!

Ok!! 4.33am now, all thanks to Rowa for keeping me worried for not able to think of ideas @.@. Be nice to me tomorrow. Tataz and nights.

Yesterday rushed assignment until so late, sooooooo I just woke up not long ago..

Well I have no choice but to complete it within 2 days since I have test and exam in the same week. But thank god that Dr. Audrey changed the dateline to today. Now, it's 95% completed, left one more part to go *phew*.

And...... After this there's another one freaking long to submit (3500 words essay) ==.
I hope I can complete this. This will be my first time ever to write such longggggg report and it based on only one topic, and we need to dig out many infos from that topic. @.@

Oh ya! another report as well, a short one but I've done that earlier on. It's just that I've exceeded the words limit so not sure if I'm going to reduce it since this is a group report.

Anyway.. That's all for now, gotta continue on the final part.

I'm still awake at this hour!
Looking out from my balcony, closing my eyes and feeling the night breeze, many memories keep passing through.
Not going to explain why am I doing so, but if anyone had experienced this, they'll surely know the reasons =).

Guess I'm really crazy~

Well I've not update my blog for quite some time. I was busy with tests and finally over, now assignments then test again @.@.

But right now I'm just trying to clear my head.
Too many things keep flashing in my mind and I don't know what to do about it.

Listening to songs in Moonlight That Embraces The Sun (a KDrama) is really so soothing.
The lyrics describe so much about my feelings right now.
Yea! How nice if I could travel through time *like the song in Back In Time by Lyn*.

Guess people will think I'm weak that I always want to go back to time.
Well what to do, things don't turn out I thought it would be?
Yea I know I should face it bravely, but I'm facing it alone and I'm somehow scared.

Well guess I'm suppose to sleep right now.
Hopefully every troubles and thoughts can just disappear when I wake up tomorrow.

On nights when wind blows

I gently close my eyes

It feels like you are right next to me

Without words, I follow and walk towards you

Step by step everyday

But I can't approach you

I got so tired after reading up on 6 screens long of articles?? Hmm.. Anyway, my heart and mind just fly back to where I was 2 months ago.

Singapore!!!!!!!!! 

Looking back at those picture, one word - MISS ='(

I miss them - my baobei, JY, Albee and JH.

I actually enjoyed too much that day to the extend that I DON'T WANT to go back Malaysia!! 

I don't care if Singapore is smaller than Malaysia, most important thing is I had fun. I lost count on when's the last time I enjoyed that much.

First time visit to Clarke Quay

In this picture, the most important thing is that ALL the girls are in a picture together.
Too bad no one could take for us, if not there'll be 5 of us ><.
Yea! This reminds me of woman's power in FW!
Heard of the Square? Here they are =)
*Square - a group which is automatically created, because it used to have a DD, AoE, Tanker and heals.*
Oh and in this picture clearly shows you the height in FW as well as in real life.
Doesn't matter whether it's in game or real life, as both are the same (maybe a slight difference only).

The ONE and ONLY ONE picture I have with my baobei aka my oma as well xD.

A party where you can always find the heal and off-heal together.
Because we're inseparable!!

JY JY JY JY JY!!! ><

This is my 2nd sister.
Too bad I didn't take picture with 大姐 =(
Even though I didn't talk much with JY on that day after dinner, and I don't know why.
But! I had fun with her being around *weeee*.
We sat together for dinner!!!!!!

2 healers!! Hahaha..

Think you could die in an instance??
Maybe, yes or no?
I answer will be ___ xD
I miss the healer/AoE behind me!!!
Hope he's doing well in NS.
Oh and my bangs went out of shape after having Korean bbq, argh! #ugly lol.

I just couldn't forget the times we spent together.
The prank I used on JH, the vege salads I made for them, JH removing the prawn's skin (lmao, this is really funny when I think back), me saying 'be right back' when we actually know that you're not in your seat, and we just joke around with 'afk', 'brb' (This is the side effect of Skyping too much muahaha) and etc.

A warmth feeling in my heart after remembering such wonderful memories.

Can get to bed now since I'm feeling better =).

I super duper really really really really wish I could go there again.
This time, not to tour Singapore but for a reunion and perhaps meeting someone new =3
Or maybe it doesn't matter anymore if I'm going there or not. What I really want is to be able to meet them again, regardless of where will it be (of course Malaysia will be the best place xD).

Miss and love you guys, take care =)

미안...정말 미안...

I wasn't able to do anything yesterday.
How I wish I could embrace you but I can't.

Forgive me.

I came across this video posted by my senior. I would say it's quite hilarious!!

Just to share =)

AHH! Finally done with Rooftop Prince, after storing the whole series in my comp for so long.

