Sigh.. I shouldn't have apply for a job as pharmacist right now. I couldn't see what's coming through when I went and ask for my application again. Now I'm kinda regret. I really feel like quitting the job but I know mom won't allow me to. She keep saying, she's going to retired, income not enough, this and that. But sometimes, frankly speaking, she don't know what situation I'm in. Maybe to her, I don't understand her situation as well.

Sigh.. I really don't know what should I do. I have lots of things to settle before I can really rest myself. Now, I'm like killing my brain cells everyday. Test is just around the corner, I have lots of reports to do and submit before deadline, I need to plan for Christmas event which is also just around the corner, where things don't seem to be ready and I need to work (only on Saturday for the time being). Just because mom ask me to work, so I have to go and now I ends up like this. Today, Lourene helped me to text my manager or supervisor, saying that I'm not available until 18 December. I do hope she allows that though I just work for a day. That's when everything's settled down and I finally have nothing on my mind except work. I really really hope she can understands my situation. Now, I'm just waiting for her reply, as I don't feel like working this Saturday. Maybe, after CNY I would quit that job as final exam is coming and I actually dislike my working place. I couldn't believe myself that I fall sick right after I got home from work.

Worst come to worst would be, she'll just 'fire' me. Well, I don't mind actually and it's ok for me if I don't get my pay for last Saturday. No point working so hard in a place that you don't really like right? Funny thing is, why am I so determine to work in the first place. I think because the person that I submit my application to said I can work for like maybe 6 hours. I'm really fine with that but honestly not 8 hours. I can do lots of things with that 2 hours.

Well, just pray she'll reply me tomorrow and agree with me. I feel bad when I tell her like that. It's like I'm not being serious in this job. Too bad is what I can say for choosing the wrong timing and act without thinking.

希望这一切都是错觉......
不想再有烦恼了！加油！

Log in to Mahara, https://portfolio.sunderland.ac.uk/

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The location of your file is where you save it. If the 'Choose File' is not highlighted, then click 'No file chosen' to get the open file box.

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Under 'View Decription', enter your Name, Student ID (can be Segi or Sunderland or both), Title (eg, acid and base 3 or kinetic) and date

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This is how it will look in the end..You will be able to see a submit button at the bottom of your title, which is from this picture it would be 'Lab 9 - Acid and Base -  Tan Pei Ching.

That's all I know about in. You can always edit anything by clicking those edit button. Tell me if I'm doing any mistakes~ we're learning too~
Credits go to Lourene and Jie Rong for asking teacher =)

The nearer you are to me, the more confuse I will be.

That's the only thing I would like to say to you but I don't have the courage. Not because I hate you or I'm mad about you, it's just a thing that I couldn't figure it out.

I like your humour and I like talking to you. The only thing I don't like about you is, don't give me this uneasiness feelings. Maybe I'm the only who's feeling like this but still I dislike it. But, if you're away and that's when I'm feeling lonely.

Ok! This is a total mess up of feelings I have now. It's not that I have any interest in you nor I would, someday. It's just that I simply like your presence. Maybe, I shall tell myself, hey girl! chill and don't think so much.

Yea, maybe I'm thinking too much right now. But, if you're still going to make one step closer, then I will move one step behind. I know I will miss your presence but that's the only way I can do.

So many things did happen recently. I don't know how and where to start from. All i know is that, I can feel the bond between us (classmates) are getting stronger each day. Maybe it's due to some incidents that some of us starts to fight for our rights. Though we're no match for him, but still WE WILL ALWAYS REMAIN STRONG =)

This incidents really let me realise who is the one to be trusted and who is not. Sad and disappointed to say that you'll never expect someone will back stab you like that one day. Human beings are really scary sometimes as you won't be able to predict their thoughts and movement. Their mood can just change in just a flip of second and I guarantee that most of the time, we will get annoyed. Anyway, it's quite childish to talk with someone who only thinks he's right and still asking us to be considerate on his situation. What about us then?

Gladly I met new friends who are trustworthy so far. I prefer to keep myself low, but if anything were ever happen to my friends, I will not step down but of course I won't act wildly, I still know my circumstances =)

This incident introduce twitter to me. At first I dislike twitter as I find it boring where everyone tweet of what they're doing, which is not my type since I prefer being low profile. But, I missed out so many things and so something just trigger me to create an account and start tweeting like mad. It's really hard to understand at first but later on i realise it's just like replying emails to friends. Nice and funny classmates I have that really brighten up my day all times =)

Too many things keep bothering my mind today.

I lost my calculator~ Sigh… I’ve been thinking for the whole day where did I put it, but I failed. I checked everywhere and yet I still can’t find it. It’s not cheap to buy a new one, cost around 50 bucks just for one.

Can’t even concentrate when Ms. Audrey ask me back the question I’m asking (she’s actually giving hint to me). Don’t know where my mind went to after I realise I lost my calculator. Sad, pathetic. I know I shouldn’t be upset on such small thing but I’ve never lost my calculator and it’s not something that you say means buy. I don’t mind if it’s an eraser or ruler, but not a calculator =(

Then, I got to know I don’t have the notes for tomorrow’s lecture. I thought Sandy and the others will message me but they forgot, which just bother me even more. Now where and how am I going to get the notes for tomorrow’s lecture. Why did they forgot about me? =(

Luckily, Vivian post on group asking if anyone needs the notes. When I sign in to my email, only to realise that Suzanne had mail me the notes around 10pm, and it was almost 12am now. Sigh……. I think I just jump into a conclusion so quickly for today. Even now, I’m still thinking about my calculator. Hope I can find it asap =’(

Finally!!!!!!!
I can just relax a while. I've been really busy lately, studying, revising, going for class.
What can I say for this week? Test just over 2 days ago but still I need to complete all my lab reports. I think there are 3 of them *sigh*. A few days break but can't really enjoy much, don't really feel good. But still I'm glad that I know how to enjoy.

Finally got to watch Real Steel yesterday. Everyone said it was so nice, awesome, cool bla bla bla. Too bad I don't have time last time but now I have! Well, it's really awesome and nice, just like what everyone said. Hmm.. Is it because I'm watching with a group of friends who cheer and scream throughout the whole movie plus with its sound effect, or the movie is way too awesome itself that I feel like I'm watching live?? Maybe both of it xD It's tiring after the movie that I got stuck in a traffic jam for an hour before reaching home.

Today, my first time staying back so late in Segi. I've decided to help Jia Qi in her test so I got to stay back and give her a test. At the same time I can complete my lab report too. Well nice to say doing lab report, but I know I've been talking and singing while doing the work. Best thing is, we actually had dinner in the library! Shh... There's of course this big sign board saying, Strictly No Foods Allowed, but who cares? It's another tiring day but it's nice. If anyone ask me to stay back until this late again, I think I'll need to consider as it's really tiring, no joke!

Well, the best part is, I CAN FINALLY GO GET MY LAP TOP BACK~! Damn, I miss it so much. It have been away from me for 3 weeks? or 2? Hmm.. Anyway, it's long~~~~ Tomorrow! I will go and get it. I do hope it won't give me anymore problems, and hope that computer guy will do what he promised to do for me and the MOST IMPORTANT THING, I won't lost my data! This is extremely important! I did make a backup but still I don't want it to go missing from the orginal place =)

Alright, got to sleep~ Going to get my lap top tomorrow~~~