Just to say that... you don't have the right to laugh at me..

I understand that I'm a slow catcher or absorber. I can't understand things fast in just a snap of finger.
I understand that I always make you all speechless in anything I say..
I understand I find myself hard in understanding your jokes..
I understand that sometimes i really make your body temperature goes high..

But I just want you to know that...

This is the way I am..

I'm not like everyone else who are able to get everything people said..
You can make fun of my weakness but sometimes it hurts, it really hurts..
I also wanted to be like everyone, but this is already the way i am since i was born..

I'm sorry if you ever feel that I'm slow, naive or blur..
This is not what I want but part of my weakness..

Things can be taught and learn, provided you are willing to teach and be patient in teaching..
Do not make fun of me if i ever said something wrong but explain to me..

I'm grateful to have friends who are willing to explain and teach me:
Ai Ling
Mei Yin
Ming Ling
Hong Yi
Wen Ee
Xiang

So why not let yourself to be part of it?

Christmas Eve..

i went to Setapak with Xin Yee just to meet Mei Yin, Ai Ling and Ming Ling. Ming Ling wanted to introduce us her bf XD. So, we had our lunch at 爱面子. Well, that’s the first time i go there so everything seems new to me =D.

My gosh.. It’s so hot in there even though the air cond is on ==”. Anyway, I ordered their specialty which is hot and spicy pan mee. Mei Yin said is not so hot so i might have a try on it since it’s my first time. The first few spoons were okay, not that hot. Later on, my mouth starts burning and i can’t stand it that i need water immediately. I was so idiot, drinking cold drinks will only make you feel hotter, and it really does. Too bad, i have to stay in that situation until i finish my noodles =X

So after our lunch, we went back home, but Mei Yin and Ai Ling will have to go to college. I online for about an hour and then went for nap, so damn tired that time, i think is because i slept at 4am the previous day haha..

Xin Yee wanted us to stay overnight at her place and no choice i have to ask mom and dad. The time i asked mom, the only thing she said is that, dad receive the results which tarc send to him by mailing. Oh My God is what i had in mind. Mom also said that dad is very disappointed with my results and wonder if i can continue my A Levels. Aiyaiyai… I told them that i didn’t do well in my exam but i didn’t think that the one right in front of their eyes will give such a great impact.

I still ask mom about the overnight thing, but she asked me to ask dad so i went and ask him but with a calm me, hoping that he won’t mention anything about my results. Mom, dad and bro are going for movie that time and i need a car. So complicated and with what mom told me just now, i really don’t feel like going anymore but i don’t want to ruin everyone’s night so i gather my courage and ask dad again. Alas, thank god he allow me *phew*, but i still don’t feel like going because I'm going out again on Monday and Tuesday.

At last, i still go. We celebrate at Desa Park City. Taking a walk around the lake, eating ice cream that we bought, taking photos with crazy action and doing crazy things. Everything just seems fine but i actually still worried about my results and so afraid that i can’t cope it. By now, just hope everything will be okay and there’s someone who can help me.

We went back to XY’s house and start editing the photos and upload it. We spent the whole night until 3am. The worst part of me is, i was doing homework while they busy choosing pictures XD. I’ve been playing the whole time and this is the time for me to stop, so one day without touching any books make me feel uncomfortable lol.. This is really so unlike me XD

Christmas..

I did nothing much today. After got back my own house, i just walk up and down. It was almost 12pm that time so there’s nothing to do besides work, but I'm a bit lazy so let’s just keep it for night time.

I’m so tired after lunch. I thought of doing homework but i slept throughout the day until 6.30pm. Wow.. I've been sleeping for 4 hrs.

there’s really nothing to do for Christmas, besides watching TV and doing homework. Really bored~~ No turkey this year T_T too bad~~

So that’s how i spend my nights for xmas eve and xmas..

Dear.. Sometime i really don’t know what to tell you.. Do you know that sometimes i really feel myself for being useless? I can’t even cure your pain you have, can’t even bear it with you..

Sometimes life is meant to be like that. Don’t torture yourself anymore kay? I know it’s pretty hard for you but please bear in mind, you will not always be alone..

Stay strong, i don’t wish and dare not to see you fall..

Xiang..

Phew.. Just came back from Taiping few days ago. It’s indeed a splendid trip with my friends. A one that i will never forget.

