This is one thing I should say to everyone and also to my blog~

It's already been 2 years since I opened this blog

There's nothing special for this year xmas. I don't have plan to go out with friends like what I had last year. So, this year, I only spend my day with online friends (Perfect World). Though we didn't meet each other, but I had fun celebrating Christmas with them.

By the way, I got my Christmas gift too~ I think this is best Christmas gift so far. Thanks to HottChick for giving me a pet ride. I'm really touched and happy though it's not something real =)

But.. also thanks to Zesca, StrykerX and Alyssa. They helped me a lot when I don't understand a thing in Perfect World. People always say do not trust online friends, but I think it'll be an exceptional case for them =) ( and also HC xD)

So guys, I promise I'll try my best to LV up despite how busy I am =P

Anyway, Merry Xmas to all my friends and a Happy New Year

Hope everyone can enjoy this Christmas and the coming 2011

=)

*peace* ^^v

3 days of Digital Fair is finally over!!!!

I'm so overjoy when the clock strikes 9pm..
At last I can finally have a long sleep and recover all my stamina for standing approximately 30hours~
Wee~~~

This is the best part-time job I've ever had.
Even though the job is damn tiring but it's fun to be with all the promoters and sandwich boys.

Some of us did crazy stuffs despite we're on duty to promote our products, especially that sandwich boy Sing Siaw who try to cheat small girl like me on the 1st day of our work. Luckily I'm smart enough not to get cheated. But I always got teased and he somehow did some stuffs which embarrassed me. *sigh*
Anyway, I feel that it's kinda long that I had this kind of feeling. This reminds me how Jenny and I used to bully the boys and get bullied by them when we're in primary school and of course in online games. It's really fun and these 3 days do bring all my memories back, all thanks to 'Mr. Cheater' =)

Besides, I also got to learn some economic knowledge from Jenny.
Quite interesting and I kinda like it, but I'm not putting my interest into econs =)

Other than that, someone ask me to get a boyfriend lol..

Dating will makes someone look more mature..

OK...

Does this means that I'm childish right now??

Hmm.....

But he said it's best to enjoy my single life *like*

So on the last day, all of us have a photo session.
Pity Elly that she fall sick yesterday, if not she can join us.
I feel so sorry for her.
I do miss her presence.

Anyway, hope we can meet each other again.. I'll miss you all <3>

Games booth at there~~ <3

We~

Jenny, me and Laveece~

Bad Sing Siaw lol..

All of us~

Last but not least...

KlCC night niew

Just watched Rapunzel with sis yesterday at Pavilion.
I believe everyone knows the story of Rapunzel, but Disney makes it slightly different from the usual story that we know.

I like the story line a lot and of course the movie itself.

Out of all the soundtracks in this movie, 'I see the light' caught my attention the most.

This is half of it.. (part in the movie)

This is the full song with lyrics

The lyrics is just so meaningful.
What I feel from it was, 'light' represent hope.
So no matter how deep we fall, there's always hope around us.
Depends on how you going to chase after it.

So..
Don't give up, as there's always hope, even the slightest one will do

Cheers

After A Levels for 1 1/2 years, this course is finally over
No more exams to worried for the moment, no more homework and etc.
Finally can relax and enjoy myself.

Should this be a good sign or a bad sign?

Once finishing this course, means that everyone will be heading their own goals and dreams.
As for a person like me, it’s somehow tough for me to accept it.
I did asked Sharon many times today, when will I be seeing you? when is the next time we will meet again?

I believe everyone is super happy with everything is ending.
Just don’t know why, but I start missing college, exclude those exam thingy.

But, I’m really happy that I was chosen to be in SN10C.
At first I thought this will be the end of me, but as time goes on, you eventually start to realise a lot of things and get close with everyone. I even got a nickname from SN10C. I believe this idea came from Kenny and Virgil.

Both of them really like to lecture me a lot. You know, everyday listening to them, talking non-stop like a parrot, keep repeating the same thing. You really want to close your ears when they start. But honestly, really thanks to them. Even though this is just from a guy point of view but I appreciate it a lot. No friend lectures me before so THIS IS MY VERY FIRST TIME from friends and guys. They seem to be teasing me a lot but I’m fine with it, though sometimes I really have no choice but to throw a fake temper at them.

Kow to me is like a joker. He laughed a lot and always does silly things. But when things get serious, he always tries his best to make it perfect and that’s when I feel he’s cool.

Virgil is somewhat a confusing guy. You can’t guess what he’s thinking. But I like to apologize him for wanting to sit with Elly all the time and he’s always in my way. I can’t give any good reasons for what I wish for, it just came out eventually. So sorry for that, really don’t know how to explain.

However, among them, I really wish to thanks Kenny a lot. I think it’s because we’re both born on the same day, I somehow able to understand what message he’s trying to tell me. But not all the times then, there’re some time when I really don’t get him and guess what he’ll call me?? Blur, noob, boon siew etc etc. It’s really hurting at first, because this is not what I wish for, but later on I have no choice but to accept it and sometimes think again and again.

