Dear blog,

    Today wasn’t a good day for me. I had an accident this morning on the way to pick Shaun and the others. Everything just happened in a split of seconds.

    I was heading towards Shaun’s house, by using the market route. When I reached a T-juntion, a red colour Kenari came out suddenly. I wasn’t able to dodge in time, so my cas was hit on the side door.

    I stopped the car, open the say and said, ‘Walau auntie, how did you drive?’ The auntie just said, ‘I saw no car coming’. I was stunned but never mind. I called my mom and the only thing I heard from her is aiyooo. I can’t get to Shaun at that moment. I came out from my car, locked it and walked towards the auntie. I was kind that time and asked, ‘Auntie, are you OK?’ She replied, I’m fine but the car is not fine.’ She shows me the damaged she got. Her car’s bumper dropped and she said mine was not as terrible as hers (I do not know that).

    I told her that my parents were on the way and asked her to discuss with them. She said she’s in rush and I tell her I also in rush to college. She asked me where I study and tell me where she lives, but not precise enough. So she asked me to give her my phone number and I gave. She told me that she will called me and I said OK.

    She then drove off and my parents came. The first thing they asked me is that where’s that person and I said just left. This make them so pissed off especially my mom. Scolding and yelling at me in front of the public for not getting her number and let her go. Then, I entered my car and my dad asked me for her car plate number. At the mean time my mom continue scolding me for being stupid, get bullied and cheated by people. I only replied her at a high tone saying, Ya la! She paused for a while and said, Why did you shout at me? I replied her, Can you stop saying all these? Can’t you understand my feelings with the situation I’m facing now?? She kept silence. My voice were trembling that time, I knew I was going to cry.

    After giving my dad the infos, he asked me to go to college first. I broke down in the car, thinking that why would mom wanted to treat me like that. I’m already in a bad condition. Everything she said only increase my pain. I know she’s worried about me, but can’t she put it in proper words? such as, what happened? are you ok? if you didn’t get the phone number then never mind, we’ll figure out other way. Are all these so hard to say?? I’m impressed with myself that I still able to concern about the auntie when she knocked me. I understand the feelings after an accident. You may be physically fine, but may not me mentally fine.

    However, Shaun drove to college today because the door couldn’t close tightly. I seriously cried the whole journey to college and even during Maths lecture. It’s just so hurt when I thought what mom said to me. But I managed to recover a bit after everything. Thanks a lot to my friends who give me advices and comfort me. That’s why I somehow feel that I can’t live without friends. People usually say can’t live without their bf or gf, but to me are friends.

    So, I don’t know what will happen next. I don’t know whether will that auntie call me, but i truly hope and wish that she will call. I really do not want to make a police report. I don’t know what’s the consequences, but I don’t wish to trouble auntie. So hopefully we can settle ourselves without the aid of the third party.

 

God, please help me this time, despite every bad karma that I have done.

Dear blog,

I just watched Eclipse with Jean Sean today after class. Luckily there's meeting for lecturers, so we rush to Wangsa Walk to watch the 12.10pm show. There's actually 2 choices of show that we want - Eclipse or Despicable me. But we chose Eclipse at last.

The story is far more better than New Moon. I yawned when I watch New Moon, but this was ok. However, there's too many kissing parts lol.

Jacob and Edward. It's always the old triangle thingy where 2 guys like the same girls. Jean Sean asked me a question during the show. Who would I choose if it's me, Jacob or Edward. I asked her to answer me first and she say she would not choose both. Looks like I'm the stupid one that go and think about the option xD.

Hmm.. If I were Bella, it's really not easy to choose one, because both of them are so protective, caring, kind and of course strong. But I think I will go for the vampire. I don't know what explanation I could give, it's just the first option that crosses my mind. Maybe it's because vampires are calm, except when they're flooded with blood. Wolves are a bit hot tempered. You can see why Jacob get angry so easily with Bella and many other reasons too. So because of that, i'll go for vampire team =)

Dear blog,

I got my MUET results today MORNING 2.18am, where I sent the SMS at 11.27pm. Can anyone ever imagine what feeling I had while waiting for the reply and at the same time sms-ing other friends. Every time when my phone beep, my heart stop beating for a second. You wouldn't never dare to look at the sender =D

So this morning, got up and saw they reply. It's weird that I'm not nervous as last night. I open the message. My IC number pass my eyes, and then my candidate number, lastly the word 'band'. I dare not scroll down but when I saw the top part of the number, I thought it was 2. I immediately scroll it down and I saw the number 3. Speechless for 3 seconds and I'm back.