Ipoh—>Taiping—>Penang—>Taiping. What a wonderful trip lol.. Well, there might be something went wrong during this trip, but i think it would be fine for me =D. Hmm.. I think it’s most probably my own problem. You know, telling spooky things in the middle of the night haha and I’m not prepared for those yet..

I won’t blame them for telling those but for myself. Maybe i really have to learn how to face everything.

Sometimes, i really hope the time will stop for that 1 week and just let myself enjoy the whole time. It’s very painful in me to bid goodbye to them, especially when I'm leaving Ipoh. There’s something that I've not done before leaving Ipoh, but i just can’t figure it out. Maybe is because of him haha..

Anyway, thanks a lot guys for the laughter and everything. Just hope that we can still organize a longer one. 1 week is still not enough for me XD

Sometimes life don't come around..
Sometimes being too close will only cause misunderstandings, perhaps only to me..
Perhaps this is my only problem..

I thought everyone can be close but who knows some may take me as a nuisance..
Maybe this is only my personal belief.
Hopefully it is..

This is what a sensitive person like me don't gain any benefits from this.

2 more days left before we’re totally separated. Please take good care of yourself. 有缘再见 and good luck!

So lazy to update blog for the past few weeks and days lol.. So I'll just summarised what I've been through during those weeks and days..

Test 3 is really tiring, stress and….. hmm…. many more i guess . Sitting in the college hall and everyone is busy doing their papers uhh… Sometimes really give me some headaches looking at everyone lol..

Physics paper is the final paper and this is also my worst subject ==". Fighting my very best for the paper just hoping i can score well. I’m so envy those who drop it . The minute the teacher announced that we can go back, everyone rushed to the door lol. Do you know why??? This is because……

We’re going to Genting!!! Yeah!!!

When we got there, the only we’re looking is food~~~ Most of us wants to have lunch up there and the price is…… well you know… EXPENSIVE THAN IN KL, oh my gosh!!! But we still have to eat~~

After that, we went to our hotel and room is so awesome!! 2 attached rooms, and i think it’s enough for all of us to sleep . The first thing the girls do is, jump onto the bed lol~~~ It’s so noisy and everyone is screaming and shouting lol!! Just like a small kiddo la..

Boys enter girl’s room and girls enter boy’s room, so harmony right?? haha.. Everything indeed went on well and i can see that everyone is happy haha.

We stayed 2 night at there, so now let’s see what we did up there :

• 2 days of buffet for dinner
• some go for theme park, some bowling and those indoor stuffs
• 打机场
• word we always say: hai gam sin (that’s it) – created when some of us went for the space shot
• bread, nesvita, maggi mee for first day breakfast
• marrybrown for second day breakfast and lunch
• pizza hut for third day lunch
• shopping
• pillow talk, true or dare during the first night
• etc….

Everyone is being crazy up there. Every conversation we made will surely contain biology, physics and chemistry haha. I think this is the consequences of stress.

It’s really fun up there. Who cares about how much money we spent, the most important is that we enjoyed ourselves a lot. This is truly an unforgettable trip with SN10.

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Every pressure about Test 3 is finally over. All the results, papers are finally given back. No more scholarships, no more pressure???

You dare to call me a bitch!?!? You can even said it so feely without hesitating anything? What have i done to you?? Didn’t do anything at home is not the EXCUSE!!!

Being as the eldest, you have the responsibility to take care of us!!!!! and all you can is address your own sister as a BITCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!????????? What is that suppose to mean??

So i am really a nuisance and being hated here.. The thing that i can only do every time is to endure and be patience for everything they said and forgive them. Talking to parents doesn’t solved anything!! They wouldn’t do anything but just warn them only. This is totally unfair.

Maybe i seriously didn’t do much with the house chores but there’s no right in calling me that!! You don’t know what you said have a very big reflection not only to me, but also your mother!! Did you ever think of that!?!? How often do i scold foul language to you all!?!?! I always have to keep every feelings inside my heart and swallow it all by myself, and do you think it is easy???

