I really don't know what role do i play in front of them..
I really don't know what do you all think about me..
I also don't know whether is my presence annoy u all..

I don't seem to be able to join you all..
I don't seem to be able to understand you all..
I don't seem to know anything that you all know..

What's the reason for this??

Every time when i ask, you all just say nothing...
Every time when i ask, you all as though didn't hear what i'm asking..
Every time when i ask, you all seem to get fed up with me..

Is it what i done or anything that i do annoy you all?

When you all are together, i seem to be the one left behind..
I seem to be the outcast..

I know you all always say that i'm always blurr..
That's not what i want...
I've been like that since small..
My understanding is not good and i'm not a fast learner...
This cannot be the reason why i'm unable to join your circle..

26th June 2009

Having Teacher's Day for Pre-U school only at TARC! This is the first time they held this event. All the class rep have to take part in choir!! Saw Rachel, Kian Fatt, Jee Vern and definitely my class rep singing. Woo Woo~~ They sang without music so is really awesome that they're able to get the tone right lol. Btw they sang 'you raise me up'.

Having such incredible performances. I like the modelling a lot. So MANY LENG ZAI & LENG LUI~~ So tall, so pretty hahaha.... Everyone busy taking photos of them when they do their cat walk and posting. Pity Shaun, don't have chance to see them hohoho..

After Teacher's Day, go to 1U with yap, eu wing, ai ling, mei yin and xin yee. At first we want to go and watch Transfomer 2, but some of them didn't watch part 1 so we decide to go for karaoke. Well, i also really want to watch that show. Most of my classmates went to watch on that since we end our class at 11am. Anyway, singing will also be nice for me cause this will be my first time entering a karaoke. We go to Neway.

I admit that i really like a person who just came out from jungle lol. Keep on amazed by everything they had in Neway haha... The structure is beautiful la.. After got our room, we dashed inside and our first song will be 'heart beat' sang by Lee Hom. The room is so cooling, a dark place, very suitable for people to sleep hehe.. At first i don't sing cause i scare that i will forget how the tone looks like, but later on don't care d, pay for the price but don't sing is such a waste.

What i amazed most is what eu wing did in the room!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG!!!! He chose a song i think is nobody or whatever sang by Wonder Girls. He follow their dance, sang and dance at the same time and is exactly the same!!!!! Everyone keep laughing and were surprise by him especially yap! Imagine a guy dance a girl's move. So we just keep looking at him dancing and compare his dance with the MV. Eu Wing, you rocks la!!!!

After singing for 4 hrs!! i bet everyone1s throat is uncomfortable lol. Then, we head back after singing. That's really a great experience. For 18 years i did not go for karaoke and my chance finally arrive. Even though is just singing but i had a lot of fun. Thanks you all guys, next time let's go again k?? hehe

23th June 2009 (Tuesday)

After came back from Tarc, there's a desire in me that I want to complete watching my animation. I'm already in the exciting episodes, so don't watch will die.. But only if I know what will happen to me next, I wouldn't go and finish watching it.

I was fond in watching Tsubasa Chronicles after having a glance at one of the scene. So, I've been hunting the animation for so long. I can't wait the show to buff, so i find friends who have the disc. Lucky!! I found one and he burnt it for me. 3 seasons and a movie. I was so happy. I only completed watching it this year cause I'm busy with school stuffs and other things.

Finally, I'm at season 2 the last episode!! At the end, they did not manage to retrieve all the feathers for Sakura. So, the desire to continue watching grew even bigger and I decided to watch season 3. I think is season 3 but according to the web it said it is ova so i don't really know what's that and the difference between the normal ones.

Now, the suspens begins.. All thanks to my bro, i don't undersand the show anymore. He keep asking me question on why this and that lol. Who ask him didn't watch now make me confused also. I'm already confused in the beginning coz i feel that season 2 and season 3 does not have any connection at all, or maybe the sequence i watch is not correct. But i'm pretty sure that i watched it correctly. A good Syaoran suddenly turns out to be bad is only a clone!! How can I accept this?