Wow.... Band 3.. What would I going to tell my parents my result?? I'm surely they will be disappointed with it. Plus, it's unbelievable for me to get this result. I was relieved that it's not 2 but I'm still a bit sad and the next second, I didn't bother it anymore. I think I would if it's for IELTS.

It's indeed heartache where you're a person who speaks English at home since small and this is the results that you get. I know my mistakes during the test. So what I can say is, just leave this aside as there's more important things for me to worry of - A2. I can retake MUET anytime I want but not for A2.

So.... I think I will take IELTS first and then MUET again lol. I don't think I dare to screw my paper again for the next time, it's not fun at all =( and not to underestimate again.

Dear blog,

=D
Tarc is having a Science exhibition today
Everyone starts visiting the exhibition because of bouncing ball
We get to make one for ourselves with all those chemicals.
I got one but it's a failure, because the SMS member made it for me =(

I only got to make my own one after all my class end, which is 2pm.
Only few of us went back there as other friends went to sing K, and some straight back to home.
So, left me, Kenny, Jean Sean, Kar Yan and two more A class students.

When I enter the exhibition, I saw them standing at one of the 'booth'.
It's teaching us Sex Education.
I didn't notice it at first.
The only thing I notice is a small square plastic thingy.
The first question that pop out of my mind is what is that.
It's an expected expression that all of them were surprise that I didn't what that thing is.
So I thought for a while and make my guess.
I think it's a CONDOM, and I'm right =D

For life, I swear that's my first time looking at it.
Then, one of the SMS member open it and demo to us.
Another first question pop out into my mind - it looks like pacifier =)
The answer I got from Kenny is, eww... you're disgusting =)
Come on, it really looks like that weh...
Then, the SMS member place it on top on the measuring cylinder, look at me and tell me how I should wear this..
I immediately respond to him that, why should I learn. Kenny is the one who should learn (i point at him)
The SMS member said that I will have a husband later and have to wear for him???
SWT!!!!!
Please la.... I don't think I'll do that lol
After that I kept quiet and just observe.
I dare not touch it, seriously.
I feel that it's a good thing that I just see it =D

Then, Jean Sean open another packet that has coconut flavour.
I hate the smell.
Then, I saw on the board there written something.
Why do condoms have flavour??
Hmm.... I don't know this..
Then Kar Yan tell me is for oral sex???
I asked again, oral sex so????
Hahahaha...
I feel that I've been asking a lot of weird question today =)
Never mind, it's a good achievement today =)

AND...
I made my own purple bouncing ball =)
Now I have to reshape it into a ball =)

At the same time
I would like to say...
I'll miss you Jasmine =)

Dear blog,

Holiday is over but I'm still in my holiday mood. I can't even hold my book for more than 10 minutes. There'll always be something that will distract me. Recently, I watch a English drama call Vampire Diaries. I'm so in love with this drama now, perhaps drooling for it.

I like the storyline and the character. I don't know what will the book going to be, but if I want to compare it with Twilight movie, I'll put my thumb down in this show LOL. Ok! I admit that the main characters look better than Kristen Stewart and Robert Pattinson. Both of them are too skinny and it looks scary on Robert Pattinson in New Moon.

The 3 main characters in Vampire Diaries are Elena, played by Nina Dobrey, Stefan by Paul Wesley and Damon by Ian Somerhalder. I like Elena a lot, not because she's pretty but also act better than Kristen lol.. The story is so far so good and I think my dad is into this drama too. Well, I just hope season 2 can be released asap! =D

From left: Ian, Nina, Paul

Dear blog,

    I wanted to phone Joanne yesterday after reading her Facebook status, but I couldn’t. I understand how she felt because I’m also having the same problems. So I'm worried that I wasn’t able to calm her down and explain things to her.

   I always face the same thing as Joanne when i have to part with my friends, especially bestie. I didn’t told anyone before what happen when one of my friend is going to study at Australia. On that day, I couldn’t watch her enter the plane because I’m having Chemistry test. So i decided to phone her and just bid goodbye. Who knows, the moment I heard her voice and she said ‘hello’, my voice start to tremble. I want to show her that I’m tough enough to deal with it but I was wrong. I almost cried that time. Luckily she hang up the phone first before me. She got to enter the plane so we have to end our conversation there.