I understand that you all really hope that I'm not around. Everything explains when you wish that I'll never come back after having a bbq with my friends. What’s the matter with you?? Do you know that i tried my very best to take it as a joke to forget about it? I know my presence doesn’t make much difference at home and in your life, but i just want to tell you that

NO MATTER WHAT YOU SAY AND DO, I’LL ALWAYS BE YOUR SISTER AND YOU CAN’T RUN AWAY FROM THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

If you want me to leave, I'll leave someday and make sure you won’t regret by that time.

 

ps: that’s why i always have to defend myself where i get no support from anyone. I have to forgive myself for writing this as i know is improper, but i have to release my tension.

Finally, my dinner for today is going to be bbq! At first i anti bbq so much due to the current weather and influenza A that is spreading so widely. But do you think I'll have the chance to say no?? Haha!!

I drove to Jenny’s house around 8.30pm and i pick up Mei Yin on the way there ^^. Since all the set up is with me so there’s nothing to eat that time and we girls have to start the fire. It was almost 9pm that time.

I know how to start a fire but i never try it before XD so this would be my first. We usually ask the boys to start but since non of the boys are here so i decide to start first.

At first was OK, then the flame get smaller and smaller =.= and everything was out hahaha!!! Looks like i still need guidance from starting a fire. It’s already 9.30pm and we haven’t even start burning stuffs @__@. Then, the boys came – Shaun and Boon.

Shaun’s been complaining this and that saying that there’s still no food to eat when he arrive there ==. Plus!!! He still say i act smart in starting the fire!! What the!!!!!!!! Ok! Maybe he’s joking with me, but can’t he just keep quiet and make no comments??

Maybe he’s right but at least i give it a TRY!!!! OK??? So i think boys are boys. Shaun heat the cold charcoal in just no time and it’s almost 10pm. Maybe i really have to admit that I'm stupid but I'll not GIVE UP!! I’ll let Shaun see that I, TAN PEI CHING can also start a big and unbreakable flame like boys =D

Since we have the fire, so now is barbecue time haha!! To be honest, i didn’t do much burning but only EAT wahahahahahahaha. I only help people to burn but did not burn my own one. My chicken wing is burnt by don’t know who, my ham is burnt by Xin Yee. BUT!!!!! I burnt my own sausage, that’s why the colour is nice ^^. I would like to admit that the person who cook my chicken is also in good colour but it’s not fully cooked ><, never mind anyway.

I just know that the table is full of foods~~~ haha. The stove is also full of foods~ Everyone is busying flipping their food and I'm busy with my photo snapping ^^v. Let’s see what they produce~

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Well, none of them eat what they burnt because they want to finish burning everything and everyone share a plate full with foods. Hmm.. To me this will not be like bbq anymore. It’s more like using charcoal to cook our food =D. The food is cold after we finish burning so it’s not fun anymore. Maybe is because time’s getting late so we have to finish those foods immediately haha. Xin Yee and I also place some lanterns at one corner of the house, indicating that we’re celebrating Mid Autumn Festivals too..

So, i think we burnt almost everything around 11pm. Since there’re so many foods, all of us sit down together and start eating it. Due to loads of foods, Shaun came up with an idea of playing a game. It’s a multiplication game to me whereby we have to use our multiple knowledge. So, those who lost will have to eat the food as punishment.

Shaun sat beside me and you know it wouldn’t be great because he keep on put a prank on me =.= and of course i lost!!!!!! sigh.. What a pity me!

Ok after every food is finish, we have to start cleaning up the place.

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It takes quite some time is washing the floor and everything. After that, we finally can go back ^^ Anyway,

HAPPY MOONCAKE FESTIVAL

EVERYONE!!!!

Yeah~ yeah~ just now went shopping with Ai Ling, Mei Yin and Jenny. We bought some foods or perhaps ingredients for our bbq tomorrow. Another gathering with the one dozen family (so excited)

Look at them choosing the sausages!! They have been choosing the best one for so long XD

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So, after some long shopping, this is what we got for our bbq tomorrow

  Hmm.. We have:

  - 2 fish balls

  - 1 packet of A1 chicken meat balls

  - 2 corns

  - 2 jumbo sausages with cheese fillings

  - Hams (inside the Jusco's plastic bag)

                         and

  - 3 normal sausages

    *the drinks belongs to Mei Yin.

