Girls! Be confident and proud of yourself =)

I've warned you yet you choose not to listen! See what happened now? Don't regret if you're going to face the worst consequence. Sigh..

This is something I want to tell myself.
I'm not regretting anything, I just don't know if I'm strong enough to face the consequences.

I thought I would be able to control my feelings, but I failed.
I'm not emo-ing, just wondering. So readers for your info,need not worry too much =).

Honestly, 

Don't let someone be your priority when you're not even theirs.

Another thing that I would like to keep reminding myself.

I get mad, I nag, I'm upset, I scold........ its all because I care.
When I care, all I want is to see them happy.

Sometimes, I really do hope I have the ability to read people's mind.
I just want to know what am I to you.

I pray, hoping that history will not repeats itself.

I pray, hoping that this bonding can last forever.

I pray, hoping I can have a best moment before I go to bed.

Too bad history repeats itself once again.
Something that I terrified the most.
It happened about the same time,just in a different year.

Two good friends, a very good one quarrelled badly.
One is the one I cherish the most, the another one is the one I adore.
Standing in between of these two somehow makes my life miserable.
The factor that trigger this fight is the same as last time.

Why?
Why when we're about to get stronger, things like this happened?
Sometimes I just wonder is it a test from God.
He knows my weakness.
Is He trying to help me learn how to overcome it?

Same case, same scenario but will the ending be the same??
I just want to have a perfect moment each time with them.
Please let my bad experience and past memories rest in peace.
That's all I wish for.

Aww sweet <3

It's sucks to have such feelings back..

Tried and told myself a billion, no, should be a trillion of times that don't go for it.. but still fail in the end..

I kept myself busy all day at work today, just to keep my mind free from any thoughts. But I realise, the more I try to run/deny/ignore, the more I start to think.
Dang! Don't really like it so much..

I almost lost control yesterday. Thank god I manage to control and held it back once again =="
I had my lesson long ago and I believe this is what keeps me from being so rush.
And yes, I realise I'm not being myself anymore if I continue like this.
This is what I'm afraid of from the start.

I still couldn't believe I've asked such a stupid question and made him worried.
Arghh.....
Never mind, I'll just gonna hold it longer.
Not going to let things burst out until I'm assure and certain.
I know I can do it.. Just be normal =)

Cheers!