A recommended drama after King 2 Hearts!! It's basically a time travel love story (of 300 years) and of course also contains normal current issue, company politics. It's really too nice to watch as each part contains so many suspense, and I just find myself keep clicking on the 'next' button one episode after another.

This drama is quite hilarious, touched, romantic and also contains fantasy. *I'm not fantasising myself =X*
I find it too short for just 20 episodes but most of the best Korean dramas only last for 20 episodes, so I'll have to bear with it.

Not going to write any synopsis here, it's up to you to watch, my readers.
I can tell you my rating for this, 4/5 so enjoy =).

It's available at epdrama for streaming, HERE is the direct link to it.

Shows time in the future and past

The protagonists - Park Ha and Lee Gak (Best couple ♥)

LG: why are you so late?

LG: I've been waiting for a long time for you.

PH: where were you?

PH: I was always here.

LG: *Even if 300 years passed*

PH: *I will still love you.*

Some nice OST from the drama.

Ali - Hurt

Baek Ji Young - After a long time

I think my next KDrama would be The Moon that Embraces The Sun. I heard it's a very nice drama too, acted by Han Ga In.

But first of all, I'll need to settle my studies first xD.

Ughh.. I'm finally done with my English speaking exam. I'm not going to think about it anymore. It only makes me feel miserable when I think of how I performed this morning.

Anyway, now left with 3 more papers. Hopefully by this time I can get a band 4. It's like a must to get one now ==.

Then I need to get back on track to revise everything. I'm so lost in the class, not knowing what is being taught =((

So.. Good luck to me =)

I'm happy and satisfy with the way I am right now.

Despite how many assignments, stress that accumulate in me or that fearful MUET exam ==, I feel so much better when I got on Skype each day, because I know you'll be there for me.

You never fail to put a sm:)e on my face each day.

And sorry for getting mad at you yesterday ><

Am i making the right choice or decision?

Hmm.... Don't care about it at the moment. I got other more important things to worry about.

Did I just ruined something so dearly to me??

I do hope I didn't =(

Sorry but can't help answering to his persisting questioning of something I know its inappropriate.

There it goes.... Awkward moment <.<

Sigh..

Seriously shit!

Time flies damn fast, 4 months of summer breaks is ending soon and it's time to go back to the daily routine I once had - back to studies.

Honestly, I really wish I could continue the life I'm going through right now, even though it's meaningless and lifeless lol.
Throughout this break I've learnt so many things thanks to so many people.
I'm really glad and fortunate they walk into my life and eventually become part of it.
But... *finger snap* I should stop dreaming right now.
Everyone needs to move on, so do I.
Time awaits for no one.

Elaine, Jia Ying, Albee, Jian Han (who's in NS now), Glenn, Dino and Dan.
Really thanks to them for the fun, and of course not to forget my beloved ODF ♥

I'm really happy that even though we had conflicts in between the 4 months, our bonds still remain strong.

I hope I can switch back to my study mode asap.
It's always easy to say than doing it, but I know I can do it!

Oh and Jia Ying, I didn't mean to troll you, I just like being a mysterious person xD.
Pretending to be a GM and giving you a surprise is the only thing which would make you be shocked and it's really fun for me.
Sorry for being mischievous.
Ask my friends how many times I've made them cried for feeling touched *haha*.

And sorry for making you guys worried before *hehe*, you guys shouldn't be actually xD.
Some things I need to face myself and learn from experience.

Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you over again.

Don't make me change my mind or I won't live to see another day.

I swear it's true because friends like you are impossible to find.

You're impossible to find.

-Extracted & edited from Fall for you, Secondhand Serenade-

Love you guys ♥

I attended my parent's company annual dinner yesterday.

I love the atmosphere but of course not with loud music as it really blast off my ears.

It's really fun going there, I think thanks to the event organiser who invited Sarimah Ibrahim, one of Malaysia's celebs as our MC.
She's really damn funny and gorgeous =).

Oh ya, I had a minor headache due to the contact lens. Most probably because I'm a little tired and wearing it somehow strained my eyes.
But, I really had fun.

Feels like being in a club

Me and ma sis =D



Aunties and uncles dancing Oppa Gangnam Style LOL 

 

Best dress girls on that night doing performance

Sorry the quality is kinda bad, didn't bring my camera out so I have to use my phone.

I only took video for the girls but not the guys and I don't know why, but as for the guys they got to do MJ's moves, not moon walking, just the beginning part of his dance.

It's soooooooo hilarious that I really can't stop laughing yesterday ><

Anyway, I just went back to bed after finishing LCS with Elaine.

Too tired to stay online for long hours.

How are you?

Hoping things are working fine for you.

Always have faith in yourself.

