I think it's been quite some time since I last blog. So let's come back to where I suppose to be.

Life still have to move on no matter what happened in the past. So I started my preparatory course for Pharmacy in May and just ended last Friday. It's awesome to get to know each of them and of course together with all the lovely lecturers. I still need to go uni now for Malaysian and Moral studies, which I can use one word to describe it - BORED

Anyway, I manage to get along with my classmates and it's really fun.

While in FW, there's always new people. I got to meet some new friends and they're nice to me, I suppose. I'm happy to get to know them, but some of them are freaking me out so I try my best to not keep contact with them. Sorry to say, but I'm still a girl who fantasize in cyber world. That's who I am =) *peace*

Have you ever imagine that sometimes your life will be full of surprises?

A friend of mine keep asking me to believe what he said but I refuse and keep saying it's impossible. It never came into my mind that it turns out to be possible. Now everything is like OMG?

Anyway, I'm happy with that surprise. Nothing much to comment, my heart just feel content with it. I believe it's only up to this extend, no more than it. I don't want to see a good thing turns out to be bad so I'll try to maintain that surprise at that stage. But I'm thankful to the person who gave me this surprise, I will appreciate it.

LOL =)

What can I say about this trip? Hmm..
Awesome! Splendid! Wonderful... I just can't put any words to describe it because it's really great.

10 of us went for this trip - me, Ai Ling, Mei Yin, Ming Ling and her boy, Ken, Wen Ee, Xin Yee, Hey King, Ah Boon and Weng Hong.

We had a great time together at there. We stayed at d' Amour, one of the villa at A Famosa. The villa is not that grand but it's nice and most important thing it can accommodate all of us. There's enough space for us to walk up and down, and we got our own swimming pool!!! The water is clean but we don't have the chance to use it, so that's too bad.

So apparently, we went to the water park once we checked in. It's been so long since I last went to a water park with them. It's really a unforgettable moments at there. We tried all rides, some are bored and some are challenging, especially the one we need to go 90 degrees down xD. The worst part is, we need to climb a lot of stairs to reach to the top and many of us was injured. But what can I say? It's just worth it!

Ok dinner time! That will be our steamboat! Well, we kinda break the rules at there xD but we didn't know and brought all the ingredients for it, so we just have to continue our plan.

I didn't know how much they bought until we arranged it. It's like WOW! and was wondering can we ever finish all of it. They guys said they can finish it but I doubt that. There's simply too many meatballs and I think all of us was sick of it already. Anyway, we managed to finish those meatballs, some squid and vege by playing games and punishment for it is to EAT.

The next day, we went up to Malacca and I bring them around town area. Though my hometown is at there but I didn't help much. I also lost my way there ><. Everyone was so tired due to the hot sun and I can feel that I was having a migraine. No choice but to bear it until the end of the day.

Many things happen during this trip and I'm very happy with it. I really enjoyed and relaxed this time until I forgot that I have homework to do. Well, people always say enjoy to the max, so I think this is what I should do and just leave any works aside.

It was already almost to midnight when I reached. After unpacked everything and take a bath, I just dozed off. Too tired and that migraine is making me sick, luckily I got my Panadols with me .

I really hope we can make another trip again! =)

Oh yeah~ Finally got the chance to watch movie today. It has been so long since I l last watch a movie in cinema.

Tada... Watching X-Men: First Class..

I love the way Prof. Xavier handle things and of course how he court the girls. I couldn't imagine an old bald like him was so popular when he was young. Anyway, it's just a marvel story.

Ok! One Utama, having road show for Transformers~

Saw all those cars and one word for them - AWESOME!!!!!!!

I hope car like this. It's very comfortable inside and I just hope to stay in there. But, we know that's impossible.

Not only cars but there're also motorbikes, and it's also very cool.

Bumble Bee~ <3

This bike is seriously cool~ feel like sitting on it but can't =(

Remember the olden times, people use this bike?? hmm..

This is too big for me xD

Yeah~ A lot of mini Bumble Bees~

A full collection of transformers.. Wow!

Oh yes! This is best~!

