Going back..

Sometimes I really wish to go back to my secondary life.
This desires somehow seems to be getting stronger day by day.
It's not like I'm unhappy with my current school life.
I'm satisfied.
But, secondary life is simply the best.
I can't put any words to describe how best it is because it's perfection is already there, all by itself.

There's no worries.
Not much fear.
Not much boredom.
Everything just seems to go on smoothly.

In that life,
That is the time to recognise love.
That is the time to realise how important friendship is.
That's the time when your heart start pounding really hard when you meet someone you like.
That's the time where you spend most of your time with your friends.
That's the time when everyone's thinking is still naive.
And, that's the time when you learn how to be brave and never give up.

There's not much worries for exam or results because you know that you can do and score it.
Everyone has a second tutor to live with, and that cause most people to be dependent on others.

But now, things change.
Though there are more events now like prom and OO Night but part of the fear in me still lies around.
Maybe I've lack the courage to move on.

I start to fear with my exam and results.
I start to get bothered by small stuffs like transport.
I start to wonder what's my next plan for today, tomorrow and so on.
I start to worried about my future.
Too many thoughts and consideration came into my mind at once.
I've to solve this puzzle one by one, all by myself.
Sometimes I'll think what will I b doing if I really screw my course.

There's so many goals that I want to achieve and the only words I can think of now is to never give up.
No matter how many times I fall, I really hope no one to calculate.

Whenever I fall, I only want one thing, that's to see pairs of hand, reaching out for me, pull me back and to support me.
I also really hope someone will pat my shoulder and tell me sincerely, Nicole, it's alright, don't be upset, you've done your best and I've seen it. I'm really proud of you.
And, I wish the person that can tell me this are my family members.