Take care =)

When a GIRL is quiet,

Millions of things are running in her mind

When a GIRL is not arguing,

She is thinking deeply

When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of questions,

She is wondering how long you will be around

When a GIRL answers "i'm fine" after a few seconds,

She is not at all fine

When a GIRL stares at you,

She is wondering why you are lying

When a GIRL lays on your chest,

She is wishing for you to be hers forever

When a GIRL calls you everyday,

She is seeking for your attention

When a GIRL sms's u everyday,

She wants you to reply at least once

When a GIRL says I love you,

She means it

When a GIRL says that she can't live without you,

She has made up her mind that you are her future

When a GIRL says "i miss you",

No one in this world can miss you more

than that.

From Best Quotes

I'm missing you, like I always do?? xD

Yesterday, the same exact feelings which happened 4 years ago lay upon me again.
It was still fresh in my mind as if things were just happened a minute ago.
That time, I had a farewell gathering with my friends for Shaun and Ah Boon entering NS. I remembered very clear that on the way back I somehow couldn’t control my feelings and cried in the car. Thinking back right now, it’s pretty funny but they were astonished to see my reaction. Shaun was supposed to send the rest back first before me but my reaction made him went back to Ai Ling’s house to get her again and send me back at once.  Their shocking reaction really made me smile widely, knowing that this is how cute they can all be.

3 years back, Jenny is about to go to Australia to further her studies. Despite making and giving her big photo album, I still find myself unable to accept the fact that she’ll be leaving.
She had been with me for so long and I knew her since primary. She’ll always be there for me, definitely.
On her departure day, I was extremely sad because I’m having test on that day and couldn’t send her to the airport.
I phoned her before she entered the plane, wishing her the best of luck and stuffs. I knew my voice was trembling that time but not knowing if she realise it.
For this time, I managed to hold back my tears because they are so many people around me and it’ll be pretty weird if I just burst into tears like that, but I can’t deny that my eyes were watery.

Same thing happened again last year when King is going to UK for studies and will not be coming back after 2 years.
I went to the airport with some other friends to see him off and I’m proud with myself that this time I remain strong.
No tear, no watery eyes but a little bit of sourness in my heart. Perhaps my emotions were influenced by other people.

Yesterday, knowing that JH will be entering NS, there’s a slight sadness in me.
Well, entering NS, no big deal at all, shouldn’t cry. This is what I thought to myself few days back. Yet, I can still feel tears falling down lol.

I’m not sure if anyone ever wonder why would I even cry on such occasions or my reaction ever irritates anyone.
I really don’t wish or choose to answer their doubts because I know we can’t follow other people preferences.

There’s only one thing I can say, I will only shed tears if I know they’re someone important to me, they’re someone I can rely upon when I’m in need of help, they’re someone I really can’t lose.
I’m not saying other people aren’t important to me. They do play a role in my life, but life don’t let me to choose all of them.
I don’t care if people thinks I’m being way too emotional, cause that’s how I really am.
I don’t blame people for not being understanding. I know I’m naive in some way but honestly, if anyone really finds it irresistible all I can say is, don’t be close to me.
I can be nice but mean at the same time too.

But hey think about it, if someone’s willing to cry for you, that means you’re extremely important to them, right?
If you met an actor who fakes tears, then this is the time you should wake up and be aware of your surroundings.

Time flies and tomorrow will be the day where all of us will part with you.
I bet you're feeling excited about this (maybe).
But thanks to you, and of course the rest, I had a really great time playing FW.

To be honest, the moment I got back to FW and knowing that you 'replaced' me somehow makes me a little upset, cause I can't seems to see how important I am and felt so left out as everyone was moving ahead of me.
When I got back, everything was so new to me and I need time to adapt and update myself.

Then I got to know you.
The you that I know that time is one who rages at everything.
You raged easily, get moody and lost the mood playing, especially when you failed to enter any instance or anyone accidentally said something that offended you, which they don't really have any intention of doing so.
You seriously make me dislike you and I find you being like a kid only.
I even told Jay to tell me if you're in FW and if we're doing instance together, so that I would not join you guys. Simply because I don't want you to feel being extra that once I got back, they don't need you anymore. I believe this was once on your mind, because this was once on mine.
I dislike you even more when I got to know stories told by my IGH that you have grudge on him, and the reason for it is so lame and ridiculous.

But, after getting to know you some time, I try to understand the way you behave and things you did.
It really takes time for someone to understand a person's behaviour.
And to be frank, I didn't choose to side my IGH nor you when he starts complaining again.
I just ask him to reflect himself.
Don't blame him for being like that, as he's also another one person who sometimes thinks like a kid.

