The nearer you are to me, the more confuse I will be.

That's the only thing I would like to say to you but I don't have the courage. Not because I hate you or I'm mad about you, it's just a thing that I couldn't figure it out.

I like your humour and I like talking to you. The only thing I don't like about you is, don't give me this uneasiness feelings. Maybe I'm the only who's feeling like this but still I dislike it. But, if you're away and that's when I'm feeling lonely.

Ok! This is a total mess up of feelings I have now. It's not that I have any interest in you nor I would, someday. It's just that I simply like your presence. Maybe, I shall tell myself, hey girl! chill and don't think so much.

Yea, maybe I'm thinking too much right now. But, if you're still going to make one step closer, then I will move one step behind. I know I will miss your presence but that's the only way I can do.

So many things did happen recently. I don't know how and where to start from. All i know is that, I can feel the bond between us (classmates) are getting stronger each day. Maybe it's due to some incidents that some of us starts to fight for our rights. Though we're no match for him, but still WE WILL ALWAYS REMAIN STRONG =)

This incidents really let me realise who is the one to be trusted and who is not. Sad and disappointed to say that you'll never expect someone will back stab you like that one day. Human beings are really scary sometimes as you won't be able to predict their thoughts and movement. Their mood can just change in just a flip of second and I guarantee that most of the time, we will get annoyed. Anyway, it's quite childish to talk with someone who only thinks he's right and still asking us to be considerate on his situation. What about us then?

Gladly I met new friends who are trustworthy so far. I prefer to keep myself low, but if anything were ever happen to my friends, I will not step down but of course I won't act wildly, I still know my circumstances =)

This incident introduce twitter to me. At first I dislike twitter as I find it boring where everyone tweet of what they're doing, which is not my type since I prefer being low profile. But, I missed out so many things and so something just trigger me to create an account and start tweeting like mad. It's really hard to understand at first but later on i realise it's just like replying emails to friends. Nice and funny classmates I have that really brighten up my day all times =)

Too many things keep bothering my mind today.

I lost my calculator~ Sigh… I’ve been thinking for the whole day where did I put it, but I failed. I checked everywhere and yet I still can’t find it. It’s not cheap to buy a new one, cost around 50 bucks just for one.

Can’t even concentrate when Ms. Audrey ask me back the question I’m asking (she’s actually giving hint to me). Don’t know where my mind went to after I realise I lost my calculator. Sad, pathetic. I know I shouldn’t be upset on such small thing but I’ve never lost my calculator and it’s not something that you say means buy. I don’t mind if it’s an eraser or ruler, but not a calculator =(

Then, I got to know I don’t have the notes for tomorrow’s lecture. I thought Sandy and the others will message me but they forgot, which just bother me even more. Now where and how am I going to get the notes for tomorrow’s lecture. Why did they forgot about me? =(

Luckily, Vivian post on group asking if anyone needs the notes. When I sign in to my email, only to realise that Suzanne had mail me the notes around 10pm, and it was almost 12am now. Sigh……. I think I just jump into a conclusion so quickly for today. Even now, I’m still thinking about my calculator. Hope I can find it asap =’(

Finally!!!!!!!
I can just relax a while. I've been really busy lately, studying, revising, going for class.
What can I say for this week? Test just over 2 days ago but still I need to complete all my lab reports. I think there are 3 of them *sigh*. A few days break but can't really enjoy much, don't really feel good. But still I'm glad that I know how to enjoy.

Finally got to watch Real Steel yesterday. Everyone said it was so nice, awesome, cool bla bla bla. Too bad I don't have time last time but now I have! Well, it's really awesome and nice, just like what everyone said. Hmm.. Is it because I'm watching with a group of friends who cheer and scream throughout the whole movie plus with its sound effect, or the movie is way too awesome itself that I feel like I'm watching live?? Maybe both of it xD It's tiring after the movie that I got stuck in a traffic jam for an hour before reaching home.

Today, my first time staying back so late in Segi. I've decided to help Jia Qi in her test so I got to stay back and give her a test. At the same time I can complete my lab report too. Well nice to say doing lab report, but I know I've been talking and singing while doing the work. Best thing is, we actually had dinner in the library! Shh... There's of course this big sign board saying, Strictly No Foods Allowed, but who cares? It's another tiring day but it's nice. If anyone ask me to stay back until this late again, I think I'll need to consider as it's really tiring, no joke!

