I don't know what's my present for

I really don't know what role do i play in front of them..
I really don't know what do you all think about me..
I also don't know whether is my presence annoy u all..

I don't seem to be able to join you all..
I don't seem to be able to understand you all..
I don't seem to know anything that you all know..

What's the reason for this??

Every time when i ask, you all just say nothing...
Every time when i ask, you all as though didn't hear what i'm asking..
Every time when i ask, you all seem to get fed up with me..

Is it what i done or anything that i do annoy you all?

When you all are together, i seem to be the one left behind..
I seem to be the outcast..

I know you all always say that i'm always blurr..
That's not what i want...
I've been like that since small..
My understanding is not good and i'm not a fast learner...
This cannot be the reason why i'm unable to join your circle..