So that's all for the road show. By the way, I'm so fortunate enough to meet Ai Ling and the rest. It's so coincidence that they went there too. AND! They gave me a sweet pink bag~ Really thanks them a lot!!! Love them always muackss

I couldn't imagine my lie would turn into such a chaos right now.

Why does this keep happening??

Kat, I don't know what else to say after listening to everything you said. I believe no matter how hard I try now to get back or explain to you, you won't give me a chance right? So for not further hurting you, which you think I am, I'll just step back for a while until you cooled down. I don't want to trigger your emotion again. But my heart bleeds badly for what you've said, even now I can still feel the pain keep pierching into my heart.

Sometimes it gave me hard time to be myself. Both of you guys are my friend and obviously I want both of you guys to be together. For me, once a promise, always a promise. I said I'll go with you so just trust me, it's just the matter of time that you might need to wait and I'm truly sorry for letting you wait that long. I'm not trying to be quiet when you question me, I just need to think of a suitable way to reject Eric's offer. You know my character. I don't know how to be someone like you who can always tell a person straightly. All I want is to settle things peacefully. But I didn't imagine peace leads to destruction. I admire the way you handle things all the time, where you can always stood up and defend yourself, which I failed to do so.

I don't mind for everything you said nor I'll get mad. I take what you said to me and asked myself. I know people will speak out their thoughts, no matter good or bad when one is angry so I understand that and accepted what you said to me as a complement. Sincerely, thanks for telling me that I made other party thinks like that. But, honestly I don't have any intention at all.

You may think that I'm faking myself to be the good one to attain people's concern. It's up to you, if you want to think like that. From the bottom of my heart, all I can say is that, I like you, I really like you, Kat.

Hmm..

I was just wondering what will happen to a person, if he or she knows the true colours of his or her ex after they broke off?

Will they be surprise or will they get upset?

I so happen to know what was going on last year and I was absolutely surprise.

I somehow couldn't imagine it.

I'm indeed mad at first but later on after some extra details, I managed to cool myself down.

I just want to remain his good image in me, though after I realise how he behave.

I believe everyone has their own flaws, it's just the matter of fact that how many each person has.

People can say that I've been fooled or played by him, but I believe those who said do not know him well as compared to me. Maybe not too much, but a little will do.

I know his feelings for me is genuine that time, it's just that it didn't last long.

Well, the most important thing now is that it's over now.

The past will always remains as the past, hopefully there's no Deja Vu.

I believe by now, even though on and off I will get to know some of his news, some comments from friends about him, it maybe good and maybe be bad, and etc.

But, no matter what happen it's impossible for me to change my perception on him.

Because at that, I know my feelings are definite and real =)

有时候回想过去也蛮好的。

今天就自然而然的去他的profile看看他的消息。

心情自然而然也会跑到以前的我，不过至少现在的我能控制自己了。

他星期四post了这个上去，

“真希望把不愉快的事情都忘掉，真希望醒来之后什么都不记得，真希望我的生活可以过的比较精彩，真希望有人可以陪伴我，不再让我觉得原来这是黑暗”

没想到他也会有这样的想法。。

我没发任何评论，应该是觉得自己没那个资格了吧，也不想再烦他了。

不过，我的确是有话很想说。。

只想说。。

他其实并不是个很坏的男生，只是他还不懂得怎样去得人家的心。

他还不懂得怎样去好好珍惜一个女孩。

不是人家不要陪他，是他愿不愿意让那个人陪他。

我是可以陪他，可是他的所作所为让我觉得他一点都不在乎我。

他选择了离开，那我也没办法。

不管我花多少心思去想他，想尽办法挽留他，他永远都不会回来。

所以呢，不是人家不想陪，而是看他要不要那个人陪。

希望，他能想开点，成熟点。

现在，我们虽然比陌生人还尴尬，不过，我是不是都会关心一下他，祝福他有个好未来。

我不会为了他的所作所为而恨他，因为我从来都不懂怎样去憎恨一个人。

只是同情他这个人罢了。

不管怎样，过去就是过去了。

虽然还有一点点思念，不过那些思念只能收藏在心里。

思念里，只有我们开心的回忆，不开心的我也自然而然的把它给忘了。

我相信这样的话，他在我心目中的影响永远都是好的。