Paid a visit to ‘psychiatrist’ today after realizing I’m unable to control my emotion anymore.

Got my ‘medicine’ and was referred to a ‘psychologist’.

Now I need to go back to see that ‘psychologist’ once a week and take that ‘medicine’ once daily until finish. I was given a book and asked to write my day. The book will be referred and check on my progress.

So hard that I’m on medication now but after taking it, I’m able to calm down. Head not that pain anymore, my sense is coming back to me slowly.

That doc said I can only recover fast if things were back to normal. I think he meant normal as in back to what we used to be. The way he treat me and the way I treat him. No more ignore, no more avoiding. Face the facts and be friends. Hmm.. I hope doc can know that, this is not exactly what I want. I know how will I feel and react. I have no choice since the other party want to be like this which makes thing gets more complicated.

If I were given another chance…..
If I was really given another again……..
I would want to tell him…
Don’t ignore me, I promise anything that you want. I promise I’ll respect your decision, just not ignore.
I can’t accept anymore ignorance.
Even though I have friends around me, but I’m really lonely.
I can’t stand someone used to be so close to me start to ignore me.
I will exchange my feelings for friendship.