Well, the best part is, I CAN FINALLY GO GET MY LAP TOP BACK~! Damn, I miss it so much. It have been away from me for 3 weeks? or 2? Hmm.. Anyway, it's long~~~~ Tomorrow! I will go and get it. I do hope it won't give me anymore problems, and hope that computer guy will do what he promised to do for me and the MOST IMPORTANT THING, I won't lost my data! This is extremely important! I did make a backup but still I don't want it to go missing from the orginal place =)

Alright, got to sleep~ Going to get my lap top tomorrow~~~

I was so excited when class end today because we decided to go to a costume shop to rent a Santa suit for JD. But, never did I realise I made mistakes due to my carelessness.

Two cars were going there but before that we had lunch at Wong Kok, Sunway Giza. Thank god they have set lunch so it won't be that expensive since everyone is under budget. Here is where I made my first mistake. I accidentally ordered the wrong food for Suzanne. So, at the end she got no choice but to eat it up. It struck me hard when she said it's for sick people to eat such food (it's a meal with rich and soup together in a bowl). But later on she said she's fine with the food. I know it's quite sad when you're unable to eat what you desired. Even though one person may say no worry about that but I know how deeply they don't want to. So I end up treating her since I ordered it wrongly.

It was 1.50 pm that time and their class starts at 2.45 pm. Now we need to somehow rush to the costume shop. Here's where I made my second mistake. Due to rush, I set the GPS wrongly and it lead us to a housing area. All of us made one big circle only I realise we're not heading to our destination. Evan was driving and follow me. I bet he's mad or something. He gave me the feeling that he's a straightforward person, so everything he does is somehow straightforward, even things he say?

 I felt so sorry that I leaded the wrong way. That shop is actually not far from Giza but due to misdirection it ends up being so far and we're running out of time. In the end, we managed to book the suit but the guilt I had is still with me despite whatever they said about Evan for being like that.

I don't really know why but whenever it comes to friends I can't bear to make them upset. Alright, maybe they're not upset but I just did something wrong to them and it will certainly hurt me. It's funny to think like that but this is how I feel all time. It really don't matter to me when it comes to family. I don't know why but maybe I set friendship as my first priority before family though I know I shouldn't. Maybe I'm not matured enough to think that family will always there for me. Is it because the way my family treat me is not what I want and that's why I'm thinking like that? Hmm...

I'm really trying to get over with what happened just now but when people mentioned it, it will automatically reminds you. And now, with my lots of QQ-ing in Facebook, Zac is almost pissed? Sigh.... Am I too stubborn to let things go? What will I be in the future after I become a pharmacist, if my this character continues? Will I be upset with every patient's condition for not treating them well?? I hope I won't.

Sometimes people feel that I'm mad when I don't talk
Sometimes people feel that I'm emotional when I don't talk
Sometimes people assume I'm not around when I don't talk
Worst would be
I gave the people the feeling that I'm being cocky when I don't talk?

Hmm..
Well maybe sometimes I'm not satisfy with something so I refuse to talk.
But most of the time I was just keeping myself low.
I don't like to show myself too much to people. Isn't it better to just keep quiet than to say something you're not sure about?

I prefer helping people in my own way - using the behind door technique
Sometimes people won't even know I'm the one who do them a favour.
Don't really mind if the credit ends up in other people, as long as someone solved their issue, that'll be my main concern.
But, still I'll always try to open my hands to people who are in need and if I'm really capable in helping them.

So guys! I like to keep myself low =)

Busy, hectic life start walking into my life. I'm really not used to it. I just feel like part of me is already gone.

I used to keep playing all the time, from day to night and now I have to study from day to night. Entertainment.. Hmm I need to create or make one for myself. It's sad that I have less online gaming right now.. I miss Elaine, Jay and JS, but sometimes I really don't feel like going back to FW. Reason - I don't know what to do in there???

Now my head is full with those medical terminologies~~~~ Bondings which I'm apparently so blur now @.@ and my anatomy........ I've forgotten many terms *sigh* *sad* *sob*
Daddy said, Nicole, you need to brush up all your human body parts. Such basic things and yet you forgot. TT

I really really do hope I can pass and graduate from this course successfully. But it's kinda scared when thinking about me in the future ><