I was so excited when class end today because we decided to go to a costume shop to rent a Santa suit for JD. But, never did I realise I made mistakes due to my carelessness.

Two cars were going there but before that we had lunch at Wong Kok, Sunway Giza. Thank god they have set lunch so it won't be that expensive since everyone is under budget. Here is where I made my first mistake. I accidentally ordered the wrong food for Suzanne. So, at the end she got no choice but to eat it up. It struck me hard when she said it's for sick people to eat such food (it's a meal with rich and soup together in a bowl). But later on she said she's fine with the food. I know it's quite sad when you're unable to eat what you desired. Even though one person may say no worry about that but I know how deeply they don't want to. So I end up treating her since I ordered it wrongly.

It was 1.50 pm that time and their class starts at 2.45 pm. Now we need to somehow rush to the costume shop. Here's where I made my second mistake. Due to rush, I set the GPS wrongly and it lead us to a housing area. All of us made one big circle only I realise we're not heading to our destination. Evan was driving and follow me. I bet he's mad or something. He gave me the feeling that he's a straightforward person, so everything he does is somehow straightforward, even things he say?

 I felt so sorry that I leaded the wrong way. That shop is actually not far from Giza but due to misdirection it ends up being so far and we're running out of time. In the end, we managed to book the suit but the guilt I had is still with me despite whatever they said about Evan for being like that.

I don't really know why but whenever it comes to friends I can't bear to make them upset. Alright, maybe they're not upset but I just did something wrong to them and it will certainly hurt me. It's funny to think like that but this is how I feel all time. It really don't matter to me when it comes to family. I don't know why but maybe I set friendship as my first priority before family though I know I shouldn't. Maybe I'm not matured enough to think that family will always there for me. Is it because the way my family treat me is not what I want and that's why I'm thinking like that? Hmm...

I'm really trying to get over with what happened just now but when people mentioned it, it will automatically reminds you. And now, with my lots of QQ-ing in Facebook, Zac is almost pissed? Sigh.... Am I too stubborn to let things go? What will I be in the future after I become a pharmacist, if my this character continues? Will I be upset with every patient's condition for not treating them well?? I hope I won't.

Sometimes people feel that I'm mad when I don't talk
Sometimes people feel that I'm emotional when I don't talk
Sometimes people assume I'm not around when I don't talk
Worst would be
I gave the people the feeling that I'm being cocky when I don't talk?

Hmm..
Well maybe sometimes I'm not satisfy with something so I refuse to talk.
But most of the time I was just keeping myself low.
I don't like to show myself too much to people. Isn't it better to just keep quiet than to say something you're not sure about?

I prefer helping people in my own way - using the behind door technique
Sometimes people won't even know I'm the one who do them a favour.
Don't really mind if the credit ends up in other people, as long as someone solved their issue, that'll be my main concern.
But, still I'll always try to open my hands to people who are in need and if I'm really capable in helping them.

So guys! I like to keep myself low =)

Busy, hectic life start walking into my life. I'm really not used to it. I just feel like part of me is already gone.

I used to keep playing all the time, from day to night and now I have to study from day to night. Entertainment.. Hmm I need to create or make one for myself. It's sad that I have less online gaming right now.. I miss Elaine, Jay and JS, but sometimes I really don't feel like going back to FW. Reason - I don't know what to do in there???

Now my head is full with those medical terminologies~~~~ Bondings which I'm apparently so blur now @.@ and my anatomy........ I've forgotten many terms *sigh* *sad* *sob*
Daddy said, Nicole, you need to brush up all your human body parts. Such basic things and yet you forgot. TT

I really really do hope I can pass and graduate from this course successfully. But it's kinda scared when thinking about me in the future ><

Sometimes I do feel like an outcast.
Is it because I don't know how to fit in?
No.. No matter how I try I just find it so hard to mix it.
I just got the feeling I'm the extra.
Or am I jealous???

But.. I can't stand the way people treat me too or should I say extremely nice. It will just make me feel guilty.
Because knowing that I can no longer be there for them and yet they're treating me nice, somehow makes me feel I'm the bad guy for leaving them.

