At last!! Mid course is over~
Here comes the AS exam *aiks*

Last day of test - Chemistry~~
I only know I kept answering the question non-stop
First time I can complete almost all of the question
BUT..
Able to complete and get the correct answer is a different matter, anyway who cares??
All I know is I've tried my best and that's all I can say

After exam definitely go and play. With my character and behaviour, I will not take any books, out it in my hand, open it and start reading lol~
The only thing that came in my mind after Chemistry test is - pasar malam and K time lol~~

It's really a fun day with everyone~
Got to stay at Elly's house is also nice. Sister staying together haha..

Anyway, I think after this i have work on my studies

Well I'm partially came back from where I supposed to be hehe..
Having exam so can't blame for not going online~
Anyway.. don't mention anything about exam now~ I don't even have the mood to talk about it arghh~

So first of all I would like to welcome back myself to my own world where I can write anything I like in here, anything that I want to say in here and any complaints that I want to complain.

Got back to my facebook..
Don't know what's wrong with it, it seems that all my notifications from 40 suddenly turns to 8 even though i didn't even have a look at them. Well never mind~ Visit my 6E's group, a group created for all primary friends to gather.

I think after entering that page, seriously become a bit emo d haha~
They didn't did anything wrong or what, just my own low self esteem~
They wanted to have a gathering and I keep wondering whether to go or not lol~

It's not easy to say go means go for me.
I don't mind any other gathering but this I seriously don't know~
I had a nightmare during primary and I really never wanted to go back to that moment.
I was the class's joker, got teased by them and my class teacher even teased me one year~

OK! not to say I'm a sensitive person or what it's just that the feelings doesn't feel that nice~
Looking at how my friends or even my best buddies, they changed.
Yea~ they indeed changed a lot and I understand that people do change.
I don't mind how they look, whether they're a nerd or not i don't mind it's just their behaviour~
I hardly believe that one of my best buddy came into there and post f*** 6E
So swt man~

I practically don't like people to speak bad words when it is not necessary~
I don't know why, this is just my character and I guess that's why I get bullied easily~
I don't think i gave my ex classmates a good impression~
So.. I don't know~
Even after i joined that group, don't seem that most of my comments were replied~
I'm just like an outcast at there~
Sometimes i really wondered why am i so stupid to care for people who don't even care about me?
I think that what makes me for who I am now~

A girl who only know how to care and think about others before herself. Sometimes living as this kind of person is really tiring, but what to do??
Cause that's me~
And I love the imperfect me~

I don't know what hurts you
But I can feel it too
And it's just hurts so much
To know that I can't do a thing
And deep down in my heart
Somehow I just know
That no matter what
I'll always love you.

Just love these sentences~
I extract it from a lyrics, though I don't know who sang it or is the lyric really (some people might just write it)
It's a instrumental song
The best instrumental song I ever found, composed by Yiruma
This lyric is found in the song 'Kiss the rain'*
This song make me feels like learning back piano
I regret for giving up lol

*the song playing in my blog

Well.. I think some people know what I had done to my dad's lap top from my facebook wall post..
Yea~ I screwed my dad's lap top by downloading and installing an unknown software which claimed itself to be security antivirus~
This software looks similar to the PC live guard - the logo. However, it's actually a scam which I, Nicole Tan get coned by it lol
This software will pop up in a window saying that there are many threats detected, more than 10 and it's harmful to your computer. So in order to remove it, the software will ask you to download it which in turn required you to BUY the antivirus ==

Since, I'm a novice in computer, I stupid stupid go and listen to those rubbish and download it. But, I'm still smart enough of not to go and buy it~ ^^
I scanned the laptop but it shows no threats found and there's nothing wrong. According to the unknown software (actually called rogue antivirus), my firewall is disabled, I can't update blah blah blah.. and everything I have to do is to buy that thing =="""

Well.. I'm indeed panicking but later I just don't care it lol~~
Who knows, I scolded by my bro and mom, but my dad is actually fine with it ^^
My mom scold me for only know how to play computer which I actually got study just that using computer to ease my boredness, and my bro anger is totally understood lol~
So guys!! don't follow the footsteps I took..
My bro spent for 2 days just to fix that thing and I think it's ok right now lol~

