Not going to say......

I like you

I love you

I miss you

I need you

Just going to say........

Good luck! =)

Today is a very special day because we can only get today four years once.

According to what everyone said, today is also woman's confession day!!! In this day, woman will confess her feelings to the guy she like and the guy have only two choice - to accept or reject. If the guy rejects the girl, then he'll be fined!!! Well I guess this is one day where woman OWNS!! In this way, girl don't lose anything, right???????

Hmm.. Anyway, I would like to congrats to those who have their special day today like birthday, any anniversary and etc.

Well today, a bunch of us hang out at One Utama after class. I just remember that today is the last day where Starbucks is having promotion!!!!! BUY ONE FREE ONE~ Of course I'll go for it =)
It's a very very long queue. Even though they said promotion is until 2pm but.. who gives a damn?? We still line up anyway xD

I got my chocolate java chips, intro by Sandy. It's yummy~~ and I can taste oreo biscuit in it =)

The best part is when we're ready to go back. Jenn and I saw Matt and Derrick buying something from the arcade counter. THEY ARE GOING TO PLAY!! LOL~
They played car racing - Initial D. Jenn and I was so bored that she then suggested us to play motorcycle racing =))))))))))))))))))))))

Great man! I think both of our waist is going to break the moment we keep flung ourselves here and there due to that massive cornering.
Anyway it was a great time and you know what this means???????? Pharmacy students are not nerd!! Apart from books and notes all day, we do play gamessssssssss =))))))

Anyway, had a great time with everyone and a nice chat with Jenn.
She has a cute personality which makes me like her =))
Teehehehehe....

Oh and confession day right??????
Hmm.........

To all my friends!! I love you guyssss. You make my life full with colourssssssssssss

Oh great! This old feeling is coming back to me again after so long, 3 to 4 years maybe.
I really hate this feeling!!! T.T

It's not a big matter actually, just a feeling where I feel I'm so useless and dumb.
Lab session again...........
OK! Let me make something clear first because I start anything.
To some people, they think I'm smart because I studies A level.
Well, hell no! Studying what doesn't prove your intelligence ok?
Just because I studied A level compare to those who took foundation, you can't say I'm smarter than you.

Basically, I'm just an average student and a very slow one.
I'm having hard time in understanding something in a short period of time.
That's why I absorb things slow.
This happens to me when I'm in high school.
I can know how frustrated a person can be after tons of explanation and you still don't get it.
I know exactly how that's feel!

Same thing as before, I was having a hard time just now understanding the plates.
Too many plates that I even got confused.
One person explain to me, I don't get it. Then two people and I still don't get it. THREE people explain to me AND I STILL DON'T GET IT!!
I see some of them some sort of having the slam face action and how impatient they are.
For that instant I just feel so useless that why can't I understand such a simple thing???????
I really feel like crying that time but I just hold it.

I don't know how I overcome it last time.
Well I think it's because I have bunch of girls who are willing to be extremely patient with me and explain to me slowly and one by one.
I just dislike the blur feeling....
Why 'you' come back now?? Should just remain 'dormant'.

Because of my this weakness, that's also one of the reason why I prefer to do things alone.
I just don't want to trouble people.
Different people have their own patience limit.
Mine varies with individuals but most of the time I'll try to explain as I can.
*note: patience in teaching and explaining is two different thing.*

Sigh....
I really don't know what to do with myself anymore.....

Today had another extemporaneous lab and am going to make oral suspension. It's a fun activity to do but not fun anymore when you need to present your product to the lecturer and get ready to answer questioned.

I realise I'm the slowest today, even those who started later than me finish everything before me. I'm actually quite worried all the time whenever I step into the lab. Not just this lab practice but any other lab practices that required me to use those apparatus. 

Today labelling was so awful. I don't know how many piece of paper I've wasted just to print 2 labels and it took me so long. I keep changing computer because the printer was bad, can't even print a proper one for me *sigh* By the time I got out of the labelling room, I only have 30 minutes to start working on my product. Weighing and measuring takes quite some time too, especially that powdered tragacanth which took me like 10-15 minutes. 

