Think positive

Finals is just around the corner or I should say this coming Monday. Studies been keeping me busy in updating blog but today I just feel like writing something.

Yea! It's Sunday now and middle of night (almost to 3am).
Less than 24 hours before I enter my battle field.

Honestly, this exam and especially this course is really tiring.
I'm not sure about other unis but yea, the way this uni handle the course it's really way too tiring, stressing and challenging.
Two days of exam but I need to study what had been taught for 2 semester, and I barely have only 2 weeks to study SO MUCH of things.

Targets: 1) Complete 26 questions with sub questions in 3 hours for first paper. 2) Complete 4 cases with sub questions in 3 hours, each case bare 25 marks.
Mission: Score at least 40% for each semester.

As you can see, this is really devastating.
Everything is integrated~ which I believe it have its pros and cons.

Yes, I admit at a moment I fear I'm not able to get through this. But today, something just strike my mind.
Everyone will have their first experience/time in doing anything.
For example, when we're small we had our first time wearing nursery uniforms and stepping into the kindergarten. For the first time, we had our test in kindergarten. For the first time, we sit for major exams like UPSR (standard 6), PMR (Form 3), SPM/O-level (Form 5), Pre-U, driving test and etc.

And after I enrol myself into this course, for the first time I had my consolidation test, OSCE, oral defence and now finals.
Yes and everytime for the first time everyone gets tense up including me. I get stressed up everytime, especially during my driving test and OSCE. But, at the end of the day I pass all of it. We passed! No matter how hard or how sickening it is, we passed.

People who know me, for every test or exams I did, I will screw some part of it. Like during my A Levels Examination. Hell yea.. For Mathematics, I have no idea on how to do. Not that I did not do any revision. I did all my past years, get it corrected and asked around. Worse come to worst is when I blanked quite a number of questions, maybe 3 or 4 out of 7. Indeed, I was worried after the exam that I'll fail this and that, bla bla bla, lots of negative thoughts. Who knows when the result was out, I actually passed! I didn't score, but just pass. There're many examples like during SPM I have no time to complete the questions and blanked a 10 mark question, some lesser ones and etc. At the end I somehow still pass. The moment I got my results I was so relieve. Each time it gives me a warning on my progress and that I must study hard.

So for this time, it will be my first time too.
Always have faith in yourself that you can do it, and you really can.
Whatever is done it's done, don't cry over spilt milk.
Like what Ms. Kelly told me during my OSCE, you'll never know if miracles fall upon you. So have faith and pray hard.

I'm writing here because I see many friends were scared. I am too but bring afraid don't help us to get any further. Isn't it better to spend time on studying than keep thinking about failure? LOA!!

And yea.. I have many plans after my finals, so I MUST AND WILL PASS THIS FINALS ONCE AND FOR ALL. I know I can do it!
I'm not being overconfident in this finals. I still have tons of notes to cover. I'm just having faith in myself and surrender whatever comes ahead to God. Only He knows it.

Be positive and good luck to myself and everyone!