I was so excited when class end today because we decided to go to a costume shop to rent a Santa suit for JD. But, never did I realise I made mistakes due to my carelessness.

Two cars were going there but before that we had lunch at Wong Kok, Sunway Giza. Thank god they have set lunch so it won't be that expensive since everyone is under budget. Here is where I made my first mistake. I accidentally ordered the wrong food for Suzanne. So, at the end she got no choice but to eat it up. It struck me hard when she said it's for sick people to eat such food (it's a meal with rich and soup together in a bowl). But later on she said she's fine with the food. I know it's quite sad when you're unable to eat what you desired. Even though one person may say no worry about that but I know how deeply they don't want to. So I end up treating her since I ordered it wrongly.

It was 1.50 pm that time and their class starts at 2.45 pm. Now we need to somehow rush to the costume shop. Here's where I made my second mistake. Due to rush, I set the GPS wrongly and it lead us to a housing area. All of us made one big circle only I realise we're not heading to our destination. Evan was driving and follow me. I bet he's mad or something. He gave me the feeling that he's a straightforward person, so everything he does is somehow straightforward, even things he say?

 I felt so sorry that I leaded the wrong way. That shop is actually not far from Giza but due to misdirection it ends up being so far and we're running out of time. In the end, we managed to book the suit but the guilt I had is still with me despite whatever they said about Evan for being like that.

I don't really know why but whenever it comes to friends I can't bear to make them upset. Alright, maybe they're not upset but I just did something wrong to them and it will certainly hurt me. It's funny to think like that but this is how I feel all time. It really don't matter to me when it comes to family. I don't know why but maybe I set friendship as my first priority before family though I know I shouldn't. Maybe I'm not matured enough to think that family will always there for me. Is it because the way my family treat me is not what I want and that's why I'm thinking like that? Hmm...

I'm really trying to get over with what happened just now but when people mentioned it, it will automatically reminds you. And now, with my lots of QQ-ing in Facebook, Zac is almost pissed? Sigh.... Am I too stubborn to let things go? What will I be in the future after I become a pharmacist, if my this character continues? Will I be upset with every patient's condition for not treating them well?? I hope I won't.

Sometimes people feel that I'm mad when I don't talk
Sometimes people feel that I'm emotional when I don't talk
Sometimes people assume I'm not around when I don't talk
Worst would be
I gave the people the feeling that I'm being cocky when I don't talk?

Hmm..
Well maybe sometimes I'm not satisfy with something so I refuse to talk.
But most of the time I was just keeping myself low.
I don't like to show myself too much to people. Isn't it better to just keep quiet than to say something you're not sure about?

I prefer helping people in my own way - using the behind door technique
Sometimes people won't even know I'm the one who do them a favour.
Don't really mind if the credit ends up in other people, as long as someone solved their issue, that'll be my main concern.
But, still I'll always try to open my hands to people who are in need and if I'm really capable in helping them.

So guys! I like to keep myself low =)

Busy, hectic life start walking into my life. I'm really not used to it. I just feel like part of me is already gone.

I used to keep playing all the time, from day to night and now I have to study from day to night. Entertainment.. Hmm I need to create or make one for myself. It's sad that I have less online gaming right now.. I miss Elaine, Jay and JS, but sometimes I really don't feel like going back to FW. Reason - I don't know what to do in there???

Now my head is full with those medical terminologies~~~~ Bondings which I'm apparently so blur now @.@ and my anatomy........ I've forgotten many terms *sigh* *sad* *sob*
Daddy said, Nicole, you need to brush up all your human body parts. Such basic things and yet you forgot. TT

I really really do hope I can pass and graduate from this course successfully. But it's kinda scared when thinking about me in the future ><