Preparing to download the programe

This one tell you the threats in your computer, but it's fake

Everything being disabled lol~

Another fake thingy

Fake~

This is spamboat, saying that virus being sent to your email

So... don't do what I had done~
If you feel like playing it, go ahead =D

*sry, picture quite blur*

CNY is ending~~!!
When CNY is ending, this means that mid course is coming and then AS!!!
This is all what I can say now~!!
*sob sob*
Scare~

Anyway, let's continue to what I left out last time~
Hmm.. on Friday (the day after coming back from Ipoh) went visiting~
Well.. that day really can spare all my loneliness and boredness~
Gamble, gamble, gamble~
I won a bit that day hahaha~~ but it's enough
We should not be greedy lol~~
Anyway, that day went on quite well lol~

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Went to MUET class yesterday and guess what..

I left my paper bag at there ==

So...

I left my lad coat and my tupperware ==

Went back to that room, but it's lock already *doom*

Tell teacher about this, and she say she'll help me the next day

*it's very late already that time*

Today, ask teacher about it..

There's no sign of it ==

I feel that I'm finished

Having Chemistry practical on Monday

No lab coat = no nid to enter

Looks like I have to borrow it from someone

I must get back my stuffs~

The tupperware.....

I took it without my mom's permission ==

I must get it back no matter what it takes~~

This year is a remarkable year..
Why??
Because.. Chinese New Year and Valentine’s Day fall on the same day
Which is…..
14^th of February~

I had a wonderful Chinese New Year at Malacca..
There are plenty of foods there and the only thing you can do is to stuff yourself with foods~
Being in a Baba family, I think that’s what they usually do – serving people with lots of foods.
I went back to KL on the third day of Chinese New Year
Then, I went to Perak to visit my relatives in Pusing and Ipoh to visit Virgil..

There’s something weird in me that, I love to go Ipoh so much and I don’t know why.
But, every time I go there, I’ll start to be emo lol~
It’s so weird that I really don’t know how to explain it.
This is not the first time I had this feeling
Even last year, I went there with my friends I also had this feeling

It’s a lonely feeling.
It’s like, there’s something that I had to accomplish but I don’t know what it is
I can feel that my heart is empty and I don’t know what to do.
I just want someone to be with me that time, but I don’t know who
I’m just missing someone but I don’t know who.
It’s hard to explain even to myself
It’s simply complicated~

Even now, I still have this feeling with me.
I think all I need now are my friends.
I need them to fill me up and get rid of this feeling

I asked me sister to accompany me tomorrow at home but she resist.
She wants to follow mom to mom’s friend’s house to get ang pau ==
I immediately feel empty and really want to cry.

Now, by posting this, I hope I can at least recover a bit.
I seriously don’t know what to do now
If you asked me not to go Ipoh anymore, then it’ll kill me
Because I got attracted to that place so much now
And..
The weird thing is..
I don’t know when I start to like that place so much

Yea~~
Today went shopping with Mei Yin and Ai Ling at Midvalley..
Well... I think I'm the only who goes shopping because both of them didn't buy anything..
Window shopping I guess =]

I'm so grateful there're willing to spend their 4 1/2 hours time with me just to help me find a pair of slippers~
Too bad not many slippers are not suitable for me~~
I can see that they're tired and getting bored =(
Sorry ya my darlings~

However, they're really kind and helpful
haha~
So finally, I bought one
Quite like it but my mom don't =(
She said it's childish~
sob sob

I don't think it would be a problem wearing that to college
and...
it won't give me problem when I drive
because the slippers is not flat
so.. I can't call it slipper..
Whatever then.. It's just a thing that you wears on your foot =D


I would also like to wish everyone

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR~~~!!!

This year is the Tiger year~~
So...
Hope everyone is healthy and may lucks stay by your side every time~

p/s: I still got loads of homework to so this CNY T_T