Sandy, Bob Bob and Lourene almost completed it when I just start to mix all the powders in. I can't even joined them. So basically I was alone doing all those. Thank god they helped me to get all the apparatus, if not I won't know when I can complete it. 

Knowing that I'm very far behind, I start to remain silence. They were talking but I didn't bother because I was just focusing on my product. I hope they won't think that I'm starting to be like HK. I won't but I might if I know I'm damn slow. I'm already slow in doing things, talking will only slow me down so I need to concentrate and focus. The same goes when I'm doing cooking. 

I somehow feel bad when I just remain silence like that. I know Lourene was trying to make me talk by asking me to watch a drama but I somehow didn't answer her properly or showing any interest because I'm just afraid I can't complete in time. Everytime, I need people to wash those apparatus for me because I don't even have the time to wash my own one. It's quite embarrassing, I won't mind if only once but THIS IS all time. I think that's why all the while I prefer to do things solitary.

So guys....... I'm sorry if I made you think wrong of me. I'm not in bad mood, don't worry.

It’s amazing how at one point in our lives we will be extremely close with someone and then later they will become a complete stranger. 

You will pass by them without a word. 

Without a single acknowledging look. 

This person, who once knew you so well, 

who once knew your fears, your desires, your dreams, your past, 

is now walking right past you, seeing right through you

The irony of love is loving the right person at the wrong time and having the wrong person when the time is right.

Finding out you love someone right after the person walks out of your life. Sometimes, you think you're already over a person, but when you see them smile at you,

you'll suddenly realize that you're just pretending to be over them just to ease the pain of knowing that you're not.

Most relationships tend to fail not because of the absence of love.

Love is always present. It's just that one was being loved too much

and the other was being loved too little...

Most often, we fall in love with the person we think we love

But to only discover that for them, we are just for past times,

While the one who truly loves us remains either a friend or a stranger...

So here's a piece of advice:

Let go when you're hurting too much, give up when love isn't enough, and move on when things aren't like before.

I believe that everything happens for a reason. 

People change so that you can learn to let go, 

things go wrong so that you apprieciate them when they're right, 

you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, 

and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.

- Marilyn Monroe

Just because I laugh a lot, 

doesn't mean my life is easy. 

Just because I have a smile on my face every day, 

doesn't mean that somethings not bothering me. 

Its just that I choose to move on with the negative in my life, 

and keep my head up, instead of dwelling on the past.

You have to get hurt. That’s how you learn. 

The strongest people out there, 

the ones who laugh the hardest with a genuine smile, 

those are the people who have fought the toughest battles. 

Because they’ve decided that they’re not going to let anything hold them down, they’re showing the world who’s the boss.

Sometimes it's always the best to keep certain things to yourself than sharing it with others.

Because you may not know if what you think will be accept by the rest.

Sometimes just sit and observe your surroundings. Who knows you can get a better picture from there =)

Had a very great time and wonderful dinner with ODF yesterday, too bad that not everyone can attend.

We had dinner at a restaurant called Rendezvous Steak House. It's located at Taman Billion, Cheras, nearby to Kaki Corner.

Address: 40, Jalan Siput Akek, Taman Billion, Kuala Lumpur, Wilayah Persekutuan, 56000
Contact: 012-232 5662 (Mobile) ‎


My bad that my gps somehow when lag or something that we took quite some time to reach there even though we're actually so close to there, so sorry guys ><. Not much people there but the environment at there is quite nice. I saw swingsssss and the portion of the food is BIG! I see my friends have quite a hard time in finishing the food since most of them are small eater and they even share the food. Besides we ordered 3 plates of CHEESE FONDUE!! Basically, it's a snack with some fries and grilled chicken and the cheese will be your gravy~ For cheese lover like me, I can say the cheese is splendid! The amount of taste there is just nice but.. I prefer it to be more cheese~ I ordered a chicken lasagne so it's cheese also.