   The next thing is when my friends were about to go for NS. I seriously don’t know what is wrong with me that time. We had a gathering. At the end of the day, I was speechless. I didn’t speak nor laugh but just listen to what they say. I think this is the so call emo-ing. My friend send me back that day. On my way back, I broke into tears. I remember that everyone was terrified by my action. It’s quite funny when i think back. The only thing I told them is that I hate separation.

    From everything I’ve been through, I can know that I’m still not strong enough. Not strong enough to protect myself, so how can I protect others, I wonder. It seems to me that I’m still naive. I just dislike accepting or facing the reality. Everyone always say that friends will always deceive each other at the end. I really want to prove them wrong, because I believe that I always have a wonderful friends around me.

    Now, another friend, Jasmine might be leaving. She’s a good friend to Joanne. Even though I don’t know her well, but I was a bit sad too when I heard this news. She’s like a mom to me. The way she speak, her action, somehow make me feel so secure. Though she like to tease me by saying that she’s not a pure Malaysian, where her mom is a Philippine, or something. She’s a nice girl. I dislike her at first because I feel that she’s fierce. After knowing her, I know that she’s not like what I’ve been thinking of.

    So Joanne, I know why you will be sad. But the only thing I can say is that, we must be happy for her. She have decided her future, and she’s aiming towards her dreams. There’s no point holding her back. She maybe will be sad and unable to move on if she knows how you feel. I believe that you can be tougher than me. Yes, I know you have been with her all the time, long enough as though both of you are like sisters. So, I hope you can show her that you can still move on. Sometimes we really can’t depend on somebody else too long, as this will cause a bad habit to us. So now, here’s your chance, prove to her that you can also succeed just like her. Not to say is in academic, but in life. Don’t say that is impossible. There’re still many possibilities outside and you still have a long way to go. Pray deep in heart for Jasmine’s success. I believe this is what she’s hoping for now.

    At the mean time, if you need someone else to talk to, you’re always welcome to talk to anybody you like to. I believe we will always be there for you, my dear.

   I also think that I must be strong. So Jenny, by the time you come back from Australia, I want to show you that I’m becoming stronger and stronger =D. I will always know that our bond is unbreakable, though we quarrel, we laugh and we cried together for almost 8 years now, but just to say, thanks for everything.

Love you always.

Dear blog,

I'm finally back to my sweet home. I love my room as I have not been sleeping on it for four days.

On Saturday night, we really spent most of our time pillow talking at Joanne's room. Too many things to say, to talk to discuss. It's something that I've not been doing it for such a long time. Though I can't stay up the whole night but I manage to make my day until everyone agrees to sleep. I'll die if i don't sleep =(

The pity thing is that Chun Hoe had to break his own self discipline for not sleeping at 10pm, like he always use to do. There are many things that Chun Hoe did for his first time such as:
- taking bus to a different states
- sleep at a girl's house
- using other people's kitchen
- burnt his hand (a bit of oil splash on his hand while putting the meat into the frying pan)
and.... etc

Among these four days, I like the time when all of us cook our lunch together. I always cook at home but it's a totally different feeling from cooking with friends. Chun Hoe is definitely the chef and me, Joanne, Elly, Shin Cher, Wan Yee and Chua are his helper. It's very funny and cute of Chun Hoe for his nervousness when cooking. He always claim that he cook badly and fail =="but in my, or maybe all of our opinion, he's the best. Even though I cook all the time, but I don't think I am able to cook like him.

After lunch, Joanne brings all of us to eat Portuguese egg-tart, except me =( because I have a family dinner later. After eating egg tarts, they went to a stall to drink coconut shake and lastly Jonker Walk. I'm a bit sad that I wasn't able to follow them especially to Jonker T_T. By the way, we got to know one of Joanne's senior. I don't know what's her name, but I feel that she's a sweet girl. She's cute in her own way and......... I like her in person. After that, I meet up with them at Jalan Ong Kim Wee to eat satay celup.

We then head back to Joanne's house. Joanne had a terrible driving during that night LOL. Since Saturday is the last day of our trip, everyone start pillow talking and even the boys enter Joanne's room. We talk and talk and talk non stop until 5am only decide to go to sleep. So the next day, I woke up at 11am (the latest) and the earliest I think is Chun Hoe.

One more funny thing is that, Joanne's senior suspect their relationship between Chua and Chun Hoe. This really make everyone laugh non stop. Who ask them to share food together and go and wash hands together hahaha..

So in overall, we calculated that we ate more than 30 types of food during our trip to Malacca. I think everyone will gain weight and I think is time for us to exercise =D