Today is a very special day because we can only get today four years once.

According to what everyone said, today is also woman's confession day!!! In this day, woman will confess her feelings to the guy she like and the guy have only two choice - to accept or reject. If the guy rejects the girl, then he'll be fined!!! Well I guess this is one day where woman OWNS!! In this way, girl don't lose anything, right???????

Hmm.. Anyway, I would like to congrats to those who have their special day today like birthday, any anniversary and etc.

Well today, a bunch of us hang out at One Utama after class. I just remember that today is the last day where Starbucks is having promotion!!!!! BUY ONE FREE ONE~ Of course I'll go for it =)
It's a very very long queue. Even though they said promotion is until 2pm but.. who gives a damn?? We still line up anyway xD

I got my chocolate java chips, intro by Sandy. It's yummy~~ and I can taste oreo biscuit in it =)

The best part is when we're ready to go back. Jenn and I saw Matt and Derrick buying something from the arcade counter. THEY ARE GOING TO PLAY!! LOL~
They played car racing - Initial D. Jenn and I was so bored that she then suggested us to play motorcycle racing =))))))))))))))))))))))

Great man! I think both of our waist is going to break the moment we keep flung ourselves here and there due to that massive cornering.
Anyway it was a great time and you know what this means???????? Pharmacy students are not nerd!! Apart from books and notes all day, we do play gamessssssssss =))))))

Anyway, had a great time with everyone and a nice chat with Jenn.
She has a cute personality which makes me like her =))
Teehehehehe....

Oh and confession day right??????
Hmm.........

To all my friends!! I love you guyssss. You make my life full with colourssssssssssss

Oh great! This old feeling is coming back to me again after so long, 3 to 4 years maybe.
I really hate this feeling!!! T.T

It's not a big matter actually, just a feeling where I feel I'm so useless and dumb.
Lab session again...........
OK! Let me make something clear first because I start anything.
To some people, they think I'm smart because I studies A level.
Well, hell no! Studying what doesn't prove your intelligence ok?
Just because I studied A level compare to those who took foundation, you can't say I'm smarter than you.

Basically, I'm just an average student and a very slow one.
I'm having hard time in understanding something in a short period of time.
That's why I absorb things slow.
This happens to me when I'm in high school.
I can know how frustrated a person can be after tons of explanation and you still don't get it.
I know exactly how that's feel!

Same thing as before, I was having a hard time just now understanding the plates.
Too many plates that I even got confused.
One person explain to me, I don't get it. Then two people and I still don't get it. THREE people explain to me AND I STILL DON'T GET IT!!
I see some of them some sort of having the slam face action and how impatient they are.
For that instant I just feel so useless that why can't I understand such a simple thing???????
I really feel like crying that time but I just hold it.

I don't know how I overcome it last time.
Well I think it's because I have bunch of girls who are willing to be extremely patient with me and explain to me slowly and one by one.
I just dislike the blur feeling....
Why 'you' come back now?? Should just remain 'dormant'.

Because of my this weakness, that's also one of the reason why I prefer to do things alone.
I just don't want to trouble people.
Different people have their own patience limit.
Mine varies with individuals but most of the time I'll try to explain as I can.
*note: patience in teaching and explaining is two different thing.*

Sigh....
I really don't know what to do with myself anymore.....

Today had another extemporaneous lab and am going to make oral suspension. It's a fun activity to do but not fun anymore when you need to present your product to the lecturer and get ready to answer questioned.

I realise I'm the slowest today, even those who started later than me finish everything before me. I'm actually quite worried all the time whenever I step into the lab. Not just this lab practice but any other lab practices that required me to use those apparatus. 

Today labelling was so awful. I don't know how many piece of paper I've wasted just to print 2 labels and it took me so long. I keep changing computer because the printer was bad, can't even print a proper one for me *sigh* By the time I got out of the labelling room, I only have 30 minutes to start working on my product. Weighing and measuring takes quite some time too, especially that powdered tragacanth which took me like 10-15 minutes. 

Sandy, Bob Bob and Lourene almost completed it when I just start to mix all the powders in. I can't even joined them. So basically I was alone doing all those. Thank god they helped me to get all the apparatus, if not I won't know when I can complete it. 

Knowing that I'm very far behind, I start to remain silence. They were talking but I didn't bother because I was just focusing on my product. I hope they won't think that I'm starting to be like HK. I won't but I might if I know I'm damn slow. I'm already slow in doing things, talking will only slow me down so I need to concentrate and focus. The same goes when I'm doing cooking. 

I somehow feel bad when I just remain silence like that. I know Lourene was trying to make me talk by asking me to watch a drama but I somehow didn't answer her properly or showing any interest because I'm just afraid I can't complete in time. Everytime, I need people to wash those apparatus for me because I don't even have the time to wash my own one. It's quite embarrassing, I won't mind if only once but THIS IS all time. I think that's why all the while I prefer to do things solitary.

So guys....... I'm sorry if I made you think wrong of me. I'm not in bad mood, don't worry.

It’s amazing how at one point in our lives we will be extremely close with someone and then later they will become a complete stranger. 

You will pass by them without a word. 

Without a single acknowledging look. 

This person, who once knew you so well, 

who once knew your fears, your desires, your dreams, your past, 

is now walking right past you, seeing right through you

The irony of love is loving the right person at the wrong time and having the wrong person when the time is right.

Finding out you love someone right after the person walks out of your life. Sometimes, you think you're already over a person, but when you see them smile at you,

you'll suddenly realize that you're just pretending to be over them just to ease the pain of knowing that you're not.

Most relationships tend to fail not because of the absence of love.

Love is always present. It's just that one was being loved too much

and the other was being loved too little...

Most often, we fall in love with the person we think we love

But to only discover that for them, we are just for past times,

While the one who truly loves us remains either a friend or a stranger...

So here's a piece of advice:

Let go when you're hurting too much, give up when love isn't enough, and move on when things aren't like before.

I believe that everything happens for a reason. 

People change so that you can learn to let go, 

things go wrong so that you apprieciate them when they're right, 

you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, 

and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.

- Marilyn Monroe

Just because I laugh a lot, 

doesn't mean my life is easy. 

Just because I have a smile on my face every day, 

doesn't mean that somethings not bothering me. 

Its just that I choose to move on with the negative in my life, 

and keep my head up, instead of dwelling on the past.