One thing I can tell you that, the moment I know Diviine, he'll always be SweetPie's idol. You may ask the rest about this =).
And, Diviine will always be the priest that SweetPie can't go without, despite him being AFK in instance sometimes =_=

Oh and thanks so much for the day in Singapore, and of course to the girls as well.
One thing that always make me smile by myself is when you accidentally said F*** in public.
I'm sorry for teasing and playing prank on you, but that's my nature xD.
Your expression is so damn HILARIOUS that I can't stop myself from laughing all the time.

Anyway, good luck and take care of yourself at there.
Don't eat so much instant noodle =_=, you know yourself pretty well that it's not healthy.
I'm grateful to get to know you (thanks to the girls) and really sorry for any misunderstandings or things I've said long ago which might offended you.
And, I think by the time you graduate from there, I'm already making my way to UK, so let's stay in contact by then.
I'm soooooo gonna miss you, eh no, is WE are going to miss you =).
AND! I'm soooo gonna miss calling you DIVINE like HELL LOL xD.
One thing for you to bear in mind, don't expect everyone to understand you and don't expect you can understand everyone. We don't live to please each other. Sometimes it's not only others that have to follow us, but we have to follow others as well.

See you again IF WE GOT THE CHANCE! =DDDDDDD

*peace ^.^v *

p/s: Sorry if I offended you for what I've said, but you're really a nice person =)

Just got back from Singapore two days ago.
Sorry for the late post. I'm so tired and kinda lazy to blog, well here I am now!

Singapore is the FIRST country I visited in my 21 years being alive =D
I bet the first place everyone would want to visit will be USS, but not in my case.

On the first day there, it took us so long to get to our hotel.
The hotel is located at quite a deserted place and my family and I eventually WALK THERE! Not far, just around 1.2km.

Not even a single rest after we check into the hotel.
We head over to Garden Bay and thank god my parents know how the MRT works, maybe.
Well we eventually got confused on the way there to transit train.
Anyway, we got there and time for sight seeing.

Nothing special basically, just tons of trees and greeny stuffs that decorated so beautifully.

Oh! From here, we also got to see the wheel thingy, forgot what they call it and Marina Bay Hotel?? This hotel looks awesome!

The overall view from the garden

Here's something cool too!! Check it out!

Do you dare to walk up these stairs alone????

Sis looks EMO!! xD

After that, we just head towards a restaurant to have dinner.

And, my dinner for that day is FAST FOOD! OMG~

The next day, my parents went to USS but I skipped that because I have a DATE!!
Honestly, this is super exciting, can't wait to meet them.
Luckily I manage to get my contact lens in time. I'm gonna wear this colour lens by Blincon - Pearl.
Love it so much!

Oh my, the lens make me look dollish T.T

Nothing went perfectly smooth.
My family were off to USS and that means I'm left alone at the hotel.
Appointed time was 10am and soon enough, the time arrived.
Waited and waited and waited until 10.15am, still no sign of them.
No phone that I can use to contact them, so I decided to buy a sim card.
Crap! My passport was with MOM!!
This is so shit!
I think I've been pacing around the hotel and 7-11 behind the hotel until the store lady offer me her handphone to make a call.
Well of course I've visited her store many times for enquiries LOL.

Hearing my friend's voice made my day.
Not long later, I heard someone calling me from a taxi.
LOL.. I didn't expect them to take a cab seriously.

This is way too awesome man!
I don't know what to say. I'm having mixed feelings - panic, excited and scared as well.
Overall, it's just to nice.

Karaoke at Marina Square.
Crazy me but yea, I spent my time at Singapore's karaoke.
Oh we have birthday surprise too~

Happy Bday JY~

Elaine and I planned long time ago luckily things went fine.
So the 4 of them bring me tour Singapore for the whole day.

Korean BBQ as promised for dinner.
It's buffet!! LOL and I find the price reasonable.
All of us ate until so full that we're so lazy to walk after that.

Just BBQ-ing everything lol

Next stop after dinner, we headed to Clarke Quay to see Singapore River.

Singapore River + Clarke Quay

I love the night view at there and I noticed something interesting~
This.........................

Omg, I so wanna play this but with my this big, full stomach, I scared I'll puke everything out when I got off.
We took some pictures and just walk around there, looking around, passed by many clubs but not going in.

We're in some kind of supermarket after that.
Guess what!? My first time ever having my taste buds on aloe vera drinks.

Aloe Vera treat by JH and Elaine =D

It taste extremely good that I find myself craving for more after that
Thanks soooooooo much JH or maybe Elaine who bought this for me =)
Super duper love it!

Time flies and I realise it's been so late but I don't feel like going home.
I can't be selfish to make them accompany me so we need to part this time *sob*.

I really cannot forget how much fun I had at Singapore.
Even though I've walk until my legs going to break but I still wish time could slow down a little at that time.

If I'm going there the next time, next spot for me to hang out will be USS!
And I'm so gonna drag all of them out again!! =D
Thanks them a lot for the trip!! Gonna miss them and the day badly.

