Dear blog,
Today wasn’t a good day for me. I had an accident this morning on the way to pick Shaun and the others. Everything just happened in a split of seconds.
I was heading towards Shaun’s house, by using the market route. When I reached a T-juntion, a red colour Kenari came out suddenly. I wasn’t able to dodge in time, so my cas was hit on the side door.
I stopped the car, open the say and said, ‘Walau auntie, how did you drive?’ The auntie just said, ‘I saw no car coming’. I was stunned but never mind. I called my mom and the only thing I heard from her is aiyooo. I can’t get to Shaun at that moment. I came out from my car, locked it and walked towards the auntie. I was kind that time and asked, ‘Auntie, are you OK?’ She replied, I’m fine but the car is not fine.’ She shows me the damaged she got. Her car’s bumper dropped and she said mine was not as terrible as hers (I do not know that).
I told her that my parents were on the way and asked her to discuss with them. She said she’s in rush and I tell her I also in rush to college. She asked me where I study and tell me where she lives, but not precise enough. So she asked me to give her my phone number and I gave. She told me that she will called me and I said OK.
She then drove off and my parents came. The first thing they asked me is that where’s that person and I said just left. This make them so pissed off especially my mom. Scolding and yelling at me in front of the public for not getting her number and let her go. Then, I entered my car and my dad asked me for her car plate number. At the mean time my mom continue scolding me for being stupid, get bullied and cheated by people. I only replied her at a high tone saying, Ya la! She paused for a while and said, Why did you shout at me? I replied her, Can you stop saying all these? Can’t you understand my feelings with the situation I’m facing now?? She kept silence. My voice were trembling that time, I knew I was going to cry.
After giving my dad the infos, he asked me to go to college first. I broke down in the car, thinking that why would mom wanted to treat me like that. I’m already in a bad condition. Everything she said only increase my pain. I know she’s worried about me, but can’t she put it in proper words? such as, what happened? are you ok? if you didn’t get the phone number then never mind, we’ll figure out other way. Are all these so hard to say?? I’m impressed with myself that I still able to concern about the auntie when she knocked me. I understand the feelings after an accident. You may be physically fine, but may not me mentally fine.
However, Shaun drove to college today because the door couldn’t close tightly. I seriously cried the whole journey to college and even during Maths lecture. It’s just so hurt when I thought what mom said to me. But I managed to recover a bit after everything. Thanks a lot to my friends who give me advices and comfort me. That’s why I somehow feel that I can’t live without friends. People usually say can’t live without their bf or gf, but to me are friends.
So, I don’t know what will happen next. I don’t know whether will that auntie call me, but i truly hope and wish that she will call. I really do not want to make a police report. I don’t know what’s the consequences, but I don’t wish to trouble auntie. So hopefully we can settle ourselves without the aid of the third party.
God, please help me this time, despite every bad karma that I have done.
