Dear blog,

    I wanted to phone Joanne yesterday after reading her Facebook status, but I couldn’t. I understand how she felt because I’m also having the same problems. So I'm worried that I wasn’t able to calm her down and explain things to her.

   I always face the same thing as Joanne when i have to part with my friends, especially bestie. I didn’t told anyone before what happen when one of my friend is going to study at Australia. On that day, I couldn’t watch her enter the plane because I’m having Chemistry test. So i decided to phone her and just bid goodbye. Who knows, the moment I heard her voice and she said ‘hello’, my voice start to tremble. I want to show her that I’m tough enough to deal with it but I was wrong. I almost cried that time. Luckily she hang up the phone first before me. She got to enter the plane so we have to end our conversation there.

   The next thing is when my friends were about to go for NS. I seriously don’t know what is wrong with me that time. We had a gathering. At the end of the day, I was speechless. I didn’t speak nor laugh but just listen to what they say. I think this is the so call emo-ing. My friend send me back that day. On my way back, I broke into tears. I remember that everyone was terrified by my action. It’s quite funny when i think back. The only thing I told them is that I hate separation.

    From everything I’ve been through, I can know that I’m still not strong enough. Not strong enough to protect myself, so how can I protect others, I wonder. It seems to me that I’m still naive. I just dislike accepting or facing the reality. Everyone always say that friends will always deceive each other at the end. I really want to prove them wrong, because I believe that I always have a wonderful friends around me.

    Now, another friend, Jasmine might be leaving. She’s a good friend to Joanne. Even though I don’t know her well, but I was a bit sad too when I heard this news. She’s like a mom to me. The way she speak, her action, somehow make me feel so secure. Though she like to tease me by saying that she’s not a pure Malaysian, where her mom is a Philippine, or something. She’s a nice girl. I dislike her at first because I feel that she’s fierce. After knowing her, I know that she’s not like what I’ve been thinking of.

    So Joanne, I know why you will be sad. But the only thing I can say is that, we must be happy for her. She have decided her future, and she’s aiming towards her dreams. There’s no point holding her back. She maybe will be sad and unable to move on if she knows how you feel. I believe that you can be tougher than me. Yes, I know you have been with her all the time, long enough as though both of you are like sisters. So, I hope you can show her that you can still move on. Sometimes we really can’t depend on somebody else too long, as this will cause a bad habit to us. So now, here’s your chance, prove to her that you can also succeed just like her. Not to say is in academic, but in life. Don’t say that is impossible. There’re still many possibilities outside and you still have a long way to go. Pray deep in heart for Jasmine’s success. I believe this is what she’s hoping for now.

    At the mean time, if you need someone else to talk to, you’re always welcome to talk to anybody you like to. I believe we will always be there for you, my dear.

   I also think that I must be strong. So Jenny, by the time you come back from Australia, I want to show you that I’m becoming stronger and stronger =D. I will always know that our bond is unbreakable, though we quarrel, we laugh and we cried together for almost 8 years now, but just to say, thanks for everything.

Love you always.