I've finally finish watching one KDrama - King 2 Hearts.
Seriously this drama has become my favourite, thanks to someone who recommend me to watch it.
There're too many suspense, from the beginning till the end.

It's about the unification of North and South Korea and how 2 people from each country unite together.
I really salute all the hardships they went through to make this a success.
I'm so happy that the ending ends quite well.

Really love this drama a lots!! Highly recommended.

Here are some nice songs from in the drama.

First love - Lee Yoon Ji

Love is Crying - K.Will

Missing You Like Crazy - Taeyeon

I can't Say It - J Min

Only You - Hyung Seong (Boyfriend)

If only you could understand how I really feel, things might be a little easier.

Sometimes, a thing may be positive but in actual fact it is negative.
That is when you'll get stuck in between.

Once again, I apologize for my stubbornness.

Is this really your true colour?
For as far as I know you, you're not such person at all.
It'll be a sad thing for me if you are really what you are now.

I don't know what's going on and you seems to be keeping a distance from me right now.
I don't know if what I've said that day leads to your current action or behaviour.
If that's the case then I'm sorry.
But come to think of it, I don't mind for what you had accidentally did or said to me.
I understand how depressed you are right now but please don't ever hide away from me.
Maybe you don't want to hurt me like what you did, but honestly you already did right now.
What I'm feeling right now it's like there's a huge barrier between you and me and I've got to break it myself.

I just wish you can go back to how you used to be, how we used to talk and most importantly be yourself right in front of me.
Don't hold back any of your action.
You know I understand you and you should know the way I think.
The way you are behaving right now makes me feel I've done something wrong.
If I did, tell me so.

Running away won't solve anything.
Sometimes don't use depression as an excuse. Everyone have their own problems, stress but life goes on, right?
If you need someone to talk to, go find them. The most important thing is that you're able to at least release a bit of the tension in you.
Like I've said I'll always support you and be right by your side.
I'm sorry if I can't be your 'Mrs. Smith' but I'm trying hard right now.
Don't ever give up when I'm not even giving up on you.

Sometimes you may not get what you really want or hoping for.
But still, don't lose hope.
You taught me to be confidence and believe in myself.
Now you've got to do that as well.
Do not worry about the future, no one can predict it, just live and cherish the present.
I know we both are deep thinkers but what's the point of thinking hard about the future if future still seems like a mist to us? You might as well used the time spent thinking about future on solving problems you are having now and live with the present?

The route that each of us walk are never a straight and smooth one.
There're curves, there're dead ends and etc.
All we got to do is avoid those curves or make a  turn back when you reach a dead end.
Eventually, you'll reach your destination.

Lastly, I'm sorry if you think my thoughts are somehow naive or main stream to you.
But do you know that sometimes having naive thoughts save you from many stress?
And Dan, I believe in you! =)

An interesting fact about myself, and it's darn true!

金牛座的人通常脾气很好，因为他们有著极强的压抑心理，可以将任何情绪掩盖在外表之下，并且你要相信，他有这个本事一忍到底。通常他们不发作是为了不让别人难堪，金牛座自尊心极强，正是因为如此，他们很懂得保护别人的自尊和面子。但是不要以为金牛好欺负，这个星座天使与恶魔并存。

在某些方面有著惊人的领悟力，或是数学、或是哲学、更多的是音乐和艺术方面。在这些领域他们可堪称天才。虽然他们表面温温吞吞的，但其行事乖张不下於双子，而平常人根本猜不透他们毫无表情的外表下到底在想些什麼。

沉默，是金牛座最大的哭声。金牛有心事后，不想多说，感觉说话很累，或许是习惯了沉默，习惯了痛，习惯了安静。当金牛座不理你的时候，其实她已经受伤很深！

没事喜欢胡思乱想；性格与脾气都比较极端；嗜睡；喜欢裸睡；泪腺发达，易被感动；喜欢跟喜欢的人身体接触，恨不得把身体揉进去那种；有些悲观；支配欲；有较强的依赖感；偏执，苛求完美；双重性格；一般很抗拒有人走近，不喜欢听见周围有人不停交谈；经常表现出对什麼都不在乎。

一直以来，慢条斯理，稳定性极强，都是用来形容金牛的，而他们在为人处事的时候也的确表现出了这些特质，不愿争执所表现出来的温顺，是因为不想浪费脾气表达，而半天没有行动的懒散，则是因为他们要仔细的研究，考虑清楚，於是，慎重就成了金牛保持沉默的原因。不管周围的环境如何改变，又是用多少的有力证据来劝说，不想争辩什麼，因为多说无益。

