Dear blog,

Holiday is over but I'm still in my holiday mood. I can't even hold my book for more than 10 minutes. There'll always be something that will distract me. Recently, I watch a English drama call Vampire Diaries. I'm so in love with this drama now, perhaps drooling for it.

I like the storyline and the character. I don't know what will the book going to be, but if I want to compare it with Twilight movie, I'll put my thumb down in this show LOL. Ok! I admit that the main characters look better than Kristen Stewart and Robert Pattinson. Both of them are too skinny and it looks scary on Robert Pattinson in New Moon.

The 3 main characters in Vampire Diaries are Elena, played by Nina Dobrey, Stefan by Paul Wesley and Damon by Ian Somerhalder. I like Elena a lot, not because she's pretty but also act better than Kristen lol.. The story is so far so good and I think my dad is into this drama too. Well, I just hope season 2 can be released asap! =D

From left: Ian, Nina, Paul

Dear blog,

    I wanted to phone Joanne yesterday after reading her Facebook status, but I couldn’t. I understand how she felt because I’m also having the same problems. So I'm worried that I wasn’t able to calm her down and explain things to her.

   I always face the same thing as Joanne when i have to part with my friends, especially bestie. I didn’t told anyone before what happen when one of my friend is going to study at Australia. On that day, I couldn’t watch her enter the plane because I’m having Chemistry test. So i decided to phone her and just bid goodbye. Who knows, the moment I heard her voice and she said ‘hello’, my voice start to tremble. I want to show her that I’m tough enough to deal with it but I was wrong. I almost cried that time. Luckily she hang up the phone first before me. She got to enter the plane so we have to end our conversation there.

   The next thing is when my friends were about to go for NS. I seriously don’t know what is wrong with me that time. We had a gathering. At the end of the day, I was speechless. I didn’t speak nor laugh but just listen to what they say. I think this is the so call emo-ing. My friend send me back that day. On my way back, I broke into tears. I remember that everyone was terrified by my action. It’s quite funny when i think back. The only thing I told them is that I hate separation.

    From everything I’ve been through, I can know that I’m still not strong enough. Not strong enough to protect myself, so how can I protect others, I wonder. It seems to me that I’m still naive. I just dislike accepting or facing the reality. Everyone always say that friends will always deceive each other at the end. I really want to prove them wrong, because I believe that I always have a wonderful friends around me.

    Now, another friend, Jasmine might be leaving. She’s a good friend to Joanne. Even though I don’t know her well, but I was a bit sad too when I heard this news. She’s like a mom to me. The way she speak, her action, somehow make me feel so secure. Though she like to tease me by saying that she’s not a pure Malaysian, where her mom is a Philippine, or something. She’s a nice girl. I dislike her at first because I feel that she’s fierce. After knowing her, I know that she’s not like what I’ve been thinking of.

    So Joanne, I know why you will be sad. But the only thing I can say is that, we must be happy for her. She have decided her future, and she’s aiming towards her dreams. There’s no point holding her back. She maybe will be sad and unable to move on if she knows how you feel. I believe that you can be tougher than me. Yes, I know you have been with her all the time, long enough as though both of you are like sisters. So, I hope you can show her that you can still move on. Sometimes we really can’t depend on somebody else too long, as this will cause a bad habit to us. So now, here’s your chance, prove to her that you can also succeed just like her. Not to say is in academic, but in life. Don’t say that is impossible. There’re still many possibilities outside and you still have a long way to go. Pray deep in heart for Jasmine’s success. I believe this is what she’s hoping for now.

    At the mean time, if you need someone else to talk to, you’re always welcome to talk to anybody you like to. I believe we will always be there for you, my dear.

   I also think that I must be strong. So Jenny, by the time you come back from Australia, I want to show you that I’m becoming stronger and stronger =D. I will always know that our bond is unbreakable, though we quarrel, we laugh and we cried together for almost 8 years now, but just to say, thanks for everything.

Love you always.

Dear blog,

I'm finally back to my sweet home. I love my room as I have not been sleeping on it for four days.

On Saturday night, we really spent most of our time pillow talking at Joanne's room. Too many things to say, to talk to discuss. It's something that I've not been doing it for such a long time. Though I can't stay up the whole night but I manage to make my day until everyone agrees to sleep. I'll die if i don't sleep =(

The pity thing is that Chun Hoe had to break his own self discipline for not sleeping at 10pm, like he always use to do. There are many things that Chun Hoe did for his first time such as:
- taking bus to a different states
- sleep at a girl's house
- using other people's kitchen
- burnt his hand (a bit of oil splash on his hand while putting the meat into the frying pan)
and.... etc

Among these four days, I like the time when all of us cook our lunch together. I always cook at home but it's a totally different feeling from cooking with friends. Chun Hoe is definitely the chef and me, Joanne, Elly, Shin Cher, Wan Yee and Chua are his helper. It's very funny and cute of Chun Hoe for his nervousness when cooking. He always claim that he cook badly and fail =="but in my, or maybe all of our opinion, he's the best. Even though I cook all the time, but I don't think I am able to cook like him.

After lunch, Joanne brings all of us to eat Portuguese egg-tart, except me =( because I have a family dinner later. After eating egg tarts, they went to a stall to drink coconut shake and lastly Jonker Walk. I'm a bit sad that I wasn't able to follow them especially to Jonker T_T. By the way, we got to know one of Joanne's senior. I don't know what's her name, but I feel that she's a sweet girl. She's cute in her own way and......... I like her in person. After that, I meet up with them at Jalan Ong Kim Wee to eat satay celup.

We then head back to Joanne's house. Joanne had a terrible driving during that night LOL. Since Saturday is the last day of our trip, everyone start pillow talking and even the boys enter Joanne's room. We talk and talk and talk non stop until 5am only decide to go to sleep. So the next day, I woke up at 11am (the latest) and the earliest I think is Chun Hoe.

One more funny thing is that, Joanne's senior suspect their relationship between Chua and Chun Hoe. This really make everyone laugh non stop. Who ask them to share food together and go and wash hands together hahaha..

So in overall, we calculated that we ate more than 30 types of food during our trip to Malacca. I think everyone will gain weight and I think is time for us to exercise =D

Dear blog,

Well, I finally got over with my AS examination today. I seriously can't sleep yesterday because I'm going back to Malacca and at the same time getting my freedom for a while.

Finishing this exam is something that I have been waited for, though I will meet another nightmare in August as my results will be released. However, I think I should carry on with my life. To me, just be positive for whatever that had done (taught by the book 'Law of Attraction and Secret'.

So now, I'm in Malacca now while writing this blog. All thanks to Jo Ann for her good driving skills that manage to get us to Malacca from KL for her first time highway driving experience. It's indeed an tired day today but I doesn't want to sleep so early because I don't want to end my day so fast today.

Well.... Just forget everything that I have answer in my Chemistry test today. I believe I have did my best and putting all my effort in it.. So stay focus and I will always believe that I can score straight As for AS xD