 

 

After everything, we headed to the cashier. Oh My God~~ there’s so many people lining up =(. I pushed the trolley to find a better cashier to pay for the foods~ and i eventually found it =D

 

Well.. it cost us around RM50 for only these few things, and don’t forget the we haven’t buy the chicken wings because there’re aren’t any left =.=

After paying the foods, we head back home. Jenny drove us back yippee~

I don’t feel my presence is that important anymore.

Maybe I'm wrong to say this but this is what i actually feel. I’m just a person who provides hope to the family. To be honest, i don’t think anyone likes me in the family. Well, sometimes they’re nice to me but not all the time. Maybe sometimes I'm wrong too but at least i feel guilty about the way i did.

Remembering my day for A night,  i get helped from my best friend for my preparation. She dress up for me and eventually changed the way i look. I can see her effort when some friends of mine can’t recognize me. But, the moment i met my parents, i saw them laugh sarcastically. What is that suppose to mean? Can’t their daughter be pretty for her night too? I asked them two times on how do i look, only they give me their comment. Since, parents are like this then i think there’s no need for me to say about my brothers.

I can’t see fairness here. OK, everyone would always say the world is not fair. I always try to ignore this statement because i believe that everyone will always get things equally as everything is based on our karma. Maybe getting prejustice is my karma that leads me to failure in getting family’s concern.

I always have to defend myself and that’s why some of my personality changed when I’m at home. I tend to be more fierce at home than outside. Even though people always say the closest relation we have will always be our family but i feels that friends show more concerns.

I really don’t want to further to complain or comment anything. I understand that no matter what happen, they’ll always my family. But, i hope someday they’ll understand how i feel. I’ve been observing everything for a long time already. Talking to them is useless cause they’ll never admit when they made mistakes.

Argh!! So confused these few days @__@. I also don’t really know what had gone into me, so not like me anymore Z_Z

Suddenly get so annoyed that i really don’t know what to do. Looks like i’m being emo lately XD. There’s a lot of things to think lately sigh..

Blaming myself for not able to help sigh. Best friend got cheated by bf and my comforting sucks!! Knowing her the longest time in my gang but can’t able to help sigh. I feel so useless~ I really don’t know what to do sigh. I totally understand her feelings but i can’t comfort her sigh…….

Get frustrated easily, feeling lonely even though the person who really in need is not me.

Having dinner with besties yesterday but my heart is empty. Feeling lonely yesterday, no mood to talk nor laugh or joke.

Too emo already!!!

Haiz…..

 

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虽然我说了会像往常去上课，可是我做不到。。
虽然我说了我会努力读书，可是我做不到。。
虽然我说了要随缘，我依然做不到！！

虽然我的心里叫我停止，可是我办不到。每一天，都像看见他可是又怕会失望。可是，当他出现时，我不是觉得很开心，而是心烦，很乱，很想逃避，很想躲起来。当他走了之后，才松了一口气。见不到就失望，见到的时候就心烦，真是够奇怪。

今天，娴告诉我说她看见他。我顿时感觉到有个很大的石头压在我身上。我的心沉去了~开始烦了。
我不知道我到底喜欢不喜欢她，因为我们才刚认识。说一见钟情，我倒不信。还没了解一个人就喜欢他有点过头吧。也不知道他本人，怎么可以就这么轻易的喜欢上他呢？我每天都问自己这个问题。

我知道我的确没告诉有些朋友，就算他们是我的死党。不是我不想分享，只是不想去想这些东西。我知道很不公平，可是我不想再让自己受到伤害了。所以。。。。。

对不起~

Alas!! Test 2 is over.. Can’t wait to finish the physics practical and have lunch with a bunch of friends~ That Chemistry really can kill me, urgh!!! Anyway, I don’t want to mention anything about test now ^^

I don’t think i’m the only one who can’t do well in that physics practical. Some of my classmates skipped it, how dare they!!! Doing that practical in a sleeping mode, plus we have to do some oscillation, that’s really going to hypnotize us lol~

Time’s ticking, and i still haven’t complete my report T_T. Then, Sean came in, get a bit energetic again so quickly complete it XD. She told me that they’re going to KLCC. Hmmm.. I can’t go there, but she’s so kind and cancel it and decide to have lunch with me and of course with Terence, Elly and Yen Yee ^^. Well, See Yee and Neo also follow us so try to imagine all of us squeeze into a old version Proton Saga =D.