As for the girls, I really like Elly, Joanne and Sharon a lot.

Elly, even though she has a small white face, tiny body, which makes people think she’s like a small girl but her thinking is somehow superb. I like her maturity. She always looks fierce and when she start talking something seriously you can feel that as though you’re being scolded. This is what I felt and from that moment, you’ll eventually try to think careful before making a good decision. Hanging out with her is best because she knows what to do and you got to learn from her. I’ll be really glad to have a sister like her.

Joanne. I like her smile, her passion, her way. Her character is somehow cool in terms of doing things. You’ll be lucky to have a best friend like her.

Sharon, my huggy bear. She’s pretty and her expression is sometimes very cute. It’s nice looking at how she react. Not to make a joke on her act but sometimes when just looking at her, you feel like smiling also.

It’s tough to describe someone how you felt towards them. Even I, find a hard time writing about them, it’s just not easy putting everything into words. It’ll be easier to just get to know that person.

I can imagine what their expression will be or how they react or maybe what they say. Sometimes, you’ll be surprise when somebody says how good you are where you think you’re not. This is the impression you gave others. It might not be what they think but it’s really part in you that shines. Don’t feel hilarious when someone describe you, just accept the compliment.

By the way, just want to apologize for my naive thinking and idiotic behaviour all the time.

Some things will just remain as usual.

No matter how hard you tried, you just can't get more from it.

So, this is the time where you have to control yourselves and keep your pace.

The more you ask, the more you can't get and in the end only disappointment befalls you.

Sometimes it will be better to remain just as it is used to be.

There's too many doubts which you can't figure out which might occur in the future.

So, in rather losing another friend, why not just maintain it?

I think this is the only best way.

I feel that I'm seriously having a mental depression right now.
Every time I heard something related to Biology or any term that appears in it, I’ll start think back what I've done for my that paper. I felt regret and at the same time depress. I can’t imagine how many marks I will lose. Too many blanks in that paper. I know this because I did the same thing during my trial. Guess what I got, 20+ out of 100.

I’m really worried this thing will happen again as this is not something to mess with. It’s about my future and my life. I can’t imagine I might ruin it on my bare hands. For Mathematics, I can roughly know what grade I will get. Hopefully it’s B, but the best will definitely be A.

Not only that, I also partially screwed my Chemistry paper 5. I could not manage to complete question 2. I left the last page blanked. However, there’s still hope for my Chemistry, as long as I do well in my paper 4, which I’m trying very hard now.

I really need someone to talk to, but I couldn’t find anyone. I can’t find my secondary friends because we’re on different course and I don’t think they’ll truly understand what is it like to be this depress. They didn’t sit for the paper, so they wouldn’t know its difficulty.

It’s weird that, though I’ve many friends but at the moment I’m lost, I can’t find someone right now. I really felt lonely right now. I really need someone who can understand the pain I bear. I understand this is just the beginning of life and I shouldn’t give up right now, but the feeling of guilt is still there.

No matter what the circumstances is, I really want my Biology to get at least a B. I really hope Cambridge will not set the grade threshold too high. I really have no other way but just to pray very very hard now. This is the first time ever I felt like this before. I don’t know what explanation I can tell my parents if things turns out not as I expected. One can never know this feeling unless he experience it.

I seriously need some advice and someone to talk to.

Sometimes I really wish to go back to my secondary life.
This desires somehow seems to be getting stronger day by day.
It's not like I'm unhappy with my current school life.
I'm satisfied.
But, secondary life is simply the best.
I can't put any words to describe how best it is because it's perfection is already there, all by itself.

There's no worries.
Not much fear.
Not much boredom.
Everything just seems to go on smoothly.

In that life,
That is the time to recognise love.
That is the time to realise how important friendship is.
That's the time when your heart start pounding really hard when you meet someone you like.
That's the time where you spend most of your time with your friends.
That's the time when everyone's thinking is still naive.
And, that's the time when you learn how to be brave and never give up.

There's not much worries for exam or results because you know that you can do and score it.
Everyone has a second tutor to live with, and that cause most people to be dependent on others.

But now, things change.
Though there are more events now like prom and OO Night but part of the fear in me still lies around.
Maybe I've lack the courage to move on.

I start to fear with my exam and results.
I start to get bothered by small stuffs like transport.
I start to wonder what's my next plan for today, tomorrow and so on.
I start to worried about my future.
Too many thoughts and consideration came into my mind at once.
I've to solve this puzzle one by one, all by myself.
Sometimes I'll think what will I b doing if I really screw my course.

There's so many goals that I want to achieve and the only words I can think of now is to never give up.
No matter how many times I fall, I really hope no one to calculate.

Whenever I fall, I only want one thing, that's to see pairs of hand, reaching out for me, pull me back and to support me.
I also really hope someone will pat my shoulder and tell me sincerely, Nicole, it's alright, don't be upset, you've done your best and I've seen it. I'm really proud of you.
And, I wish the person that can tell me this are my family members.