 We talked, laughed, teasing each other and sharing stories. Of course not to forget to snap some pictures since Jenny will be going back to Australia. Damn! I'll be missing her since I've only got to see her when she come back to Malaysia unless I video call with her =).

It's really a nice day with them where I can cool my head off from certain things. You don't need to tell them your problems because their presence will somehow make those problems disappear temporarily. Love them lots!

My chicken lasagne

Cheese fondue <3

The girls

All of us!

Wow! Miracle do happens at times~

I couldn't believe Dan pm me in Facebook. It's been so long that I can't remember when's the last time we've ever chat.
Thinking of him making me starting to miss the rest -  Elaine, Jay and JS.
It's just so happy that time that we're always together, just like the musketeers, but too bad due to personal daily lives, everyone is busy with their own things.

There's one thing I would like to say!!!

Oi Dan!!  보고 싶을!!! xD

A day to remember! It's a must!!

This is the day where two people who love each other for so long (4 years) finally tie the knot!!!!!!!

Congratzz to my dear dear Bella~~!!

This is my first time attending a friend's wedding!!! OMG can you believe that!! I'm really happy for her~
Bella was right, even though she's getting married but all of us seems more excited than her xD
Well of course! because she's my first friend who's getting marry.
So a few friends were asked to be her 'sister' on her wedding day and of course we are there~ Not all but still there are~

She's soooooo pretty~ With her wedding dress on, everything seems so nice and a feeling of blissful just came to me.

Games, ceremony and dinner.. It really took a day to finish it and NO JOKE it's really tiring. I went out super early in the morning to Bella's house and got home almost midnight. Don't even have the time to online chit chat and stuff since I have to resit my test again.

After attending the wedding, I realise that it takes a lot of time to find the right one but in the end you'll spend your life time with the person who will truly love you. No matter how many mistakes you've done in the past or how hurt you've been hurt, we just need to know how to stand up and move forward. I believe miracles do happen and that's when you need to grab and appreciate it =)

Make up make up!

The lovely wed

Sorry that I've 'abandon' this blog for quite some time. I've been very busy since CNY and until now, finally got the time to rest a while and BLOG~ So let's just summarise what I've been doing this whole time.

CNY~ As usual, going back to hometown, visiting relatives and friends~ Gambling (p/s: I only gamble during CNY xD). The only thing I know is I've been eating, drinking and slacking the first 2 days of CNY. Basically, this is the best time where you can meet and visit people that you normally don't, you know ONCE IN A YEAR.

OK next will be back to Uni!! Miss all my beloved classmates~ But still we need to get ready for the coming consolidation test so everyone is somehow super busy, but I think I'm the one who's slacking ><

Alright!! Valentine's Day is just 3 days ahead. I made something for my sister as a trial (I know I'm bad, guinea pig)~ At first I thought I would like to make it for someone but then I changed my mind. So basically, my sister will be the first person to receive gift from me =) Thank god she said she like it >< It's basically a chocolate egg, where I take out the egg and leave the shell emptied and pour in the chocolate. It took quite some time for me to pour all the chocolate into one tiny hole and it kept over spill due to trapped air bubbles.

Chocolate egg! It's really heaty~

OK! Monday, consolidation test! A total disaster man! I failed!! (as in didn't manage to get >70) Sad.. No choice but I need to resit the test again on Friday. After the test, I straight to Jusco to buy things because...... I'M GONNA MAKE SOMETHING~~ I believe with my cooking skills my mom had trained me, I can make a perfect cupcakes for 12 people. All I got to do is to pray that they can accept the taste and my plan will work. But! I was feeling ill that time with this massive headache *sigh* Not enough sleep and using too much brain power during the test but I still have to finish it. Finally done with the baking now just left with the wrapping, decoration and notes. Luckily my sister is willing to help me to wrap while I took a nap or else I won't be able to finish it in time ><
It really took me quite hard time writing some note, but in the end I manage to do so and I pretty love what I've wrote xD. Here it is.