Damn squeeze!! But I think i’m bad enough that i’m playing Terence’s ipod ><. Sad to say that i’m a game freak haha..

So… I don’t know where Terence drove us, cause my attention is just on the game, Uno plus i can’t even see hehe.. I just know we reached a place where there’s a mini Carrefour.

We enter a Taiwan restaurant~ Guess what, the food is soo cheap, hmm is better to say that it’s worth the price. We called a set meal and there’s definitely some side dishes, and the ginseng soup or whatever medicine soup taste……….. yuck! Bitter~~ I can bear bitterness but not this T.T. See Yee just asked me to finish it to recover back all my stamina. Yea she’s totally right ^^

After finish eating, we had some shopping at an accessories shop, then only head back to college. I didn’t buy anything cause purse is empty hehe.. But, I like one of the necklace a lot =(

Fate pulled us to meet each other
but....
Fate didn't pull us to be together

I think i have been quite carried away lately, especially after A night. I know it's sounds crazy but i can't imagine that i really did all those thing. Looking here and there to find his presence, purposely go to a particular place just to see him, get very up set if he's not in sight and etc.

These are the worst things that i had ever done. This ain't me. I can't believe that i ruined my own mind. Everything seems to be so complicated now. I think i have gone too far or beyond the limit. However, i still don't understand why. You can't meet the person that you're eager to but you meet the person that you're not eager to. Meaning that, I can't see him lately even though i analyse his time table, but i keep seeing his friend lol.

Sometimes it really sucks to some people but i believe that's the fate. I can't give myself an answer whether can i accept it, but i really hope things won't go like that. So i've been thinking of a solution for this situation everytime.

Today, I just got my solution or perhaps answer. So, my conclusion is just let what it suppose to be. I believe i'll never know what lies ahead of me. Something bad or something good to be is all decide by the god.

If i have a time machine, i just hope i can go back to the past and correct things just like in the movie of "17 again"

My sis told me to watch a video from You tube, and luckily i did not refuse to do so =). I found a few hilarious video from the same producer. This is the first time i can laugh with my tears, after a long long time of tension and pressure =).

The video is a movie created by nigahiga for a few minutes. You can say is something like a synopsis of a movie lol~ I feel that it'll be funnier if you watch the actual movie because in this video they did edit some part so knowing the actual story will know what they're actually doing..

Well then, sit back and relaxed =).
*Open up your ear to understand what they say, trust me, you'll not regret =)*


Twilight




Titanic




Harry Potter




This is the current issue where Rihanna is beaten by Chris Brown, and this video tells you why =)








So how's the video?? Maybe some people may say it's sucks or lame but it's really funny to me =D

My life changes after entering college..

Everyone told me that they prefer college life but to me is nothing but only pressure =(

I still enjoy my secondary life and hopefully one day I can go back there and study again but.... is impossible.

Every time or perhaps everyday I always see my classmates taking books out to study. I was like what the hell, books again?? Studying the whole time definitely not my style.

I'm a playful person that only seeks for entertainment. How do I score in SPM?? Easy to say, it was all last minute studying, burning the midnight oil every time =).
I know I must delete this habit but I still love to play!~~

Besides that, many problems pop up in front of me and I have to face it one by one. At first is problem related to friendship. I believe that's the worst of all until now.

Second is my own personal problem, something relating to my love story~ I think those who know me will know what is it =X.

Third! This is also another hurting one. I just had and accident lol~ I don't want to mention anything about that for now as I'm still facing that trauma even though I'm not the driver. People who knows me will understand it.

For my besties who want to know, you can ask Mei Yin or Ai Ling about it =). Just that I'll be crying if you want me to remember that day.

Maybe Elly and I are having the same thoughts that we prefer secondary life. I'll rather wear those unfashionable uniforms that keeping myself sad and being pressurized the whole time.

I've been quite moody these few days without any reasons..
Online most of the time these few days, for what reason I asked myself.
To see him? To chat with him?
I don't know, I really don't know.

He finally online today, few minutes ago..
But, why am I getting so nervous?
I shouldn't have this feeling.
I don't like him, do I?

This must be a mistake!!!
I can't like him but......
I sometimes seem to be missing his presence
Why??

