Aww sweet <3

It's sucks to have such feelings back..

Tried and told myself a billion, no, should be a trillion of times that don't go for it.. but still fail in the end..

I kept myself busy all day at work today, just to keep my mind free from any thoughts. But I realise, the more I try to run/deny/ignore, the more I start to think.
Dang! Don't really like it so much..

I almost lost control yesterday. Thank god I manage to control and held it back once again =="
I had my lesson long ago and I believe this is what keeps me from being so rush.
And yes, I realise I'm not being myself anymore if I continue like this.
This is what I'm afraid of from the start.

I still couldn't believe I've asked such a stupid question and made him worried.
Arghh.....
Never mind, I'll just gonna hold it longer.
Not going to let things burst out until I'm assure and certain.
I know I can do it.. Just be normal =)

Cheers!

It's easy to say but hard to perform LOL
As usual.......

" If you don't like something, change it. If you can't change it, change your attitude." 
-Maya Angelou-


Knowledge and Hardwork are important, but the Attitude is a little thing that can makes a big difference. That's why ATTITUDE = 100%


So a good ATTITUDE is extremely important =D

Yesterday was really an amazing day.
Everyday will be an amazing day actually, after I completed my finals!!
There’re so many things I want to do, but first of all I need to complete my last report =(

OK! Here’s what happened yesterday <3

I seriously never know my groom will show up. I thought he will be late or something and leaving me alone xD.
It went on smoothly.
Thank god there’s no ceremony carry out, or else it won’t be that nice anymore.

We exchanged rings, talked to the NPC and ta-da~ We’re married =P
It’s just an in game marriage, so yea we know we’re just playing with in. All the time we just try to get into character.

After my turn it’s my baobei’s turn with Jay <3
They had ceremony, and too bad I did not take any screen shot. Maybe I’ll ask from her later if she took any.

Two couples getting married on the same day. How’s that? Cool huh..
So after our wedding, we head on to our ‘honeymoon’ – killing 270 mobs.
When you look at the number, you’ll go @.@ but it’s really fast.

It was around 3am or 3.30am that time.
After that, I put my character aside and talk with my husband.
Since both of us were so alike so the topic never stops LOL.
Don’t worry, we just chat like normal friends or I should say close friends.

And yea, I went to bed at 4am+ xD.
It’s crazy, I know but it’s fun, especially when baobei and I teases him =D.

Yeo bo and me <3

Yeah~ First paper is down, left the final one.

Honestly, this paper totally cause me to have a mental breakdown. I was stunned for few seconds the moment I read the first 7 questions. I know I'm starting to get nervous by that time.

There's no point staring there and do nothing. But thank god that one question looks familiar with me and that is where I gain my confidence. 

After the exam my mind went blank immediately. I can't think properly, brain was too occupied with what I've studied. Finally it's time to chill and relax a while.

At last! I got the chance to watch Don't Go Breaking My Heart (单身男女). This movie was out quite long ago, maybe 2 or 3 years.

Friends recommended me to watch, even the boys.

Wow! Really and fantastically this is my first time dropping tears out of touched. I was really touched by the way those two guys did for that girl. Really amazing.

It's really a great movie, especially if you can accept romance type of movie.

If I was the girl in the movie, no doubt I will go for 方启宏(acted by Daniel Wu). 

In this movie, it's either you go for a goody goody type of guy who is romantic and will know how to surprises you or a playboy type, who loses control the moment he sees hot girls even when you're around. Well of course with such personality he'll definitely have his own talent in wooing girls.

Both are romantic, able to give surprises, having good career/future, handsome and etc. 

But still, if I were to choose, 方启宏 will be the type of guy.

One of the scene I like =D

Which one will you choose? =)

Anyway, time to get some rest, very tired right now.

Cheers~

Finals is just around the corner or I should say this coming Monday. Studies been keeping me busy in updating blog but today I just feel like writing something.

Yea! It's Sunday now and middle of night (almost to 3am).
Less than 24 hours before I enter my battle field.

Honestly, this exam and especially this course is really tiring.
I'm not sure about other unis but yea, the way this uni handle the course it's really way too tiring, stressing and challenging.
Two days of exam but I need to study what had been taught for 2 semester, and I barely have only 2 weeks to study SO MUCH of things.

Targets: 1) Complete 26 questions with sub questions in 3 hours for first paper. 2) Complete 4 cases with sub questions in 3 hours, each case bare 25 marks.
Mission: Score at least 40% for each semester.

As you can see, this is really devastating.
Everything is integrated~ which I believe it have its pros and cons.

Yes, I admit at a moment I fear I'm not able to get through this. But today, something just strike my mind.
Everyone will have their first experience/time in doing anything.
For example, when we're small we had our first time wearing nursery uniforms and stepping into the kindergarten. For the first time, we had our test in kindergarten. For the first time, we sit for major exams like UPSR (standard 6), PMR (Form 3), SPM/O-level (Form 5), Pre-U, driving test and etc.

And after I enrol myself into this course, for the first time I had my consolidation test, OSCE, oral defence and now finals.
Yes and everytime for the first time everyone gets tense up including me. I get stressed up everytime, especially during my driving test and OSCE. But, at the end of the day I pass all of it. We passed! No matter how hard or how sickening it is, we passed.

People who know me, for every test or exams I did, I will screw some part of it. Like during my A Levels Examination. Hell yea.. For Mathematics, I have no idea on how to do. Not that I did not do any revision. I did all my past years, get it corrected and asked around. Worse come to worst is when I blanked quite a number of questions, maybe 3 or 4 out of 7. Indeed, I was worried after the exam that I'll fail this and that, bla bla bla, lots of negative thoughts. Who knows when the result was out, I actually passed! I didn't score, but just pass. There're many examples like during SPM I have no time to complete the questions and blanked a 10 mark question, some lesser ones and etc. At the end I somehow still pass. The moment I got my results I was so relieve. Each time it gives me a warning on my progress and that I must study hard.

So for this time, it will be my first time too.
Always have faith in yourself that you can do it, and you really can.
Whatever is done it's done, don't cry over spilt milk.
Like what Ms. Kelly told me during my OSCE, you'll never know if miracles fall upon you. So have faith and pray hard.

I'm writing here because I see many friends were scared. I am too but bring afraid don't help us to get any further. Isn't it better to spend time on studying than keep thinking about failure? LOA!!

And yea.. I have many plans after my finals, so I MUST AND WILL PASS THIS FINALS ONCE AND FOR ALL. I know I can do it!
I'm not being overconfident in this finals. I still have tons of notes to cover. I'm just having faith in myself and surrender whatever comes ahead to God. Only He knows it.

Be positive and good luck to myself and everyone!