Till the end, i don't get it so i decided to read it on wikipedia. It became more confusing then. Frm there, i got to know that the Sakura that i know is also a clone! ohhh!! i was like what the hell~~~!! Then, where's the original Sakura?? So damn confusing.... I only know that the original Syaoran is being kidnapped by the bad guy called Fei Wong Reed and placed in a container filled with water. But all a long i thought that's the bad guy. Then, saying that Sakura and Syaoran is related to this and that especially the animation of Card Capture Sakura. I'm going dead if this continues.. I understand some of the background of the clone Syaoran but i'm not ok with the time. Is like a lot of flash back and i didn't realise it sob sob....

I love this animation so much but i didn't realise that it's full of confusion. I can read the manga online but 1st i have no time, second ir order for me to avoid confusion i have to read from A to Z and there's 200+ eps but don't know how many volumes. Plus, is not complete yet.. Argh!!!!! This animation is really driving me crazy, I love the songs in the show, the character, the action, etc.

I don't care now!! I'll find a way to understand it if not i wont be at peace lol~~

So long didn't update blog already~~
Been busy this few days or maybe lazy to update XD..
Let's talk about my day in Malacca

I'm back to hometown on 11th June, Thursday, cause the next day will be holding grandma's 80th birthday woo woo~~ Since, I'm her grand daughter, then I have to follow my tradition. I'm a peranakan which means, a nyonya lol.. According to what i know, the chinese people long long time ago married the local people, which is malay. So this means that, I'm a mix hahaha, but maybe a unique one that i can eat pork hohohoho...

Ok.. Enough for my background. Erm... On Thursday night, helped aunty and some other people to prepare a mini basket full of flowers called 'bunga rempai'. I think this is what they called la... On top of the flowers, place a 20cent. Let me introduce how they prepare the flower.. I think they have 'pandan' leaves and I don't know what flowerss, just that i know is a lot of flowers mix together. They blend the 'pandan' leaves so that it'll become small in size and then miz with those flowers that had also been blend (i think la). After that, mixing it with perfume and we 'stir' it, just like baking lol.. Then, we place the bunga rempai inside a basket. My family said that, this is what they gave to people as a souvenier just like for Malay's wedding, they gave a bunga telur, but for peranakan, we gave bunga rempai.


The next day is the big day.. My sis and I have to set our hairs, it was around 2pm that time. (So early la). Mom said that since both of us are the receptionist, we have to be there early haiz... After setting our hair, went back to hotel and bath. No time already but I still taking my sweet~ time watching tv hahaha... At last of course get scolded la.. After bath, i put on my baju kebaya, sarung, kerongsang and beaded shoe. Kerongsang is the so called brooches. According to our custom, we have no buttons but using kerongsang as the buttons. After that, definitely have to make up lo... This is how i looked like after every preparation.


After reaching there, have to start work. So so messy at the 1st place, i have no idea who they are ma.. Keep going like that until 8pm then the ceremony begins. My family walked inside while my sis and I hid behind a pillar while holding a bouquet of flower to give grandma. I love that flower a lot~~ I hope i'll get one soon haha.. After giving grandma, we join them and walk to our table.

Blah blah blah.. All the speeches and singing and finally come to the cake cutting. All of us go in front and of course to sing a birthday song after that, cut the cake and we have toast, it is sparkling juice, wahhhh i love it.. After that there's the peranakan dance, they called it joget lol. I was force to dance?? But trust me, I won't. Just swigging hands with my cousin hahahaha. We make a circle and everyone hold hands and swing lol, who cares la.. Other guests, who are also my relatives join in and dance. I was speechless that time, cause i don't know how to dancer that. A modern girl like me only dance hip hop la. But I admire everyone. After that we headed back to our table and enjoy our meal. Dance floor was open right after that too.. Many aunties and uncles go and dance. There're cha cha, line dance and etc (Actually i forget the names ald).

My cousin, the cutest one also join in the big people to dance. Honestly, i don't know what dance is he dancing, perhaps his stlye lol. I only know he keep on shake his head all the while, damn funny leh.... A lot of dances but we the small ones only eat hahahahahaha.. That day really full lol..

The ceremony than end around 10 or 11pm and everyone headed back home, but we had a photo shooting before we go back. It was really fun that time and is my first time wearing kebaya and everything for so long..

My cousin

Today is Ming Ling's birthday!!!
Happy birthday Ming Ling~~~
The inda's family have a dinner at DAORAE!!
This will be my first time there..
Emily and Shaun said that is nice to eat there and they would like to go there for the second chance!!
Is that really that nice?? So now is my chance to try it out myself...