불러봐도 대답 없는 I call, even though I call for you

너이지만 (너라고) 널 기다린다고 there's no reply, I'll wait for you.

Time stands still, beauty in all you are

I will not let anything take away what's standing in front of me

When I look into your eyes

It's like watching the night sky or a beautiful sunrise

I am nothing

Without your presence.

Your love

Is the only way I can move on

我还是一样的爱着你，不管多少人劝我放弃

有时候我会哼起回忆，这是你可以给我的勇气

This is the example of a muffin~

How's the plan on that day.. Well I consider not a very perfect one because 2 out of the 12 people were in the class already! I can't give them surprises but to tell them to act with me. The rest~ I asked my sister to help me. I couldn't imagine when they start to think it's me after every details I've thought of. Well maybe I was a little careless for leaving a bag of the remaining four under the desk where I normally sit. *sigh* silly me >< I took sooo long to convince them it's not from me and keep trying to think of ways to tell them. But I think there's nobody besides me in the class that will do such thing so it's quite obvious it's me.

Oh and I got some message from some friend on this >< So here's my reply

From: Bob Bob

when i first arrived on my desk this morning, i saw this thing was "standing" there on my desk. at first i was like hm whose? i didn't look at it until my friend said "bob bob this is yours!" and i was like "uh mine oh". got a bit surprise of this chocolate muffin. i know this is from someone, that someone :) i know is you, i know is you ;) i knew is you! many of us got this muffin from a special a caring friend of us! i'm not gonna say who is that, but i know it's you! :) thanks a lot for this muffin! thanks for the cares you have given to me all these while! :) i really appreciate you my dear :)



Reply:

Heheheeheheheehheehehehe.. Sad that you found out the moment you saw it. I was hoping you will be super excited and keep looking for that 'mystery' person >< Can I know who told you it's yours?? Wahh and don't say so many times 'I know it's you', I'll be shy *hahahaha* Well I'm glad that I'm able to be appreciated by you and OF COURSE I do care about you! Love you <3 muackss

From: Lourene

This morning, I saw a nicely wrapped muffin on my table! WOOOOOAhhh

Sadly, I lost the paper. Sort of like love letter, It flew like some where else :(

Secret admirer? Heh. I was surprised by that BUT when I look at the wrapper, I sort of know siapa bagi I. :D  Like snap, must be this girl. She left a big huge paper bag at the side of the seat and expect no one to SEE it. -.-

Pretty smart though, she even make herself one muffin and put on her table. So nobody will suspect her. :D

Thanks for her sweet little details and hard work for making muffins for all of us. I APPRECIATE BANYAK and I like it. :)

Reply: 

So sadddddddddddddddddd.. My love letter~ You lost it T.T but at least I know my message pass through your HEART! teehehehehehe.. Hahaha... The wrapper indeed 'tipu' me already since I asked you guys where to get a hanper wrapper >< sigh.. Got deceived by my own, how sad. OK! I know that big bag is really so stupid of me. At first I thought I can hide it but then only I realise I can't. My initial plan was to take everything inside the paper bag and put inside the bag I was carrying, that's why I purposely carry my big bag ><  hahaahahaahaha... Ok that making a one for me as well was.......... really a last minute idea. I know if I don't get the same thing, I'll be the first person to be suspected, but still you guys were too smart~~~~ Your welcome~ Glad that you like it =)

Then a bunch of us went to Chilis at One Utama on that day so celebrate SINGLE DAY~ Since all of us have no partner so why not just celebrate this day as single day?? Yea I know forever alone but this time I will be TOGETHER ALONE!! Something special for this year ><

Together alone!! =))

So basically I think that's all for my life with uni friends~

If you are trapped between your feelings and what other people think is right, always go for whatever makes you happy, unless you want everybody to be happy except you.

I'll go for the second option.