没有人照护金牛座的时候、牛牛就会变得很坚强，但是一旦有人在金牛座的身边、他就成了小孩子了。常会幻想却要是家人出事了该怎麼办、想著想著就哭了，喜欢对喜欢的人对著看、也喜欢一个人独处。

其实有时候觉得金牛是个压抑的星座，他在乎的事情太多，朋友啊，恋人啊...可是他不会正确的表达自己的感受，所以经常被人误解。但其实他只是单纯的希望别人都能洞晓自己的心事，但又一次次的失望，最后连金牛他自己都找不到自己的方向，所以故作出冷漠的神情。把自己封闭起来。

金牛吃软不吃硬、经常口是心非，很乐观又很悲观、安全感不多、有点感性，有些话即使害怕错过也不说、常常被人骗、小敏感、小洁癖，害怕受伤、总说自己不孤单其实很寂寞，多陌生人冷冷的、熟悉后就嘻嘻哈哈，总表现得很坚强其实很软弱、总被人误解却不愿解释。只要是他们认準的人或者事、金牛可以为朋友两肋插刀、可以做任何事甚至是付出所有，但他讨厌被别人利用、所以如果你想与金牛座交朋友就不要想利用他。如果他知道了、虽然他嘴上不说但是心裡会开始慢慢讨厌你。

金牛们大部分很恋旧情的，内心设防比较严重，很专情，真的喜欢一个人的话可以喜欢很久。生活态度很认真，感情略微有些慢热。一旦受伤之后会记住很久很久，不容易癒合，但是会隐藏自己的内心，如果积攒了过多情绪的话，有可能会在一瞬间爆发。倾向於幽默的言语表达，信唸经常会随著现实的转变而变化。不擅於改变、他喜欢的就会一直喜欢，他不喜欢的、就永远不会喜欢。

金牛们往往感情投入最多伤的最重，最擅长为难自己、不想对方难过只好自己难过，总以为自己有超乎寻常的承受力、把自己想得太坚强、把别人想得太脆弱。他不知道、其实受伤的是金牛自己，即使心在疼在痛也强忍著不表现出来、独自的承受一切。

金牛隻是会独自一个人用行动来说明一切的人，也是个冥顽不灵的石头牛。

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I'm totally not myself today, can't even get a hold of myself.

Can't even concentrate at work, keep making mistake or forgetting things I've been doing everyday.

I never knew this would pose a huge impact on me.
Sometimes I even asked myself, why care if he doesn't care at all? Why makes myself suffer so much? The only answer that I can think of is just a simple I. don't. know.

I've been thinking hard and lots today but I don't know what I'm thinking.
It's just like my soul is not with me and get moody or mad very fast.
I lost count on the number of sigh I made today, but it's definitely better than yesterday night.

And, I'm sorry to my girls. They're worried about me.
I can see Jay's effort trying to make me smile.
Glen.. He said he's willing to be my listening ear, but people who knows me will know I don't tell my problems to everyone, only to the one I'm feeling comfortable with.
Anyway, thanks a lot guys.

Don't worry, I won't quit just because he left.
Who knows he might come back one day. *I'm making false hope again? but this is what I'm really hoping for.*
If I do quit, then everyone's effort in helping me will be wasted, so I won't.
All I want is just a rest, to clear my mind and adapting to new situation WITHOUT his presence.
Now I'm saying he's dead *touch wood*.
He's still surviving, very good I suppose.

The reason I got upset is not because he quit the game and I can't see him FOREVER, even though I haven't met him before.
That's somehow too dramatic if I cry all day and night.
The reason why I can't get over it is because we hardly talk now, and FW is somehow the way I can.

We can chat on Skype, but I wouldn't like to disturb people if they're busy. This will then slowly makes our conversation gets dull, and at last just a 'hi' and 'bye'.
It'll be totally awful but I'm not a person who's good at making the first step.

Anyway.. I just hope things can get better.

I thought I will have the chance.
I even thought things could gets better if I just follow my plan.
I also thought I will have more time.

Too bad things didn't work out as what I'm hoping for and planning.

Right now, at this instant I'm suffering confusion.
I don't know what to do. He said he quit.
This is too sudden that I can hardly catch my breath.

Once, the girls said I would leave too if he quit.
I blindly and simply told them I would, because him quitting was never on my mind.

Maybe I expect he'll quit but not so soon.
It's just too sudden for me, seriously.

Let's pray for some miracles to happen.

There's only 3 words I want to say to you.

I hope I have the chance, being in the right timing, in an appropriate mood and a response from you.
Even though I indirectly told you before but this time I hope I can make it officially.

I don't want to regret for not saying because you'll be gone away soon and I'll start to get real busy compared to last year.
The period isn't long, only 6 months or more but I don't know the moment we meet again, can we be the way like how we used to be?
Even now, you start to get busy. You start feeling depressed and I feel so helpless.
I can only listen to your sorrow and unable to do anything to ease your pain.

