I couldn't imagine my lie would turn into such a chaos right now.
Why does this keep happening??
Kat, I don't know what else to say after listening to everything you said. I believe no matter how hard I try now to get back or explain to you, you won't give me a chance right? So for not further hurting you, which you think I am, I'll just step back for a while until you cooled down. I don't want to trigger your emotion again. But my heart bleeds badly for what you've said, even now I can still feel the pain keep pierching into my heart.
Sometimes it gave me hard time to be myself. Both of you guys are my friend and obviously I want both of you guys to be together. For me, once a promise, always a promise. I said I'll go with you so just trust me, it's just the matter of time that you might need to wait and I'm truly sorry for letting you wait that long. I'm not trying to be quiet when you question me, I just need to think of a suitable way to reject Eric's offer. You know my character. I don't know how to be someone like you who can always tell a person straightly. All I want is to settle things peacefully. But I didn't imagine peace leads to destruction. I admire the way you handle things all the time, where you can always stood up and defend yourself, which I failed to do so.
I don't mind for everything you said nor I'll get mad. I take what you said to me and asked myself. I know people will speak out their thoughts, no matter good or bad when one is angry so I understand that and accepted what you said to me as a complement. Sincerely, thanks for telling me that I made other party thinks like that. But, honestly I don't have any intention at all.
You may think that I'm faking myself to be the good one to attain people's concern. It's up to you, if you want to think like that. From the bottom of my heart, all I can say is that, I like you, I really like you, Kat.