I understand that he have to study hard now..
3 more months.... Just 3 more then it'll end... forever??
I'll wait....
I'll wait for that 3 months......

Let God decide our destiny - paired or unpaired


listening to - 心跳, sonic boom and synchronicity

Appreciation night was held at TAR College, Sport Complex. It is definitely going to be an exciting night, and I’ve been looking forward to it. I reached there at 5.25pm.

I saw HIM walked pass me at the entrance. HE can’t recognize me, not even a single part of me even though I smiled at HIM. I called HIM and HE stopped, and finally knew who I was. I was indeed a bit sad yet happy. HE told me that HE can’t recognize me due to the make ups. I chatted with HIM for some time before entering the hall.

HE looked charming that night (I told HIM this after the night via SMS) and my eyes just can’t kept away from looking at HIM. Every moment during the night, I kept noticing HIM. Noticed where HE sat, where HE was and what was HE doing.

I believe my action is somehow obvious and scary, hope I won’t scare HIM off like that. I always went close to HIM, but not too near. While I was sitting, I’d find a seat which is close enough to let me see HIM. I know I’ll be nuisance to HIM but this is something which I personally find it hard to control (so sorry about my weird behaviour).

The moment I’ve been waiting for finally arrived – ball room dancing. The dance floor was opened to the committee first, then to everyone. I was standing that time, trying to find where HE was. I saw HIM stood up and walked towards me and invite me for a dance. I threw my bag to someone else and walked with HIM to the dance floor. We were holding hands so naturally to the dance floor.

We didn’t talked much during the dance as we were focusing on our steps, so to me, the song ended too fast. Another song which is soft and romantic was played. HE was not too sure that HE’d like to dance that cause he have to put this hands around my waist and while I put mine around HIS neck. HE said that it is not suitable for us so we got back to our seat. While I was standing, looking at HIM and other people at the same time, a guy approached me and invited me to dance. It was Elly’s friend. I hesitate that offer for the first few seconds, but then I accepted his offer. It’d be embarrass for him if a girl reject his offer.

We walked to the dance floor together and I eventually walked passed HIM. I heard HIM telling me to go and dance. I really had nothing to say that time. We were hold hands at the dance floor, so that we won’t be dancing like how other people dance, BUT!! I was wrong. Out of a sudden, he shifted my hands over his neck, and he put his hands over my waist!!! I did ask him to wait but I guess he can’t hear me. So, we kept on dancing like that until the song end. Once the song end, I’m rushed back to my seat but another song with the same genre as before played at once. So he stopped me and asked me to continue *sigh*. He’s also a good looking guy but I prefer HIM.

Alas!! The song finally ended. Now everyone were enjoying faster beat songs even HIM, but I didn’t enjoyed much. As usual, I just stand one side, looking at HIM and of course other people (scary eh??). I walked towards the stage and saw HIM and HIS friends dancing happily. Then, HIS friend walked towards me and mentions something about camera and asked me to stay there. I listened to him but noticed where they went at the same time. Well, I didn’t see them taking or holding any camera. It was indeed a bit down because I didn’t get the thing that I want – taking photo, at least one piece with HIM.

Everyone was going back and I still haven’t taken a photo with HIM. I walked up and down at one side where HE can see me, while calling dad to fetch me. I kept on standing there hoping that HE’ll approach me and ask me for taking photo with HIM because I finally saw HIM holding a camera. I was going to leave but with a slow and heavy step. Then, I saw HIM ran towards me and offer it. Who would say no?? We snapped a few times because HE dislikes the one we took. At last, with HIS friends support, HE put his arm over my shoulder and I put mine around his waist for easier posture. The song we danced just now played again and he asked me for a one last dance. I accepted HIS offer and we walked to the dance floor. We chatted while we dance, and that was the happiest moment.

This will be our last dance and our last meeting. I just hope the time when we’re dancing can pause for a while. Even though HE said that we can still MSN but I know that the feelings will somehow be different or changed. After the dance, we let go of our hands and stood there for some tome, trying to find a topic to chat. HIS friend called HIM so HE got to go and we bid goodbye.

