Well, I'm almost done with everything I need to send him the parcel.

I'll miss them.

That's the only thing I have now that keep me continue living.

Sounds so stupid eh. going crazy over a guy.

Today, got to know him a little more.

Enter a Chinese social networking, and got to know some of his previous relationship.

Wow, couldn't imagine he really love that girl a lot and he's feeling what I am right now.

It was last year, not long ago.

He still misses her last year July, after they broke off.

They broke off because the girl feels that he's too bored, no time for her, keep making her angry etc.

Sigh..

I'm so sorry, I promise him that I won't tell him the same thing, but looks like I'm more or less the same.

My heart aches when I read what he said.

I couldn't believe I'm complaining about it sometimes.

I'm really sorry, for not able to understand you well.

I really miss you, but I don't know what can I do now to hold you.

You're very far away from me now.

I think the feelings you used to have for me is fading.

Sorry to those who knows me and having my Facebook account.

Sad to say that, I have deactivated my Facebook account.
It's just temporary so don't worry, I'll be back when I'm feeling much better.

Sorry if you guys feel that I'm being too rush.
Because, I'm trying my best to not look at his profile and I hope by doing so I can at least control myself, though I know it's hard.
Feel free to send me an email if you need anything or just stop by at my blog.

My blog will always be alive, don't worry.
I'll take good care of myself and will not do anything stupid things.
Trust me!

Even though I'm quite down lately but I need got some of my sense with me.

Thanks for all the cares you guys gave me.

I'll try to be back soon..

I Already Miss You

It's ok even if i'm hurt

Wow..
Didn’t even realise i have the courage to ask him.
Now, everything finally come into an end.
He decided not to continue our relationship.

Though i do cried, but I'm happy.
I’m happy, as I know i really love him.
I'm happy, as he taught me a lot of things.
I'm happy, as i got to know myself better.
I'm happy, as i got my first experience though it didn’t end well.
I'm happy, as I'm not mad at him at all

I believe this is because i still love him
and
I know I'll miss him.

I’ll back off so he can live a better life.

I'm happy I've made such a big sacrifice.
though my heart starts to bleed after hearing he said not to continue.

Because……………

I LOVE HIM!!

Thanks so much!!!!!!!!

I'll back off so you can live better - G.NA

幸福

这个词在傻瓜眼里很简单

不是花不完的钱

不是名车别墅

傻瓜想要的幸福是

在我要去上班的时候

能听到你一句简单的

路上小心点

傻瓜想要的幸福是

在我下班回家来了的时候

你会对我说上一句冷吗

饿了吧

这样就足够了

傻瓜想要的幸福是

在我们一起逛街的时候

你会像别的情侣一样

挽着我的胳膊

傻瓜想要的幸福是

我给你发的短信你会回复我一个

哪怕是一句你在忙

一会在说

傻瓜想要的幸福是

你会在乎我一点

不要让我感觉到我的存在

对你来说是无所谓的

我愿意为你付出一切

傻瓜想要的幸福真的好简单

我只想得到你的一点点关心

一点点就好

我一直在想，­

我究竟还可以再伪装多久？­

我不坚强，­

又 能软弱给谁看？­

受伤,­

想醉酒发泄出来.­

心 底，­

是静静流淌的哀伤­

我努力学着去伪装,­

试着在脸上 挂起那虚伪的微笑.­

也许是因为太过倔强，­

也许是因为 太过骄傲，­

不愿意让人看见自己软弱的一面，­

不愿意被人看见我已伤得体无完肤的狼狈.­

所 以，在明明很痛苦很难过的时候，­

却用一个违心的微笑来掩饰所有的伤痕，­

可是自己却听见 心碎满地的声音...­

心灵的某个角落里,­

依然是那么 脆弱和不堪,­

一切只是假装的坚强而已,­

外表的冷漠只是为了掩饰内心的脆弱罢了.­

有 时连自己看自己都是陌生的.­

你看见我的微笑，­

看不见 我的伤痕，­

我起码可以在你们的面前一直的骄傲着.­

如果你能读懂我的伤悲，­

那 也不要残忍的揭穿我的脆弱，­

就让我依然假装坚强

明知，自己全身都是伤­

却 还要愿意继续伤下去

Baby, dear, darling, honey…
How long more can I use these to call you?
How long more can you use these to call me?
How long more can we go??

I no longer hear you calling me baby.
I no longer hear you calling me dear.

Baby, what is bothering you now seriously?
You say nothing but I don’t think is that simple.
What’s in your mind right now?
What do you want right now?
Tell me honestly and I’ll try to give you.

Are you feeling lost right now?
Are you looking for your freedom back but you’re afraid to ask me?
Are you worried that I’ll get mad or sad?
Do you really want it back?
If you really want it back, then I have no choice but to give you back.
I’ll let you go and will not request you to come back.
If this is the only way you will be happier then I’m willing to give.

No need to worry about me, I’ll be fine.
It’ll just hurt, maybe for some time.
I’ve already try my best to reach for you, but if it’s still not enough for you, then I’m sorry.
I really did do everything I can.

Sorry if I’m not caring enough for you.
Sorry if I’m not able to do anything for you.
Sorry if I’ve ever made you angry.
Sorry if I’ve ever made you feeling so confuse.
Sorry if I’ve been clinging to you.
Sorry if I’ve given you so many troubles.

I love you.
I really really do.
That’s why, don’t hide your feelings anymore, it’ll hurt me more.
So if you want your freedom back, tell me, I promise I’ll let you go.