I'll just keep this tiny feelings of mine deep inside my heart until the day I'm ready to tell him what I want to.

What's done is done, what's gone is gone. One of life's lessons is always moving on. Getting over a first love, dealing with heartbreak, dealing with death and dealing with life. It's ok to look back and think of fond memories, but keep moving forward and you will live your life happily.

Read our conversation content from yesterday and realise I've been acting badly. I'm just too sensitive. Funny, I don't use to be like that, I wonder what changed me. Maybe the past. After every unpleasant incidents that happened on me, I can feel that I'm no longer the one I used to be.

I've become a very sensitive person, even to my good friend who love to joke.

I'm just feeling guilty for behaving like that. Though we apologise to each other but the feeling of guilt in me can hardly fade. I'm so scared to face him right now when uni reopens. Sigh.... What should I do?

You forgive me for liking you too much,

And I'll forgive you for not liking me enough.

You forgive me for missing you so,

And I'll forgive you for being so cold.

You forgive me for the loud racing of my heart,

And I'll forgive you for not hearing it. 

You forgive me for playing your games,

And I'll forgive you for toying with my emotions.

You forgive me for finding you so attractive,

And I'll forgive you for not noticing.

You forgive me for raising you up so high,

And I'll forgive you for bringing me down so low.

You forgive me for wanting to be with you,

And I'll forgive you for avoiding me.

You forgive me for being so pathetic,

And I'll forgive you for taking advantage of it.

You forgive me for having hopes and dreams,

And I'll forgive you for crushing them.

Forgiveness brings inner peace.

Do we have a deal?

He doesn't know it..

I can't tell him but......... Just now I think I almost said it out or have he already found out?

It's sad that he prefer calling me that but what can I do? I'm nothing to him. It just aches inside.... Never mind, I'll bear this pain again once more.

Heart sank................

I can never replace that girl..

Never mind, I've been thinking too much all the while. Let's just let my brain rest for the moment. In 2 weeks time I promise myself to stay some distance from him. Need to control myself.... 2 weeks time for me to adapt.

Yea.... I'm just only your friend.