I walked to the entrance and waited for dad. Everyone was leaving one by one and last there was only me. Then I saw HIM came out from the hall with hid friend. HE bid goodbye to me again and walked to his car. I really hope HE’ll come and accompany me until dad arrives. Then, I saw HIM looked towards my direction and walked towards me. HIS friend told me that he’s here to accompany me. HIS friend went back and there left me and HIM. Well, we chatted for a while, all the topic was about academic. I don’t mind about it, at least I know HE’s concern about HIS studies. Another guy came out. I misunderstood this guy to be HIS friend, in fact he’s HIS teacher.

While I was going to leave, HIS teacher gave me a bouquet of flower. I reject at first but he said that it’s useless for him to keep that flower, so I accept it and HIS teacher did say that he represent HIM to give me the flower. HE denied it by saying that that HIS teacher gave me is because I said he is one of the TARC students. I too agree with HIM. After accepting that flower, dad’s here and I got into the car and left. Before leaving TARC, I see HIM walked towards his car and seeing HIM wearing that smart for the last time.

Maybe after reading this, some people will think that I’m in love with this guy. Even I also think that too but, honestly not. He’s a unique person with a unique thinking and maybe friends and I think that attract me a lot. If I really like him, then I think that’ll only be a one sided feeling, as Chinese always say 一厢情愿. Even though the probability for us to meet in college is less than 1%, but I’ll always remember the moment we spent together (I'll be happy if I can meet him XD). So now, I just have to treat everything the normal way, without thinking too much, right guys? Haha.. One more thing, thanks to all my friends for giving me the support to attend this night and to face him =P. Special thanks to Ming Ling for helping me in my make ups..

Sarayu and Me

Elly and Me

Carwyn and Me

Pei Chin and Me

Wai Kuan and Me

Me and one of the stpm teacher

Elly, Mdm Looi and Me

Me, Ms Jeswynna and Elly

Elly, Miss Tham and Me

The flower that I received

*For those who read this, please keep this to be a secret kay? I don’t want anything to ruin our friendship. Thanks =)*

23 July 2009

Today having gathering...
Ah Kok came back for about one week ald,
so have dinner together at D' Fortune
We also celebrate Boon Sing's birthday at the same time..
Happy Birthday ya~

Hmm.....
The food at there was not bad...
I ordered a spaghetti carbonara..
The gravy is a bit sour lol..
I also dunno why..
All I know that carbonara must have the cheese taste
But...
I can't taste it!!!!
Maybe my taste bud is too strong for cheese~~
LOL~~

Wen Ee also ordered the dish as me
yeah~~
Well actually, she ordered 1st
and....
I having problem choosing XD
The others chose chicken chop while Jenny chose fish n chips
Xin Yee didn't order any heavy meal cause she's full...
So.... she ordered ice-creams

Mei Yin's dinner

Ai Ling's dinner

Xin Yee with her banana split


Before our main dish arrive,
we ate our fortune biscuit...
Very delicious~~~
I think is because it is sweet lol~~

My fortune biscuit

The content

My fortune lol~

Everyone ate so happily...
Then!!
Wen Ee brought the cake to our table
I think Boon Sing dunno about this..
I also know this when I got there
Hehehe....


The staff at there played the birthday song with guitar
All of us sang...
The other customers all looked at us XD..
I think we've been a bit crazy that time..

Then everyone snapped photo with Boon Sing..
My pic~~~ HAIZ....
Not nice ald so I asked Jenny to DEL it ~.~
Nvm la.....
Then.....
*snap* *snap* *snap*
Quite happy that day la....

A gathering once a while is really not bad!!!!
I found this quote quite interesting near the washroom~
' A hug is a great gift one size fits all'


Guess Who are They!!!!

*listening to tsubasa chronicle's songs: - synchronicity, crying alone, a storm n fire, storm is coming and hear our prayer*

Tsubasa Chronicle Tokyo Revelation - Synchronicity

by Yui Makino

Kono nukumori wa doko e yuku no
Ashita ni nareba kiete shimau no
Mune no kodou o awaseta naraba
Onaji fukami e orite yukeru no

Itsumo itsumo soba ni iru yo
Donna tooku kimi no kokoro ga mayotte mo

Kurayami no naka ni futari de tadayoinagara
Mujaki na kotori no you ni tsubasa o yosete ita
Sabishii toki ni wa egao ni kakureru kimi wa
Tokenai koori no yaiba
Kono mune o sarashite
Dakishimeru
Zutto…