I'm sorry but I don't know what to say. I believe you guys can go on without me.

感情越深，伤害的会更深

Time flies... It's already in the month of September now!!
Having a break now, seriously doing nothing, just staying at home keep starring at my computer.

Things get even bored after I finished watching 3 seasons of Shugo Chara - Shugo Chara, Shugo Chara Doki and Shugo Chara Party!

Shugo Chara

Shugo Chara Doki

Shugo Chara Party

However, for my recoomendation, just watch the first two seasons will do. Party is just too boring and masny extras like the cosplay girls and some piuchi short story. Just wasted 10minutes onthe whole episode. Of course I will not watch those, but I believe everyone just want the animation and not some fillers LOL.

Well, after this anime I've got nothing else to do an simply watching boring anime until I start watching Fairy Tail!!!!!!!!!

This anime is really touching all time. Telling us how important a guild is and the bond between every guildmates. (p/s: those who play online game will understand the feelings and importance of it xD)

Fairy Tail

Shugo Chara is good as well. It mostly emphasize on individual's potential, like not giving up hope in ourselves, kinda like motivation anime actually =)

Well, both animes are really nice. It just depends on individual's taste. 

So that's how I'm going to spend my break xD

Have you ever imagine the feeling of knowing someone who is more or less like you, and the next day you just got to know that he left?

It's awful, really really awful.

Daniel Huh Joon <----------- YOU'RE SUCH A BIG BULLY ><

He's a very nice person, just that not everyone understand him maybe and that's why many people hate him and he got many KOS =X

To me, he's the one that bear the most characters I have, and I think that's why we are able to tease each other so much. But, who knows one day he just left and without saying a thing. I don't know what else to say. Though he said I was not around that time but I just can't accept it.

But to him, who am I to care about his whereabouts so much?

I think it's just sad for me to lose a friend like that. Not to say losing but having less contact than usual and that's seriously hard for me to take it.

Oh yea~ it's finally in the month of August!!!!

One more month before my course starts <3

Anyway, there's still lots of things I need to prepare, hopefully I can cope and manage it *may god bless me*

Well, was having a few conflicts with my siblings lately due to their irrational attitude and behaviour *sigh*

I really do not know what am I suppose to do to make them understand that what they're doing is not helping themselves.

Fine, I think I should just let them be what they want and don't care about them.

Hmm.. I keep thinking that I lack of few things around me. Well, it's not to say I can't buy it, I can but I need!!! I've been spending quite a lot lately, besides if the Korea trip is planning as usual then my expenses will be more *budget! budget! money! money!*

But still, how nice if I can have bags for myself。

Maybe something like this, so I can use it for shopping or any outings?? I love to carry lots of things with me so the bigger the better but of course not too big!!

and... maybe I could get a fashion harvest bag, where I can bring it to class??

Honestly, too many things <3

How nice if I have my personal fitness instructor??

I miss my running lifestyle. I'm just too lazy to go out and jog alone, it's boring at the same time. At least if I have someone to motivate and inspire me, I believe I won't have problem getting myself out from the house.

Talking about fitness instructor, I wonder how is he doing?

I hope he's doing fine right now. Maybe he's busy with his work for instructing people on how to get fit? *lol*

But still, no news from him since last week. Don't really know what's he up to but no reply for any message I sent =(

So sad..

Too bad I was so busy that time when he contacted me and now he's busy??

Just hope he'll take care of himself and I got to see him again.

I just searched some cute animes to set as my pc's picture..

Is it cute????????? Yea I know it is =)

This is pretty~ <3

Hmm man, I got to choose one, but I'm undecidable ><

Maybe I can use it change it alternately every month =D

That's a brilliant idea. Nicole, Nicole look how smart you are =X

Oh ya, my line is pissing me off lately. Not knowing what happen to it, that I keep getting massive lags and disconnected numerous times while playing Forsaken World =(

It's really upset and tons of calling to 100 have been done.

I do hope they really can come up with a solution to it and not to slack just because it's their fasting month now <.<

Alright peeps, got to go, time to sleep~

Nitezzz and latesss..

*may god bless us all =)*