After reaching there, we head towards a room...
Mei Yin said she reserve a room already.. wahhh~ is getting exciting...
When i entered is was like... damn this place is awesome....
There's a lot of DBSK posters, and the poster is H.U.G.E!!!!
Well mostly is in horizontal la....
I sat down there and look at their cutlery....
Very beautiful.... haha looks like i never been to a korean restaurant before..
By the way, we have to bare our foot in that room.....

After some discussion, Yin Lin make the order hohoho...
She's quite expert in korean stuffs...
Dishes up!!!!!!!!!!!
They served us a hot soup first....
The soup is delicious and then came the meats and other side dishes...
Most of them is red in colour, i think is spicy so i dare not eat ><
The meat is tre-men-dous!!!!!!!!! Sweet and the tenderness is just nice...

Around 9.15pm, Ming Ling have to go already so we sang birthday song in two language to her..
First is in korean, then english..
But Hong Yi, Mei Yin and Ai Ling also give present to her and the others also get too...
I got my birthday present and a souvenier from Hong Yi also... That girl went to London ma....
How fortunate of her....
I got a purse for my birthday present and an Eiffel Tower plus key chain for my souvenier lol

Purse from lovely lace~~

The souvenir.. It is actually an alcohol.. Do you see an XO there??

I really like both of that gifts....
While the others also seems happy with their gift. Shaun got a MU shoe's bag, Hey King got a cap, Ah Boon got a Chalsea bag and Wen Ee got a Harry Potter tingy, i don't know what is that actually... I think is their favourite stuffs, am i right??

After the 'gifts ceremony' everyone is ready to go back..
Aww i hate this part again...
I just hope i have the power to slows down time so that we can spend more time together...
But i know i can't be selfish, some where in the world, there might be people who wants time to fly so that unfortunate events can pass by quickly...
Anyway... just hope we are able to meet again..

I really love all of them....
My fond towards them is getting bigger and bigger.....
I hope this will be an endless friendship..............

Haiz... When mention about this i also very sam tong..
I have a friend, who is quite stubborn...
Ask that fella don't do this again but still don't want to listen..
Knowing that is not gd but still don't want to listen..
Thought that fella can manage to let go already but who knows been caught by me few days ago..
Begging like hell for forgiveness..
So pity that fella and give another chance..
Haiz............ Who knows been caught again yesterday lol....
I don't know what to do already..
I understand that fella don't want one but too stubborn lo and can't control lol..
I know that fellow didn't mean it but haiz....
Now that fella feel hopeless cause knowing that i won't forgive again..

Do you think i should give my friend another chance? I sked things will repeat again. This is not the first time nor second times, is many many times already... I can't tell you what thing cause this is the promise i had with my friend. Can help me?? Just leave some comment whether should give another chance or not

Parents went to Pahang to see elepahant with my sis n bro n other relatives... So left me and my bro alone at home~~ The first thing when my bro wake up is enter my room and wake me up to play maple with him =.= vry swt lo..... I don't care him, continue my sleep wahahaha.... But at last also have to wake la.. so late already still sleep meh... Today play maple so sien haiz... Then, my bro said he want to help me lv up hooray~~~ Lv up till so excited also 4get about lunch time haha... Who knows after finish eating, want to continue that time only realise server roll back T-T No choice, bro have to help again... Help till he sien leh then ask me go kill zakum with him lol....
Change to lap top cause lap top got HACK so monsters only hit me 1 damage XD LOL!!! Didn't know it till today.... Reach the entrance already... So excited!!! But................ CANNOT ENTER!!!!!!!! Lv not high enough sobbbbbbbb Ok lo.... follow my bro go and kill goby, a fish that follows you wherever you go.. Go there earn money ma $$ hehehe.... Earn.. earn.. earn...... SUDDENLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! A notice appear right in front of my eye, there written:
Your ID have been caught by PoliceGM for HACK REASON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
what the........................................... Then try login.............................
Your account has been blocked for using illegal programes or violating the game policy. The ID has been permanently blocked. So you won't be able to use this account again...


NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sobbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbb~~~~ Haiz..... I think Wen Ee will be happy for that.... I lazy to create a new one la......... Nvm la... play again lo.............. That character also very weak de la.... This is what we call 自我安慰 lol~~