Kimi wa hitori de doko e yuku no
Furikaeru no ga kowai dake na no
Mune no katachi mo kanashii iro mo
Hontou wa kitto yoku niteru no ni

Itsuka kitto kaeru basho o
Futari onaji hakanasa de mitsumete iru

Kono yami no naka de donna ni hanarete ite mo
Kokoro wa nani yori tsuyoi kizuna de yobiatte
Sabishii toki ni wa waratte ite mo wakaru yo
Tsumetai yubi o namida de
Atatamete agetai
Soba ni iru…

Kurayami no naka ni futari de tadayoinagara
Mujaki na kotori no you ni tsubasa o yosete ita
Sabishii toki ni wa egao ni kakureru kimi wa
Tokenai koori no yaiba
Kono mune o sarashite dakishimeru
Soba ni iru
Zutto…

Translate:

Where is this warmth going?
When it’s tomorrow, it’ll vanish
If I synchronized the heartbeats of our chests
Would I be able to fall to the same depth as you?

I’m always, always by your side
No matter how far your heart strays

While we drift inside the darkness
Like innocent little birds, we huddled our wings together
You, who hide behind your smile when you’re lonely
Are a blade of unmelting ice
I bare my heart
And embrace you
Forever…

Where are you going alone?
I’m just scared of looking back
The figure in my chest and the sad color
Even though I’m sure that they’re actually very similar

With the same evanescence, we are gazing
At the place that we’ll surely return to someday

No matter how we’re separated inside this darkness
Our hearts call for each other with a bond stronger than anything
Even if you’re laughing when you’re lonely, I know it
I want to warm
Your cold fingers with my tears
I’m by your side…

While we drift inside the darkness
Like innocent little birds, we huddled our wings together
You, who hide behind your smile when you’re lonely
Are a blade of unmelting ice
I bare my heart and embrace you
I’m by your side
Forever…

12th July 2009

The big day finally arrived!! I finally able to go to OO night woo hoo~ (A night where we go there and watch our future models, seeing them cat walk and stuffs, something like miss universe la)
Wake early in the morning to get prepared because i'll be going to Emily's house. We'll go to Tarc together later.

Reach at Sg. Buloh ktm around 11am, then now have to find taxi go Emily's house ><. This will be my first time taking taxi alone. At first Emily said that the driver will gather some other people only depart but it seems like i'm the only who wants to go Emily's area. Of course very scared la when i'm alone but finally reached her house safely haha.. Go her house n chit chat only while waiting time to pass lol. We only start dress up around 1pm. After that make up and then when 3pm Jhan Eu come aldready lol... We also havent finish leh so asked him wait outside for while XD.. Reached there d!!! But have to wait for some time (actually quite long) only can enter lol. Accompany Emily to find her friend, Eugene to get tickets from him. Eugene is also one of the OO finalist. Then, i saw my friend, Carwyn who is also one of the finalist haha.. Asked her to bring us up to find Eugene for Emily (See... i so good lol). Before that, give Carwyn gifts. I also helped my friend deliver flowers to her while i gave a box of bird's nest lol~ Finally can see the real Eugene, I mean not through photo la.. Hmmm...... Quite leng zai la but is a bit different from photo lo. He don't look that nice in photo haha.. That time Carwyn's partner is also there.. This one is super hot wahahahaha but also don't look nice in the photo =(. After getting ticket from Eugene, went back to wait again lol~~~

We only enter college hall around 6pm. Reach there at 3.30pm, 6pm only enter haizz... Then, sit down have to wait some more lol!! Wait for those VIP to arrive haiz... The whole event only starts at 7pm. A lot of performance, especially the performance finalist. We have two categories for OO finalist, one is campaign and the other one is performance. All the finalist that I know is from performance haha.. So, they do cat walk, posting, introducing, a small live musical (something like drama), every school talent which means school's performance ( we have mainly 5 schools - School of Pre U, School of Business Study, School of Arts and Science, School of Social Science and Humanities and School of Technology) and for campaign, they just held a charity campaign.. I feel that is really interesting la.... Maybe because my friend is taking part, who knows.. Well some of the finalist that i saw really looks a big difference!!! I think is due to the make up.. Emily and I hardly believe our eyes cause is like from a pretty to a normal person only >