I try not to think so much

I try not to care so much

But, I just can't do it.

I couldn't imagine and accept what is happening around now.

Why things like that happen?

Why can't you guys or maybe one of you just be nice to each other?

Why will things get worst each time??

I seriously don't ask for more, I just want peace, you know?

I just want to see all of us get along with each other.

For my 20th birthday wishes,

1st wish: All of us can get along with each other

2nd wish: All of us can get along with each other

3rd: All of us can get along with each other

That's what I'm hoping and wishing for.

I used to wish for good results in studies for the past 19 years but not this time.

But somehow, I still can't see anything from it.

I really don't know what to do anymore.

I love you guys, really do but sometimes the more I love, the more disappointments I get in return.

I just hope to see another miracle in my life again.

First day in University.

I couldn't wake up or I should say I'm very lazy to get up ><

The moment I stepped out of the house, I start missing you guys so so much.

Just wish to go back into my room and start gaming, but I can't =(

A brand new life and a brand new day is ahead of me!

Let the by gone be by gone.

That's what I thought.

Jam for an hour before reaching Uni ==

Luckily I'm not late to my first class =)

Malaysian studies.

Hmm.. I wonder how is it like, a lot people said it's a boring subject.

Everything about Malaysia's history.

Well, to me it's just listen lots of lots of stories =)

English class~

OMG!!

Man are from Mars, Women are from Venus.

I never expect to be reading article related to relationship after recent incident.

But, it's a nice story.

So, the whole English class was about problems face in a relationship.

Hmm.. I'm starting to wonder is this some kind of a test??

Thanks my dear - Jenny

I'm glad that you're still here with me no matter what happened.

Though you're miles away from me but I can feel the warmth given out by you.

Thanks so much after a short call.

Looks like you really understands me well, very well and my needs.

Everything has been kept in my heart for so long and now they're all 'free'.

I'm just like a new born baby today, just hatched out from wherever I was and facing new things in life.

Yes! I should start my new life, a brand new one, in a brand new environment.

I'm finally feeling better.

I can't imagine my life without you.

Really thanks a lot!

Hoping to see you soon.

Love you always.......

Muackssssssss

A very special day today.

First of all, Happy Mother's Day to all the moms.

Secondly, Happy Birthday to myself.

Finally turns 20 today.

Nothing special to do on this day, just staying at home rotting.

Today's sucks.

I'm glad that I've made the right decision for deactivating my Facebook account.

Not much people wish me and I don't expect more.

I was happy at first when Kat sang Happy Birthday to me that I almost cried, but out of sudden, her mood changed which makes me feel so so bad again.

I really feel like crying on this day because I'm freaking tired right now.

I don't know what happened to me, just feeling very tired and feel like giving up myself.

They got into fight again and I don't know why.

Honestly, when I see that, I really don't need any wishes, I just hope everyone can just get a long together.

What is wrong with them? or is there something wrong with me?

Maybe Legend was right, I should just let them alone.

But don't know why, I just hate today and feel like crying the whole day after everything that happened to me.

I have to force myself to smile on today and saying I'm fine when people ask me how are you.

I realise that I've changed after what happened on 16th April 2011.

I couldn't believe I got the courage to ask Eric about the wallet I sent to him.

From what Eric said, he changed his wallet.

Guess what?

He's not using the one that I bought.

OK~ This is what I had in my mind when Eric told me.

I'm not sure whether is that his old wallet but according to Eric, he just change it.

Well.. I seriously have nothing to say at all.

I'm totally speechless.

He can really do what he wants and what he like.

I don't think I'm going to know anything about him anymore.

The more I know and ask, the more I'll get hurt.

Just like now!

Here goes again.

They start to get mad at each other and I'm standing in the middle don't know to do.

One side tells me this and that and the other side tells me that and this.

I keep trying to pull them back together, but not sure whether am I doing it correctly.

I really feel sad looking them like that, really really sad.

Why can't we just play at peace?

I prayed deep inside my heart.

I prayed between friendship and relationship, if I was given a chance to save one, I'm willing sacrifice my relationship.

It's not that I have get over with him, I haven't. I still misses him.

I think my prayer was heard. After my dinner, they were back together a little bit, at least they start talking to each other.

I seriously cannot take anymore if things keep like this.

Losing him already give me a strike and now friendship matters?? This will give me another big strike.

Since I already made my choice and I've chose them, I really have to let him go.

It's hurtful but I've got no choice.

Let's just hope what I wish for is really worth it.

Sigh..

Why do they have to start again??

Can't they stop fighting with each other??

The more they fight, the more they will make me remind of him.

Sometimes, I do wonder what will happen or what would I be if I have not listen to Virgil for going back to Perfect World.

I will not have a new account --> I will not know Kathy and Jaime --> I will not know Eric --> I will not know Darren --> I will not able to hear them fighting, or anyone gets moody.

Everything is a chain reaction.

This is the path I chose so no matter what I still have to go on with it.