I really miss those days we watch funny clips together, the way you make me smile and laugh so hard and how you cheer me up when I was down or mad.
One thing for sure and I will always remember - You taught me things about life and how to handle it.
Despite you having a bad past or history, I choose to believe that you will succeed one day.

It's really sad looking at you being pessimistic about life when you're the one who taught me to always look at the bright side.
It's sadder when I'm can't even do a thing to make you happy.

Anyway, I have only 2 months left to be able to talk with you. After that we will go back to our own life.
And honestly before that, I wish I could tell you what I really want to say.

I'm happy I'm able to know them. Even though FW is becoming boring each day and the GM is 'eating' our money, but with such friends around, everything is just worth it to continue login to the game.

Friends are friends, love ones are love ones.
I like each of them.

I took some pictures of us yesterday.
I'm satisfied with the high definition I set and it turns out to be a splendid picture.
Too bad we short of one person, if not it'll be perfect! =)

I do not know how long can we last like this.
I hope this can be forever but I'm not so sure as soon or later each of us will be progressing towards the next step of life.
Pray the best for all of us *peace*

p/s: I do hope you'll be there in the pic, standing next to me.

We call it The Square

Girls! Be confident and proud of yourself =)

I've warned you yet you choose not to listen! See what happened now? Don't regret if you're going to face the worst consequence. Sigh..

This is something I want to tell myself.
I'm not regretting anything, I just don't know if I'm strong enough to face the consequences.

I thought I would be able to control my feelings, but I failed.
I'm not emo-ing, just wondering. So readers for your info,need not worry too much =).

Honestly, 

Don't let someone be your priority when you're not even theirs.

Another thing that I would like to keep reminding myself.

I get mad, I nag, I'm upset, I scold........ its all because I care.
When I care, all I want is to see them happy.

Sometimes, I really do hope I have the ability to read people's mind.
I just want to know what am I to you.

I pray, hoping that history will not repeats itself.

I pray, hoping that this bonding can last forever.

I pray, hoping I can have a best moment before I go to bed.

Too bad history repeats itself once again.
Something that I terrified the most.
It happened about the same time,just in a different year.

Two good friends, a very good one quarrelled badly.
One is the one I cherish the most, the another one is the one I adore.
Standing in between of these two somehow makes my life miserable.
The factor that trigger this fight is the same as last time.

Why?
Why when we're about to get stronger, things like this happened?
Sometimes I just wonder is it a test from God.
He knows my weakness.
Is He trying to help me learn how to overcome it?

Same case, same scenario but will the ending be the same??
I just want to have a perfect moment each time with them.
Please let my bad experience and past memories rest in peace.
That's all I wish for.

Aww sweet <3

It's sucks to have such feelings back..

Tried and told myself a billion, no, should be a trillion of times that don't go for it.. but still fail in the end..

I kept myself busy all day at work today, just to keep my mind free from any thoughts. But I realise, the more I try to run/deny/ignore, the more I start to think.
Dang! Don't really like it so much..

I almost lost control yesterday. Thank god I manage to control and held it back once again =="
I had my lesson long ago and I believe this is what keeps me from being so rush.
And yes, I realise I'm not being myself anymore if I continue like this.
This is what I'm afraid of from the start.

I still couldn't believe I've asked such a stupid question and made him worried.
Arghh.....
Never mind, I'll just gonna hold it longer.
Not going to let things burst out until I'm assure and certain.
I know I can do it.. Just be normal =)

Cheers!

It's easy to say but hard to perform LOL
As usual.......

" If you don't like something, change it. If you can't change it, change your attitude." 
-Maya Angelou-


Knowledge and Hardwork are important, but the Attitude is a little thing that can makes a big difference. That's why ATTITUDE = 100%


So a good ATTITUDE is extremely important =D

Yesterday was really an amazing day.
Everyday will be an amazing day actually, after I completed my finals!!
There’re so many things I want to do, but first of all I need to complete my last report =(

OK! Here’s what happened yesterday <3

I seriously never know my groom will show up. I thought he will be late or something and leaving me alone xD.
It went on smoothly.
Thank god there’s no ceremony carry out, or else it won’t be that nice anymore.

We exchanged rings, talked to the NPC and ta-da~ We’re married =P
It’s just an in game marriage, so yea we know we’re just playing with in. All the time we just try to get into character.

After my turn it’s my baobei’s turn with Jay <3
They had ceremony, and too bad I did not take any screen shot. Maybe I’ll ask from her later if she took any.

Two couples getting married on the same day. How’s that? Cool huh..
So after our wedding, we head on to our ‘honeymoon’ – killing 270 mobs.
When you look at the number, you’ll go @.@ but it’s really fast.

