Hmm..

I was just wondering what will happen to a person, if he or she knows the true colours of his or her ex after they broke off?

Will they be surprise or will they get upset?

I so happen to know what was going on last year and I was absolutely surprise.

I somehow couldn't imagine it.

I'm indeed mad at first but later on after some extra details, I managed to cool myself down.

I just want to remain his good image in me, though after I realise how he behave.

I believe everyone has their own flaws, it's just the matter of fact that how many each person has.

People can say that I've been fooled or played by him, but I believe those who said do not know him well as compared to me. Maybe not too much, but a little will do.

I know his feelings for me is genuine that time, it's just that it didn't last long.

Well, the most important thing now is that it's over now.

The past will always remains as the past, hopefully there's no Deja Vu.

I believe by now, even though on and off I will get to know some of his news, some comments from friends about him, it maybe good and maybe be bad, and etc.

But, no matter what happen it's impossible for me to change my perception on him.

Because at that, I know my feelings are definite and real =)

有时候回想过去也蛮好的。

今天就自然而然的去他的profile看看他的消息。

心情自然而然也会跑到以前的我，不过至少现在的我能控制自己了。

他星期四post了这个上去，

“真希望把不愉快的事情都忘掉，真希望醒来之后什么都不记得，真希望我的生活可以过的比较精彩，真希望有人可以陪伴我，不再让我觉得原来这是黑暗”

没想到他也会有这样的想法。。

我没发任何评论，应该是觉得自己没那个资格了吧，也不想再烦他了。

不过，我的确是有话很想说。。

只想说。。

他其实并不是个很坏的男生，只是他还不懂得怎样去得人家的心。

他还不懂得怎样去好好珍惜一个女孩。

不是人家不要陪他，是他愿不愿意让那个人陪他。

我是可以陪他，可是他的所作所为让我觉得他一点都不在乎我。

他选择了离开，那我也没办法。

不管我花多少心思去想他，想尽办法挽留他，他永远都不会回来。

所以呢，不是人家不想陪，而是看他要不要那个人陪。

希望，他能想开点，成熟点。

现在，我们虽然比陌生人还尴尬，不过，我是不是都会关心一下他，祝福他有个好未来。

我不会为了他的所作所为而恨他，因为我从来都不懂怎样去憎恨一个人。

只是同情他这个人罢了。

不管怎样，过去就是过去了。

虽然还有一点点思念，不过那些思念只能收藏在心里。

思念里，只有我们开心的回忆，不开心的我也自然而然的把它给忘了。

我相信这样的话，他在我心目中的影响永远都是好的。

I try not to think so much

I try not to care so much

But, I just can't do it.

I couldn't imagine and accept what is happening around now.

Why things like that happen?

Why can't you guys or maybe one of you just be nice to each other?

Why will things get worst each time??

I seriously don't ask for more, I just want peace, you know?

I just want to see all of us get along with each other.

For my 20th birthday wishes,

1st wish: All of us can get along with each other

2nd wish: All of us can get along with each other

3rd: All of us can get along with each other

That's what I'm hoping and wishing for.

I used to wish for good results in studies for the past 19 years but not this time.

But somehow, I still can't see anything from it.

I really don't know what to do anymore.

I love you guys, really do but sometimes the more I love, the more disappointments I get in return.

I just hope to see another miracle in my life again.

First day in University.

I couldn't wake up or I should say I'm very lazy to get up ><

The moment I stepped out of the house, I start missing you guys so so much.

Just wish to go back into my room and start gaming, but I can't =(

A brand new life and a brand new day is ahead of me!

Let the by gone be by gone.

That's what I thought.

Jam for an hour before reaching Uni ==

Luckily I'm not late to my first class =)

Malaysian studies.

Hmm.. I wonder how is it like, a lot people said it's a boring subject.

Everything about Malaysia's history.

Well, to me it's just listen lots of lots of stories =)

English class~

OMG!!

Man are from Mars, Women are from Venus.

I never expect to be reading article related to relationship after recent incident.

But, it's a nice story.

So, the whole English class was about problems face in a relationship.

Hmm.. I'm starting to wonder is this some kind of a test??

Thanks my dear - Jenny

I'm glad that you're still here with me no matter what happened.

Though you're miles away from me but I can feel the warmth given out by you.

Thanks so much after a short call.

Looks like you really understands me well, very well and my needs.

Everything has been kept in my heart for so long and now they're all 'free'.

I'm just like a new born baby today, just hatched out from wherever I was and facing new things in life.

Yes! I should start my new life, a brand new one, in a brand new environment.

I'm finally feeling better.

I can't imagine my life without you.

Really thanks a lot!

Hoping to see you soon.

Love you always.......

Muackssssssss

A very special day today.

First of all, Happy Mother's Day to all the moms.

Secondly, Happy Birthday to myself.

Finally turns 20 today.

Nothing special to do on this day, just staying at home rotting.

Today's sucks.

I'm glad that I've made the right decision for deactivating my Facebook account.

Not much people wish me and I don't expect more.

I was happy at first when Kat sang Happy Birthday to me that I almost cried, but out of sudden, her mood changed which makes me feel so so bad again.

I really feel like crying on this day because I'm freaking tired right now.

I don't know what happened to me, just feeling very tired and feel like giving up myself.

They got into fight again and I don't know why.

Honestly, when I see that, I really don't need any wishes, I just hope everyone can just get a long together.

What is wrong with them? or is there something wrong with me?

Maybe Legend was right, I should just let them alone.

But don't know why, I just hate today and feel like crying the whole day after everything that happened to me.

I have to force myself to smile on today and saying I'm fine when people ask me how are you.

I realise that I've changed after what happened on 16th April 2011.

I couldn't believe I got the courage to ask Eric about the wallet I sent to him.

From what Eric said, he changed his wallet.

Guess what?

He's not using the one that I bought.

OK~ This is what I had in my mind when Eric told me.

I'm not sure whether is that his old wallet but according to Eric, he just change it.

Well.. I seriously have nothing to say at all.

I'm totally speechless.

He can really do what he wants and what he like.

I don't think I'm going to know anything about him anymore.

The more I know and ask, the more I'll get hurt.

Just like now!