Today had another extemporaneous lab and am going to make oral suspension. It's a fun activity to do but not fun anymore when you need to present your product to the lecturer and get ready to answer questioned.

I realise I'm the slowest today, even those who started later than me finish everything before me. I'm actually quite worried all the time whenever I step into the lab. Not just this lab practice but any other lab practices that required me to use those apparatus. 

Today labelling was so awful. I don't know how many piece of paper I've wasted just to print 2 labels and it took me so long. I keep changing computer because the printer was bad, can't even print a proper one for me *sigh* By the time I got out of the labelling room, I only have 30 minutes to start working on my product. Weighing and measuring takes quite some time too, especially that powdered tragacanth which took me like 10-15 minutes. 

Sandy, Bob Bob and Lourene almost completed it when I just start to mix all the powders in. I can't even joined them. So basically I was alone doing all those. Thank god they helped me to get all the apparatus, if not I won't know when I can complete it. 

Knowing that I'm very far behind, I start to remain silence. They were talking but I didn't bother because I was just focusing on my product. I hope they won't think that I'm starting to be like HK. I won't but I might if I know I'm damn slow. I'm already slow in doing things, talking will only slow me down so I need to concentrate and focus. The same goes when I'm doing cooking. 

I somehow feel bad when I just remain silence like that. I know Lourene was trying to make me talk by asking me to watch a drama but I somehow didn't answer her properly or showing any interest because I'm just afraid I can't complete in time. Everytime, I need people to wash those apparatus for me because I don't even have the time to wash my own one. It's quite embarrassing, I won't mind if only once but THIS IS all time. I think that's why all the while I prefer to do things solitary.

So guys....... I'm sorry if I made you think wrong of me. I'm not in bad mood, don't worry.