It was around 3am or 3.30am that time.
After that, I put my character aside and talk with my husband.
Since both of us were so alike so the topic never stops LOL.
Don’t worry, we just chat like normal friends or I should say close friends.

And yea, I went to bed at 4am+ xD.
It’s crazy, I know but it’s fun, especially when baobei and I teases him =D.

Yeo bo and me <3

Yeah~ First paper is down, left the final one.

Honestly, this paper totally cause me to have a mental breakdown. I was stunned for few seconds the moment I read the first 7 questions. I know I'm starting to get nervous by that time.

There's no point staring there and do nothing. But thank god that one question looks familiar with me and that is where I gain my confidence. 

After the exam my mind went blank immediately. I can't think properly, brain was too occupied with what I've studied. Finally it's time to chill and relax a while.

At last! I got the chance to watch Don't Go Breaking My Heart (单身男女). This movie was out quite long ago, maybe 2 or 3 years.

Friends recommended me to watch, even the boys.

Wow! Really and fantastically this is my first time dropping tears out of touched. I was really touched by the way those two guys did for that girl. Really amazing.

It's really a great movie, especially if you can accept romance type of movie.

If I was the girl in the movie, no doubt I will go for 方启宏(acted by Daniel Wu). 

In this movie, it's either you go for a goody goody type of guy who is romantic and will know how to surprises you or a playboy type, who loses control the moment he sees hot girls even when you're around. Well of course with such personality he'll definitely have his own talent in wooing girls.

Both are romantic, able to give surprises, having good career/future, handsome and etc. 

But still, if I were to choose, 方启宏 will be the type of guy.

One of the scene I like =D

Which one will you choose? =)

Anyway, time to get some rest, very tired right now.

Cheers~

Finals is just around the corner or I should say this coming Monday. Studies been keeping me busy in updating blog but today I just feel like writing something.

Yea! It's Sunday now and middle of night (almost to 3am).
Less than 24 hours before I enter my battle field.

Honestly, this exam and especially this course is really tiring.
I'm not sure about other unis but yea, the way this uni handle the course it's really way too tiring, stressing and challenging.
Two days of exam but I need to study what had been taught for 2 semester, and I barely have only 2 weeks to study SO MUCH of things.

Targets: 1) Complete 26 questions with sub questions in 3 hours for first paper. 2) Complete 4 cases with sub questions in 3 hours, each case bare 25 marks.
Mission: Score at least 40% for each semester.

As you can see, this is really devastating.
Everything is integrated~ which I believe it have its pros and cons.

Yes, I admit at a moment I fear I'm not able to get through this. But today, something just strike my mind.
Everyone will have their first experience/time in doing anything.
For example, when we're small we had our first time wearing nursery uniforms and stepping into the kindergarten. For the first time, we had our test in kindergarten. For the first time, we sit for major exams like UPSR (standard 6), PMR (Form 3), SPM/O-level (Form 5), Pre-U, driving test and etc.

And after I enrol myself into this course, for the first time I had my consolidation test, OSCE, oral defence and now finals.
Yes and everytime for the first time everyone gets tense up including me. I get stressed up everytime, especially during my driving test and OSCE. But, at the end of the day I pass all of it. We passed! No matter how hard or how sickening it is, we passed.

People who know me, for every test or exams I did, I will screw some part of it. Like during my A Levels Examination. Hell yea.. For Mathematics, I have no idea on how to do. Not that I did not do any revision. I did all my past years, get it corrected and asked around. Worse come to worst is when I blanked quite a number of questions, maybe 3 or 4 out of 7. Indeed, I was worried after the exam that I'll fail this and that, bla bla bla, lots of negative thoughts. Who knows when the result was out, I actually passed! I didn't score, but just pass. There're many examples like during SPM I have no time to complete the questions and blanked a 10 mark question, some lesser ones and etc. At the end I somehow still pass. The moment I got my results I was so relieve. Each time it gives me a warning on my progress and that I must study hard.

So for this time, it will be my first time too.
Always have faith in yourself that you can do it, and you really can.
Whatever is done it's done, don't cry over spilt milk.
Like what Ms. Kelly told me during my OSCE, you'll never know if miracles fall upon you. So have faith and pray hard.

I'm writing here because I see many friends were scared. I am too but bring afraid don't help us to get any further. Isn't it better to spend time on studying than keep thinking about failure? LOA!!

And yea.. I have many plans after my finals, so I MUST AND WILL PASS THIS FINALS ONCE AND FOR ALL. I know I can do it!
I'm not being overconfident in this finals. I still have tons of notes to cover. I'm just having faith in myself and surrender whatever comes ahead to God. Only He knows it.

Be positive and good luck to myself and everyone!